過去篇(四)396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe59Tv9dERp
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEB5K0V8bz
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlp1DYDjuw5
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUtQUS7epq
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbx9slw3YV
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDeh0BIZ8l
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCHWxLvpWU
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqwb9PO0bn
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXa1eNq510
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20cBHDG1Tn
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBLdxYCaT2
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQley9asRR
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYV2qUADNv
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDxD5BqyP5
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAg3my2lwvl
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqDSSKhq1y
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsDhOeA8CR
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfEhsstdcL
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1u5AUdOrp
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVM5Iqi49qE
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSb784T2CVr
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8v5NH7upD
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHawRf2pL6
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpQQw9ySzT
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGSmQtoizs
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGqv3l8vvM
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEH9Cla4Gg
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGLksjfb7P
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtY9ubGl77K
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWB3EqoSfw0
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0R4fyju5m
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEmhceTMbA
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0WKoXHiWd
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY7aXCdMz7
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYQfsUBs9e
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDdg9Tx7qi
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRbmU1JcDl
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NMiCKZBmI
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHoPPEPT1v
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNag1TJO2I
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISFPzxUgjf
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvM7taiFLw
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqw3qNHQcv
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8afjzYZkzN
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFzVJ5JSwU
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfTDkAtYzO
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6jt0DompM
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpICQTzzfw
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEZYTPYFFk
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMhEbyr4l8
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqM1SZtmGAI
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj73I5KRODH
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35lH5SzM6C
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefriQztaPN
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8j88CkSwM
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jFkYXANfY
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbM0aLLzj7r
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396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu7bFR4D2v
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVgLPyt0ev
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm67NRFrZC
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2bJvrATl8
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfBCHv3QuU
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqGw0ao1Zb
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmki48don5L
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfq7xWBpSf
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3V2FOjhnMr
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwABmTeiH0e
隨即二人也站在了原地。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutetwyow7R
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgX58K1zSFo
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOXRDzgfDG
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyHT6eexmX
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOGJCXBkQ2
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAO5cs82Kt
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIv8QFlGH8
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qiorTn77k
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe7d6IhtGb
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uFobyDfcV
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyM2mslBOt
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcyBwudCiu
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiRelX1RSs
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegzBN2QBoP
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1QO33JAfy
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4INDBc3nH
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEqQo8VCL9
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZxQ3LOyJm
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRW33M867u
可是，她接著聽到答案是……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BBmiyDzUN
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LEVJfJ1ZG
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3FhRTdORO
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpZr1lbbUX
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgy1dUGcve
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFy5jnGCnA
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHDk8OK94G
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRqTifXVIG
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrw0zkuTClW
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1T0JaS28Vc
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb70Oe0lLv6
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHutlbGCHKC
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjbdbcWoAR
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbHzlhxgnC
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSFYpaGcLR
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgK0RDewhB
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx0lULoHOD
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsJ3RMIaXh
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqafPJC9zfx
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLrlCOh6YS
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgA5Ce5Lf6q
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDGhEljRKP
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396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi4PuBBsii
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsyIAX7wL6
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFCh5hVaom
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7gdL8leP9
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUMMTrzTGc
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UcqecrOly
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJjDWQVo5Y
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7gTKg9ZPG
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZpg5yAgJH
「嚓—」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z9CtTtf8O
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaPwrj9DOG
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctz1PZh3lC
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEPcHqEcHZ
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUhbNcwsQd
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaHJ35tdJv
作者在此鄭重聲明：396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9o22qIDII
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmyvP0b4Fn
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWysGIrgFi8
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgiS3dO643
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AbHrjJwaI
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEwT8N8ha5
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQQJsD3b9x
396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63OWNFmqFL
作者閒聊：396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15FnQLm881
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDjliVaFa6
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……396Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfwXGjdRa2
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