"I've been rejected once again, I guess."
It was a couple of years ago when I saw myself changing. I tried to be more friendly. I want to experience things outside this world I am in.
So I did. I have gained new friends who I jave thought I can rely on. Being with them feels easier. Walk with them. Eat with them. Do crazy things with them. Play. Laugh. I was joined to a new group. I felt the happiness more than I sought for.
And then, I fell in love again. At first, it feels weird. It is not something I feel all the time; not even on someone I admire. Days have passed and this heart starts to skip a beat. Everytime I talk to her, it gets faster and faster. Her voice, ringing in my ears. For me, our conversations are not the same anymore.
So when I told her what I feel, I've been rejected.
When those new friends got what they needed, they left. I felt rejected.
They won't tell but they just me want me to forget those memories we have shared.
I am not idiot, you see?
But if that is all you want...
then stop being on my mind, all the time.
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