So, rather recently I've had this thought ambling around in the back of my mind. It's a thought that everyone has. It's a fear everyone has. This thought is something you never hope to be included in. This has just been stuck in my head for a while, I wanted to just get it out there.993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vDiHWMNPk
You see, there is a point in which everyone becomes second. There is a point in which someone else matters more. This point is what I like to call the Push Point. It is the point where you being to be pushed away. It is a point were you no longer seem to matter. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxXpMuIJ2S
I feel like I am always at this point. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFSpL238RD
I am the person who is second by nature and first, well, hardly ever. In people's minds, I suppose, I am someone who is replaceable. To lose me is to only fill that empty space with another me. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIcd4lXXnh
I wonder, am I so generic that I can so easily be replaced? 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Y2Is8cvoV
And God-forbid I speak up about my position or I really will be replaced. It feels like I don't matter enough. Do I have to be some kind of eccentric person to be accepted? Must I make myself more interesting and flattering to the eye? Do I have to change myself just to seem amazing enough to keep around?993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqH4mZvr36
Is that what people want nowadays? 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnITPvy47O
You know, I don't think I've ever really had a best friend. I've never been first, no one has ever chosen me for anything. I'm second-best. I have fair-weather friends who only want me when there is nothing better to do. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotSRoxSvKp
My feelings don't matter to them. Only they do. They want help with their lives when I'm stuck with "I'm sorry". In todays society, I feel like we, as people, are being less and less in-tune with other people's feelings. The generations now seem to only care for themselves. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtpVcZoS8C
Maybe I'm being a hypocrite, I am apart of said generation. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhtKU3dDkg
But I want to be cared for and loved so badly I can't stand it. Family is obligated to love me. I want someone who choses to. Maybe I'm being selfish and too egotistical about myself. I should feel lucky to have the family and "friends" that I have now. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FfcEM79UL
But, I'm not. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9txvgDGF3
I guess its a human flaw: we always want more. We are never comfortable with what we already have. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLM6FwtCS7
I complain a lot, it seems. Maybe I just have a lot to complain about or maybe I just need to be grateful for what I have. I know I'm not the only one. 993Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWsdqwh3Vr
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