The school building's ground floor is full of students at noon. My friends always bring their guitar here to play , trying to flirt with the girls. Every day , they carefully choose the songs that will impress girls the most
There are currently many famous songs , so the list is pretty long , and we need practice the songs with hard guitar chords. Honestly , i join them sometimes when i'm bored. The thing is , they want to go as far as to upload video clips on Youtube so that the girls will be more impressed
It would prefer if they didn't get me involved. Well , i'm willing to help them if they ask me , but i didn't expect myself to be stunned by what they said
"Lets do Close"
I say nothing and turn around , leaving them quietly , with countless images slowly popping up in my head. And of course , they are the images of the little guy i long to meet , but the chance is zero
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Out of million songs in the world , why the fuck did they choose Scrubb's song?
Sarawat diary : Move on in a circle indefinitely
"Sarawat , you fucker , are you free tomorrow?"
"Why?" This question always comes with troublesome shit
"There's a concert for the indie lovers , free pass again , you in?"
"I'll pass." Im determined not to go to any concerts anymore , see other people or bands or whatever , so that i won't be obsessed with chasing after someone whose name i don't even know. But my friends don't let me be like they used to they're pressuring me even more now
"Hey , for the sake of our high school life."
"We better prepare for the exams. We'll fail if we keep going out."
"Let this be the last time , then. Let's make memories before we don't get to hang out together anymore."
"..."
"Sarawat , we can't turn back time , you know."
I still don't answer , crossing my arms , looking up at my friends who are trying to persuade me with words
"Come on , this is probably the last concert before we graduate"
"..."
"Wat." they look so gloomy. What the hell can i do now?
"All right. Did you see the lineup of the bands , though?"
"There'll be lots of bands. And your fav , of course."
Maybe it's Solitude is Bliss or Inspirative , but now
"Scrubb will be there."
Oh...
Fuck my life
Sarawat's diary : No more moving on , i'm fucking done
The toughest and most difficult time is the three months before the admission tests. We're all forced to join the battle and fight no matter how hard we wish to escape. Besides the tutorial school , my friend's places are where i eat , sleep and spend most of my time
I get up in the morning and carry my textbooks to study with my friends , staying up late and getting up early. The circle repeats until i've lost a lot of weigh. We're about to lose it too many times during the test. And finally , when the result is announced , some get into the universities of their choice , some don't. One thing we know for sure is , it's time for our high school gang to part
I got into the university in Chiang Mai , far away from everyone. It's going ot be hard to hang out with the guys like before , so we meet up for the last gathering , enjoying Japanese hot pot , sharing stories of the past years. Topics after topics are brought up until an unexpected topic is mentioned
"Have you heard about the guy who got heartbroken although the relationship never even happened?"
Everyone's eyes are on me right now , so i can't help but ask
"Who?"
"You. What a sad dude." I'm so done with them "Listen to me , pal."
"I'm not your pal today."
"Whoa , so friendship can be ruined this easily? Tell us what's on your mind. We won't see each other often anyway. Think of it as a heart to heart before we go our separate ways."
I've never consider telling anyone about it because it might sound stupid to them , except for Phukong whom i had unintentionally told everything to one night
But now that my friends keep pressing me , i give in and spill the whole story. I didn't expect any advice , but they all cheered me up , giving me full support , even though i told them that the person was a guy
"Trust me , if you guys are mean to be , you'll meet again someday."
"I will be studying in Chiang Mai , we won't get to meet each other again."
With tons of universities and millions of people , it's impossible for two strangers to meet again. It's fantasy
"he might be studying in Chiang Mai as well."
"Bullshit. How do you know he's our age?"
"I bet you ten baht."
"Piss off."
"Not enough? Fifteen baht , then. Transfer it to my account when you meet him"
"Sure , if i meet him again." I end the talk out of annoyance.
We change the subject right away. Im not sure when we say our goodbyes and go home or what kind of state we are in after that. Once im in my room , i plop down on my bed with the smell of the hot pot still sticking on my clothes
Time flies
Im departing for Chiang Mai tomorrow. As im packing my stuff , ive decided to keep the memory of that person with me
They say running away is more tiring than facing it , i never believed it until it happened to me. Its hard to forget someone you adore terribly , so i choose to keep him in the deepest part of my memory
"You recording , Phukong?"
"I pressed it. Start talking."
After organizing some of my stuff on the floor wearily , i lie down on my bed to take a break , i take out my phone , and play the audio recording i recorded a long time ago and had never thought about listening to it again
"To you..." I dont know his name , so i simply said you "Im sarawat , no nickname. I...i met you at scrubb's live show."
"I want to know you but its impossible , so today i will you a song. Its a song that reminds me of you smile. Ah...i cant read my script , i'll start singing , then"
Smile by Scrubb starts. I hear my voice and the melody from my favorite guitar. The image of him in his school uniform flashes in my head. What will happen if we meet again ? What will happen if i get to see his cute smile up close? I'll probably go crazy
Even after the song has ended , im still absorbed in my voice from the audio recording
"Ah.. it might not be very good. I have never done this before. But there's one thing i want to tell you. I dont know if you will ever get to hear it , all i can do is tell you on this phone..."
"I... like you."
Blue Hawaii , Scrubb , Silpakorn ,and the song Close that nigh , they will all be in my memory forever
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