暑假篇：釋懷459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OrcbaReVe
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBP8OQYu43
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKgn4FGiPc
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLqMybIAW3
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYC0wFfZFUK
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASl2nD7YEX
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhmHwFaOLm
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOfq2mZlo3
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6tBzuKJf5
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1jBhXaSJN
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcOx0EZfbV
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjxf0XpbS1
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuWNwLjLxg
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEHgZ6BXUr
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1EgaKRAVl
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xGCitvdke
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JxPXRO9Xz
一種難以形容的內疚感。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhkxIEsv0C
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAZPeDSqFx
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQHqT0CZlI
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdhUHA2aD1
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54XVOUvTNw
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMTJz7yXgF
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgCzxxdwD6
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwdujzBwU4
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6UaRD6HgO
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdjTEKpps3
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNJjVWgY5K
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnPNRYdsV8
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIGSOtHBzS
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmIjmBIykF
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoP0yMh4dB
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrzg7GqEN1
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABlaX5b8UL
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizmzuyJSke
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZSqkNvXFz
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDrAU9pBC0
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBF2jxrE2p
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnm4LihXIl
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rcxaJNsL6
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVPqB4ZOZK
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxeNUxa86H
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVDTpX9U6n
「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldcV1K5BAz
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcLuKH3l64
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Vq9Zu44Se
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf8yuSdnuJ
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqh3Kxo4Ig
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOV7UPi35Rs
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmtKLdfUG0
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCJHihfFNU
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFhJStSyzv
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBGIUGgftv
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKV4wnMafM5
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwV0Vx8gjm
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTgwPRFG6O
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNJwMZCuAO
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpE4C14QL2z
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp0iMSSHnm
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fkxWJW8oL
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55v7DWSPbR
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOGvZ7UYSn
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Fpvdhbf1V
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ep7MkJVHX
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWF7GKxnkBO
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPNRLR4tZy
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGgYAj24HZ
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0p96RJKDUb
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsuOtDOA3D
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FUVZnL8Vy
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrQJVUTPnk
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Vipmhk5He
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasBvVEuMs4
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWhlWM7pSS
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RweUqjoMW
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmna6cev3Ex
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TcWvdyawq
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rKb2AksIm
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0CEQH4A9c
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEa0dvZfCE
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodJlZn3hwc
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssN5EVPFzz
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSTwM3GTrD
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtrcMaZWZ1
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSfVhtcn9N
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBQCQukj7q
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXwOwSGShe
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrE4cCV4uq
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4TBkldTF3
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglmSqia6pA
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShCAfDR7HH
甚麼原來就是我？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhQXcdXnCp
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITrfdIdpgn
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8puUpMtWET
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatVNmvf0IO
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbaa1eCNYV
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtBZ0zY1nj
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySt1JuxzD3
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzV9d8yCkna
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsIzlpWlvl
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZKiYyXC5J
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2Nm6T11kQ
「到底講緊咩啦……」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx38PND6mHC
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIjCXEtOzw
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA98IaYdZE2
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM44fLSOnx
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVICm6gG43J
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QvAtOuFQA
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpzJeWrZHa
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpKsvXogjM
而且還是三個那麼多……459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveso2M1UNi
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6GtrpDQ9y
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSR3PgtZQVY
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