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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjl5lXxMsAN
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrPwI9wbEZ
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQZPl0sIFS
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTY12QGQ1jn
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq40fDLRBy8
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pU6yO4nlQ
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwe3qBZuOE
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2jNJ8PbhL
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pgZA3HgN0
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZc6d0Wntul
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96VVYsHB94
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvgrJkGY6c
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTai9MOclB
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8KEURQYQK
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRw6ZHrtvz
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVo5wct3Uwx
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRxW5PUGNo
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ636AF73HGY
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaHqW2A3Lw
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIPFYuk6ez
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZ7fnbVKVr
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBTFb2YhtI
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcAd8EesM3
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLP7aDBlwA
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxe18VQzcjZ
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqCQ2M6UR7
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfg3MVKkkKL
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuL4wcvhdH1
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFaI6laopL
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYWGRgXJIw
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsjMU5qOOX
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX41qG4vtSN
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aRZXv6uRb
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDVYpaaRU5
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DbYydq9Wo
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpb62ORCWw
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZseBRqfmwS
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8PdBhFDIw
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WPTvhV8qz
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVaguo4j7P
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sQJ2FrjPx
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMK3DKzVtC
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3nQlhEDpN
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ54gcPVlWi
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqb56LoriA
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eMJfHaRhC
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjwBNFK3ua
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「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNl92rxBvvj
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiWAMW3Quk
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF6HHRarrj
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMde3hWgfmI
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBtYh3Gdp9
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZAP1El5KG
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Tq2ocOnlZ
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIj5FA4FPj
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEz3bHhUrTz
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAJilzQJd0
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLLRnaRC6W
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpWICqiwUf
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTHAYqdbG6
隨即二人也站在了原地。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRkEVLIsdb
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Lyu6kdK61
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYJx7lfW4M
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OdoQjDaoM
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpFzOaQmLR
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4nF5sNrkA
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qPa617AKQ
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlF1lnU3dD
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKecVVTCJyW
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JRqQ3YxBq
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QrwbrKTUq
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcFmCdU7eD
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoYPNlEg1E
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn3UN8OtTM
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aICdUa3ay
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHcEm3Y437
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3ODFHUrYz
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtMxo8UNWM
可是，她接著聽到答案是……383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzi5CzKisJa
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xjQOGjANq
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa83ZOmN5Zt
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv4FSwwk0J
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwHDbFj9Lb
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaKKmIXVxm
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFbagJBVWA
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpLOG3MCRH
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0Ee5gkOsd
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTsXdVyQbz
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然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LlqFCsc3O
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYFAAXLydB
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ap8hRZhR6
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19YXV3ybtK
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPmsChtXLK
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4S3Cg5cGN7
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡub4rBsAxmf
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjPbzXSIqq
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1acRGA60kp
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtCZrKPXjc
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9POHF2iaV
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqjyLGC0aa
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY5Ke0WujN
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtNkEHTbAl
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9jf1tQ2GF
383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjF2sjaOFo
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0d5sdNjrVy
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡld672TAk5v
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTikOyWMLnw
「嚓—」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvexLMBnrj
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YE4kR2Znl
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作者在此鄭重聲明：383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzQrENR5x4
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuPnramWvi
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIApfWD5AL
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKBxlzdWQp
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QlPOuIEyF
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUW6755rWp
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jYKj3hIWM
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作者閒聊：383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEnFHjrOF5
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyZukraBkl
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……383Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzT4xAYP97
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