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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KEILbKbp9
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTVjqxFSEc
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUM8UHnU7k
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNAx9EPlnQ
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoVjLorDqg
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOjdlmCNDh
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuo6dt2DOL
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxKNgNvx4L
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByHQHHNLZb
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQnuj7eBcE
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcrSJJ1JuY
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMx31xPQmY
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cx5yyw13x
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6RmS92NWJ
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlTM58H6VJ
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPT3m9qIoe
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fpu97nNy5
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIbjOGIhBr
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClOYlfWGmu
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ppt02clCE
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vd6cDUA0n
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LbPU8URdp
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzp3dteYmw1
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsm8oOmtgmN
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ000zahBr0v
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGafJlctM4
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuoivHwUye
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUDGe7BGCd
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYaYdXTn53
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiV6SQVYzk3
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUNPmLqxtJ
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkWFzf1sGi
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSP084IVtRG
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveKTGr0zan
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbl020qVfH
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLltVT5dqB
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6Tn2cGeEH
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHByf4qIQNp
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpwGfH9vpw
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bZVWPHvdb
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXvdsGZlvW
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8062ivsKK
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2HMmtkuuu
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCdtyQrtrB
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDCuOCS5nM
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAP9Wxbtblr
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEDh76Yh1g
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1PuE0Mlyz
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPoPgXRnDk
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4nNTzz5Pl
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGy1YPS2UGy
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxe5xd6BXG
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ146sqIqFtW
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFnfaMdRnX
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYEyihMH4F
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFi87oH33P
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcs2FxNYesa
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwdASU3GAH
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYtMX5EeC7
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUzcdcNvnZ
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiXDI864Gn
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfuZ1jZ0gN
隨即二人也站在了原地。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgA8kVB9Wf4
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKauWHygz4l
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XVpnPmJPC
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2cPOdwKSI
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtzy7irwwv
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnI5dBRMS6n
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdy9IEKlN6
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgMiaUeoK7
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaCHKG9S3r
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEju9PP5ey
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvRhu0I3kS
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBGoPwycyX
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9py5XcIsBx
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5ep560WHH
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WNTpwlmcT
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnDsRFxFr6
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5gISCgjGI
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgce02PxCqq
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLYfrxUhJu
可是，她接著聽到答案是……423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jMFOI633P
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAkyfGVgmA
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteh9sBdlXq
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXNQGKL7ZM
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AJxbCnpng
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHB1JhWliY
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRExsfWUt4
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayyV7ubxIb
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgyTn25dno
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLSM4d6cCS
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnIR3sdDkp
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XiYpUE1tP
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfO1fewqYcr
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFzFuZLLGQ
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6bgzsrnA4
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0j9QO8xAA
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cVaKPq7Eu
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMvkB9uaMZ
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4DcjjzIGP
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhmt2YDP5w
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslsHG7EU5a
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7pAe1QD0w
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0NS9HrpNy
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww7NT8jxkr
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzaajju0QV
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jvqIVxRUY
423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1sI98eGWp
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOHzt8214n
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUklp3Zj9pU
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxofTbpM1q6
「嚓—」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyuKQcgehw
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423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfKaOm2fnw
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZRyVaMEEd
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作者在此鄭重聲明：423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrh0BK7uPI
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhjdZf6jIY
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHFhBWcPjo
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrArRKp2pg
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU703B3Hrb
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGP5WkIIEEo
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjQUmGoOmT
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作者閒聊：423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPy99erOc46
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeGkMwSCV4
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4bTmJrTFu
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