So, rather recently I've had this thought ambling around in the back of my mind. It's a thought that everyone has. It's a fear everyone has. This thought is something you never hope to be included in. This has just been stuck in my head for a while, I wanted to just get it out there.1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMne3N2eUZ
You see, there is a point in which everyone becomes second. There is a point in which someone else matters more. This point is what I like to call the Push Point. It is the point where you being to be pushed away. It is a point were you no longer seem to matter. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYOipJYIyC
I feel like I am always at this point. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHszIIZ7Ylg
I am the person who is second by nature and first, well, hardly ever. In people's minds, I suppose, I am someone who is replaceable. To lose me is to only fill that empty space with another me. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wnghGSUhs
I wonder, am I so generic that I can so easily be replaced? 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkV00yrEs7I
And God-forbid I speak up about my position or I really will be replaced. It feels like I don't matter enough. Do I have to be some kind of eccentric person to be accepted? Must I make myself more interesting and flattering to the eye? Do I have to change myself just to seem amazing enough to keep around?1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vt1jtlXpm
Is that what people want nowadays? 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZhd8XOzTH
You know, I don't think I've ever really had a best friend. I've never been first, no one has ever chosen me for anything. I'm second-best. I have fair-weather friends who only want me when there is nothing better to do. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmaqyZcXts
My feelings don't matter to them. Only they do. They want help with their lives when I'm stuck with "I'm sorry". In todays society, I feel like we, as people, are being less and less in-tune with other people's feelings. The generations now seem to only care for themselves. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKK6c1BJ7s
Maybe I'm being a hypocrite, I am apart of said generation. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9sPkXFhbx
But I want to be cared for and loved so badly I can't stand it. Family is obligated to love me. I want someone who choses to. Maybe I'm being selfish and too egotistical about myself. I should feel lucky to have the family and "friends" that I have now. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRD2Nw1nGwQ
But, I'm not. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXEBhfsE5M
I guess its a human flaw: we always want more. We are never comfortable with what we already have. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5zO5OlypT
I complain a lot, it seems. Maybe I just have a lot to complain about or maybe I just need to be grateful for what I have. I know I'm not the only one. 1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0tnvb5ISM
- Ayame1022Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI73DCJxL5
