第五十九．五章660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3oh0vQgr7
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「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0S1qc21lzL
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0rQI132zT
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6xH4z53EF
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWDlI3XrC4
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6ACJERyaf
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6cxxoXQCl
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7pDMF0rlA
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwldhxhRiz
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxpJVwMcRd
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtH223CBGFa
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdKJqaiyp5
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq19kC4xssi
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnEYesl8q7
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MeQGJq1d6
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡev4qc3uOcj
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWeaMEmgz8
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC5aj5bJ5v
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjYXdLPn2o
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3NFTKKdap
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRO0mrgHP8
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGS49SKwHlQ
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TcphPynCt
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIn723gFkX
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8eOTig2xG
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XDf4lb5fF
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9L4Cp29ej
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2CPfBDgX6
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHKCUEPXh7
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cY1H5hiiI
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQLaHT7RVR
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVyNUIBmUI
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpDG8Iql4M
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWeuC98RU4
他回答著我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUH4kwScOX
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcXtuNSC0m
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPG3NzgiGLP
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcXHE84BrZ
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3J4A67kp2
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqb0Xo5jPx
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAaXA9n5lS
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwfcdrKiu2
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBqA85UIsY
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyw5Bz3d54f
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HGnrVGb76
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznXPmA7QA0
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdx8VuVwI8R
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaswns5Ban
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPJ84OTuLD
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLFTewhwFu
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIO8xtqx4r6
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMf4TY4AM3
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgRcmgAv2v
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFgtBw5Puj
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMDdnCONOp
拜託不要再說這些說話了……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsyMptEclX
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GCKzoCbEW
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VauS5zaWo
但是我還得繼續演下去……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK19WfRHQQ
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0NwQ9OSUG
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oCDSr8Bm4
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01oiZzCtv4
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebD4oVTPIt
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQL8MRaqIt
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ULxoWlZBq
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0tkfmcSyn
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAv869pwx4S
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBBdpHM0bO
我看似很有道理地說著。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqk0xOksHWg
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAtdXawFmi
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RDMK5t3CC
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjJZIUQG4m
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQck2obS2Z
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1nLL5o4ar
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0X1dR9z4jj
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTIfaOOm7n
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssUIVtrG1F
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR60aH7dRUS
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTeOt3FmrW
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIzf6uUOn0
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatp8v4MCF7
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPySnH1RSUs
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbKAEXmbUy
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfsI5PPf2W
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ8AglLMwv
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufUIYxcPBY
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNXVly4N2H
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLD5ArvFD5
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFEwLFSdRY
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZKtJhUA3N
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBdDEch3x4
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z7sbH2Sy5
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dngtIhLGm
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEO9ucWkrBy
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGipqqAcWY
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhi9tg6hT4b
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1D0bbZeQiM
我不想他後悔。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTcTzFchRs
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC7Eb6aXZ1
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxARv132Hw
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuu8uUeb0Z
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g4MTcoqGQ
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2HKOtgXaW
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52tuqEycap
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡircC3uylus
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpL4VHJ8D5f
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHffFXnyeB0
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngwaobnqrE
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkn2aCvD3o
660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmOOquQmIE
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkwsPSw8yF
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHQREd2qon
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lj2e8QwE3
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