第五十九．五章639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0kVvqbhAg
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2XsbeizFg
「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmQ92YAvU1
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AT2M05V0R
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlahHfmAnM
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7acWTYJCV4
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoTgEwff3Q
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyqK279tzR
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWv2pYqh8en
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPywWqsqMY
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF91wqPvPvl
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKRpi0kwVA
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5R5YmLowYY
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrlBhYl58I
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWupPl3bN9
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8UNNYdjK9
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnKpQr6gyx
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwOX5ZI6YL
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUMkOuvaKp
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EWEHhKeFq
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuygBTL8ECF
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHttNFsnJHD
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlUI4qcewi
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfShlo2tw4B
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIHp5McBSX
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzApIOg3aX
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEcp0fnQ52
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsx4BFhXSsm
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNahMK3zHKk
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24d9WeECt4
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfOwuMzB2A
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzBldLUvEq
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSaARY7Kbz
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMWz3TCbCb
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMHMxpZUQ5
他回答著我。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9z6yRQ1Ko
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XpJRCyYSF
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqvHB29btq
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndJhSvmUVa
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRdRuReNRI
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiWTFlVu3e
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyNoc1Sjjl
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFMocCpMSN
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnZHA0vodg
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8muv6BYob
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rH9MtozVA
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAee1kMALj
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1IxTsOVjs
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yCcxrpGUj
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbWs4WQwih
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6U9coNrVlM
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGb2XNxF6T
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjl4Mw0ph9
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFA7gPWPUu
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWccSJL8Vl
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXruicGL0f
拜託不要再說這些說話了……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGvBQwBdYV
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe04xiB37TK
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWARuDRmVl1
但是我還得繼續演下去……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9PuH5QEWB
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGg9OGxtGC9
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBm2aFo0oa
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeqtyfGTYr
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡds9MUvDgwb
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AWQCLJFpp
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7Z0ywH1Ly
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUzJvOB8DF
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfn7g3elc7
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOhwRZd52i
我看似很有道理地說著。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81b6zVDg5O
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DwBrM9MF0
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVXm0hsd2m
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rSEw9rov8
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYivVOvSfEd
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrfssM1GQ7
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rjskeVpVn
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLxrF7Xl6U
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfrfHNxIwJ
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yq1yYaZIR
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9VNNYwS8W
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguR9H6LL4d
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fTDAcktBS
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxUNPrDZLO
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ISttr9QO8
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5IClfqNgh
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vdTZJsxuy
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJCHhxu6OP
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1X0iTjkWeQ
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFOAUIPEgA
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWqQNKcMYd
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1Bsie2gSr
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2z4CyGVv9
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNUNEBkqsX
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2WZM1sgXp
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAIDdtw8Rm
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhs4n5DKBp
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvtUdZJRpD
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUprkG7O9Qu
我不想他後悔。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBw35Ioc5yZ
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe73mxWCDzW
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPVbtyrz5I
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiE2rco3ht
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMimGBTsZWC
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplQCcOgU7M
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzQLgq2sUl
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPKhPUSSDU
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyYDG70MXO
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsK2davmAD
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBAxbSZGB1
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hBY0KDrBf
639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzurgEVrIjk
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqFM09goIj
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuU6jSbING
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。639Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonpRD3JrXl
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