Here's how i feel , if we had to sing one song a hundred time , Would we still be into the lyrics each time we sing it?
Last night was such a letdown...
Im about to cry now that i think abut it. It hurt , it was painful , the hollowness in my heart was no joke when Sarawat came closer to me , and whispered in a hoarse voice...
Tine , scoot over. You'll catch a cold form me
Daaaaaaamn!
The thing is , Sarawat had been away with the white lions for three days and two nights to do some volunteer work , trying to do good deeds by renovating a school and making donations. I couldn't join them because of work a the faculty. I'd have never thought that i'd come back and see this bulky guy shivering because a fever
He said he had fixed a roof under the rain , and gotten drunk with the seniors to celebrate after that. The result as you can see , he's sleeping on the bed like a withered vegetable , and now i have to take care of him. What a burden.
"Sarawat , you feeling better? How's your headache?"
Good thing its a Saturday. Its a bit past ten right now. I dont want to disturb his sleep , but he needs to eat something so he can take medicine
"Still bad" He opens his eyes drowsily , his lips so chapped that i feel bad.
We've been dating for a year now , but i've never seen him like this before. It hurt
"You still have a fever"
"I'll be okay soon."
"Don't die , Sarawat. I'll definitely become a playboy if you die. I don't wanna be a playboy." I say. , stifling a smile
"You're worried or you want me to die , huh?"
"Both."
He hits my forehead with his knuckles. Ouch.. he's sick and tired but that hurt like hell. He won't die easily
Sarawat started getting weary after he'd come back from the volunteer camp yesterday evening , and the fever got so bad that he couldn't get up in the middle of the night. We slept with a bolster placed between us all night long. Luckily , im a strong man , so i wont catch a cold from him that easily. Thats why im taking care of him as good boyfriend right now
"Tell me what you want to eat , i'll cook for you." I say to him as i touch his forehead to see if the fever has gone down
"Don't do it. Lets order something
"Dont want me to go through all the trouble , huh?"
"No , you suck at it. Tastes like shit"
My heart.....
I'd kick his ass if he weren't sick. He keeps getting on my nerves. I'm not as nice as i look , you know
"Should i leave you to die?"
"if my death makes you happy , i definitely won't die."
"How touching to hear you say that." Argh , i can't help rolling my eyes
What an obnoxious bastard. To anyone who says Sarawat is a shy , quiet man , if you really get to know him , you'll see what a jerk he is
Sarawat and i are no different from other couples in the world. However a possible difference is that our friends have started to wonder if we're truly a couple or if we're really enemies because we can't stop provoking each other. Of course , i love and care about him a lot , but the way we express those feelings is just a little weird
"Lets eat first. I'll decide the menu and you have no right to argue." I rush to the kitchen , pour milk into a glass and order porridge for home delivery because i don't want him to die an untimely death
As i wait for the delivery , i prepare a wet cloth to rub his body. I did it for him twice last night be he still isn't feeling better. If the fever doesn't go down , i guess i'll have to call Man here to carry this heavy jerk to the hospital
"Tine , too harsh , my skin is about to fall off." He complains as i rub his body with the wet cloth . So annoying
"Quit whining. You acted all tough when you stayed in the rain."
"Sorry for troubling you." What? Why is he getting emotional now? He was trying to create a comedy scene just now
"Good that you know. Take care of yourself well the next time."
"You're worried , right?"
"About myself , yes."
The hell is wrong with me? My face burns as if i'm about to have a fever as well. The longer i rub his body , the more difficult it becomes to meet his eyes. Im still not used to his gaze even if we've dated for quite some time now.
The food is here ten minutes late. It's from our go to restaurant near the university ,s o it must be appetizing enough for him to not complain. I actually wanted to show him my exceptional cooking skills , but i was scared he'd eat too little and feel worse
"Here's your porridge. Get up and have some."
I sit on the side of the bed with a bowl of minced pork porridge in my hands , and it smells so good. Sarawat opens his eyes again , tries to get up awkwardly , and then speaks in a voice so cute that i want to slap his mouth
"Feed me , im tired."
"Stop acting , You can ran across the field with your dislocated knee. How can you not eat by yourself when it's just a fever?"
"I'm sick , my head hurts , my throat's sore." He start coughing
Take your Oscar award! I'm at a loss for words
"All right , i'll feed you. Open up." He obeys , opening his mouth to gobble the spoonful of porridge with a straight face. I really can't guess his emotions "Is it good?"
"No."
"Huh? But this is from our go to place."
"Then it's good. It wouldn't be good if you made it."
"Here goes the master of being a pain in the ass."
"My head hurts."
"That's nice move. Open up." I scoop up another spoonful and put it in front of his mouth , but he doesn't obey this time. He's looking at me right in the eye
"Blow on it first , it's hot."
"I did , Didn't you see it?"
"No. Do it again."
"Are you messing with me?"
"What? Just do it , I'm hungry" Im not sure anymore if he's my boyfriend or my kid. But no matter how much he messes with me , i still spoil him , feeding him until the bowl is clean and then i make him take the medicine
"Get better soon. Don't be a burden for a chic guy like me." I mumble letting him rest. But instead of shutting up , Sarawat continue talking in hoarse voice
"Tine."
"Ret now i'll do the dishes"
"Don't forget to wash your hands with soap after you're done."
"Got it."
"Don't forget to ear."
"I ordered mine as well. I'll eat it right away."
"Tell me if you feel you've caught a cold from me."
"Yes ,siiiiiir." I turn to face hime "Anything else? Say it now"
"I'm worried."
"Im worried about you too."
"I don't wanna get better."
"You'll be a burden then."
I say softly but can't stifle my smile at the same time. We've been together for a long time now. One thing that has never changed from the first day until now is how he cares about me. That's the reason why... i love him more and more every day
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