She curled up into a ball on her sofa, holding her head with her thoughts racing and holding back tears that had formed from a mix of emotions bottled up for an undetermined amount of time. She couldn’t get the spinning to stop as a feeling she could not determine kept trying to creep over and consume her, resulting in more emotions of fear and anxiety. Why won’t it stop? I don’t want to follow her energy. She thought silently as a clock ticked in the quiet room.374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgBUru2VYB
The image of a female with cold aquamarine eyes continued to repeat their appearance with the creeping feeling of an emotion she could not name. “Why aren’t you letting that you out? I mean, how can anyone really be to the level you are so often?” a males voice asked as a soft hand brushed against her cheek, showing behind her closed eyes silver hair pulled back and a smirk on the speaking lips with orange eyes.374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQwjEn5UUM
I’m not her, I’m not her energy. I’m not repeating her energy further around me. She thought which only brought his face to lower closer to her ear while he gently brushed aside a few strains of her hair.374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUgH0Rp9QJ
“You know they say one can and will repeat what they know and you know her temperament, her actions, even her behavior better than your own. I mean…you used to embrace that energy and wonderful things came of it.” His voice purred into her ear as his hand held her cheek before tracing her jawline.374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSklQvPVmvy
She shivered and winced as darker hair came to sight joining the aquamarine eyes. I’m not her energy. I’m not going to turn to be her. She trembled as he sighed against her skin.374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTykjGQLQd0
“Are you sure? They all seem to think so based on their view on you and your own behaviors.” He softly ran a hand through her hair. “Not just anyone has anything to your level or your level of thinking or over obsessing over trivial things.” He commented with a soft chuckle in his throat. “It would make handling all of them much easier for you.”374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRQ7uMhy6X
She curled into a tighter ball while closing her eyes tighter as behind her dark sight she could see herself and small sparks. I’m not that woman. I’m not her energy to follow her examples. “I’m not her!” she suddenly screamed tilting her head lower so her chin touched her chest. Sparks trailed her body before briefly throwing out a white colored dome. This dome faded once he was pushed back but the sparks remained as she trembled with small tears in the corners of her eyes. “I’m not her, I won’t be her, I don’t want to be her like expected.” She says with a quiet shaky voice as her eyes open some to look and see his figure vanishing into smoke.374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvjVRSR6eK
You can keep locking up that other self but for how long can you truly keep it hidden to continue your appearance of an angel? The man’s voice asked in an echoing whisper.374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXGRWHrJRd
She closed her eyes again and wrapped her arms around herself. “I don’t want to be like the monster I know so well for so many years.” She whispered quietly as she pulled her legs up closer and could hear, feel, then see within her mind soft colored pale wings closing around her along with the sensation that things were going to be fine for the time being. For now things within this quiet and warm energy felt like safety until the next day would come, and with each hour into each day would continue the eternal struggle of the mind, emotion, and spiritual energy she could mentally visualize and what was probably what she felt physically.374Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGYg6PRTEz
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