Mystery man's word always throws me for a loop. Sometimes he would say the most awkward things at the most inappropriate moments. However, I knew that I could be myself around him without having to fake being popular. I was okay, and I was accepted.
"I will reveal myself tonight. We will go on a date! I will be a wolf and you will be a zombie princess." He said.
"But that's completely random! I don't have a zombie princess costume!" I replied, as I pictured the image in my head.
"Then be whatever you want to be! Why not go on a date?" he questioned, trying to con me into some alone time with him.
"I don't know if I feel safe unless I can bring my friend". I sat there looking as dumbfounded as I felt. No question about it; this guy was probably crazy. At least I will bring a friend, it would be safer. I will also let my mom know of the blind date. It would be a lot safer than my last date for sure.
"Bring them with you, pick you up at 7 pm!" he stated, waiting for me to respond, but I couldn't as I was drawn to my window.
I looked outside to see if Lee was home because my mind was still on him. I was head-over-heels, and I needed to find an escape. I thought Lee was my escape, but he was the prison that I had been trapped in.
I was still suspicious, and it was 5 o'clock. I still had to get ready. I told my mom that I was going on a date tonight with this other guy. I told her that I was taking Marissa because I had never met this guy before. She didn't like it, but she applauded me for taking Marissa with me for backup.
"Hey, Marissa?! I texted quickly, hoping that she hadn't made any plans.
"Hey," she responded promptly.
"Are you at all able to go out tonight? I have a date with this guy, and I don't know this guy, and I don't want another situation like that with Troy." I remembered how horrible that went as I was asking her. Flashbacks popped in my head and they took me down to bad thoughts.
"Sure, I guess." I'm sure she thought I was whoring around, but I wasn't going to let this one get too far this time. This is a basic date, no sex, no emotion. I needed to get out of the mindset that I needed Lee. Lee was toxic for me wasn't he? I thought
I peaked out the window to see what Lee was doing. I was curious. I texted Aaron because he gave me his number, but I never used it. I was still caught up on Lee.
"Hey, Aaron. Is Lee with you?" I said cautiously because I just wanted to find out where he was. I was nosy and I wanted to make sure he wasn't having too much fun without me.
"Yea, he went out to the pool." Aaron gave me the scoop. He told me that Lee has been around water a lot lately, and that he was obsessed with it. I thought I knew why, but I knew Aaron didn't know the truth. It was because the water made him feel close to me.
"As far as I remember, Lee does not have a pool!" I recalled as I tried to think who had a pool.
"I meant to say that we are at a party right now, and he went out back to the pool!" Aaron had yelled over the phone, just barely loud enough so I could hear him. Then, I heard loud music louder than his voice.
I heard a loud noise, and then I heard a girl yelling, "Give me the phone!" After that, I heard another loud noise, soon after. "Hey, Fraidy, get lost like the loser you are, don't call my boyfriend!!!" She sounded drunk then I heard a beep as she hung up Aaron's phone. I never realized how lucky I was to NOT have made friends with those girls. They will probably grow up to be wonderful prizes for their husbands. No thought process and just nothing to society being so selfish.
I couldn't be focused on Lee, this was my date after Lee. He is my first love. I will get over him. Eventually. I hope so. I just couldn't imagine a girl and Lee together. Although we weren't together, I still couldn't seem to let him go. I know that I have to, though. It sure is hard.
Marissa ran up the stairs, "Kylie, I am ready to go; I'm just wearing something a little mysterious. I'm going to be the evil stepmother, haha." she said in a witch voice. You couldn't see her face, but I could tell she was playing the secret part really well.
"I just don't know what to do, I love Lee still, and is it really right for me to move on even though I am still in love with him? And... I have absolutely nothing to wear!!!" I started crying and plopped myself on my bed.
"Aw, sweetie. I'm not going to lie to you; getting over your first love is not easy, but I still haven't done it. I love him but like he is not for me anymore, you know? Maybe God pointed you in his direction because you are meant to be? You never know what God has in store for you." Marissa said. It was just like her to have that thought process, almost like a gypsy ball that would see into the future.
"Plus you don't know if this new guy is the real one? Let's just have some fun and enjoy the night out. We both need it!" I knew that we needed it but I needed to be with somebody, I relied on my significant other for my own happiness. I knew it wasn't healthy, but it was what I was used to. It became a pattern for me.
Marissa curled my hair, and it took a really long time. The whole time she was curling my hair I was thinking. I was thinking about all the circumstances in my life and what it would be like if I didn't have all these limitations.
I was thinking all this time I've been running after a guy who never wanted me but wanted to use me. He did not care about me, only to care for what I could do for him. He lied to me about everything? I mean everything? How could everything be a lie? He was probably telling everybody about me and making me look bad. I guess that doesn't matter because he only makes himself look like a loser. If he says terrible things about me, he will say bad things about the next girl. Maybe Marissa was right though? Perhaps fate or God pointed me in this mystery man's direction for a reason. Did God himself want me to forget Lee, or did he want to teach me a lesson?
I put on a dress and wore some fancy shoes, and waited by my window for this mystery man to arrive. I would glance at my phone as I intentionally awaited his text. Not Mystery mans but I am talking about the boy who broke my heart. It was awful, he made me dependent on him and if I was finally happy he would take it away, I never knew how true that was either.
I saw some lights flash and I knew it was him. My heart pounded again. Was I excited? Maybe. Perhaps it was a sign that this man would one day be vital to me. Was I scared? Definitely, maybe it was that feeling in the pit of my stomach that something terrible was about to happen, or maybe it was the feeling of those butterflies you get when you finally meet the one. I thought I had already met the one. Maybe my path wasn't that way? Perhaps it was this way? Maybe I should just say maybe and enjoy my life. Things can change in a heartbeat. or even in a moment.
Marissa put on her makeup ever so delicately. She was very careful about mixing the colors. She had separated the purples from the pinks that framed her face. I knew that I liked this man, but a lot of times Marissa and I end up crushing on the same dude. Maybe she liked this man; perhaps she was going to try to steal him away from me. Or maybe she just wanted to look presentable for my sake. One thing was for sure. I was falling for him just watching him pull up and get out of the vehicle, and smile at me. He was a blonde man, and I couldn't see the color eyes he had because he was wearing a face cover mask. But I felt a drop in my stomach, good or bad here we go. It's showtime!
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