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367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESFB3Q9dwa
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfZqjhCcum
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRAxobUIHD
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50L2JIl2ru
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIk7sx9nVe
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwjzE4zkmm
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRgIQi2qgt
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqsHRAjzz9
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTLLfSK4ei
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNSYeRiI2a
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqZeKepPLz
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOo0xvpwuvF
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2TuOmZ6hv
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFvCnWnIwD
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiVXqd68vl
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9JiKPgIPy
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXD04YcQuu
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33fiGXh0VH
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aj2Ccj8lS
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lzRw7MLhs
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuG5kixkA0N
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNMxMmtiKX
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnL95ahJEB5
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShsEzhekeO
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWpQUoKPAl
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNOKe6ql3B
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xPZrBgN6B
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgKYYNaAda
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3ZPkWWFdS
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TTdtCsql4
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuR2vVULc0p
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwZjo7Xrmz
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMk8hxr0Y7
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1o0xIlG0C
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HZ0w0Snaf
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDq8tkhzf76
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF00eBR1JNV
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkGI0OlCJa
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0oVcKiH3v
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfjaYziBC4
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqhJ0srNe0
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Q0bDr1xNi
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtw9aeDUn8N
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t0yYP812s
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64rz2McN05
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqBtgQ2PMd
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vnHxJpEJD
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AtowJX7W0
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8czd8KK7Qi
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbBn0ZzZKL
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdt6Ed7D400
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCVkjVp9fc
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYPnf4F24V
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROOACtcBpW
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcFENVWPnK
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0kGGx4Oj4
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367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJMGplPKNn
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2w0y93VS7t
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0cevne0EG
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oVEH55R20
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CUc0Bfa1J
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mvsTUIncR
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXWTToyniS
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1n86oQQiFT
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBU71uS7TOX
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzfKwYXiXp
隨即二人也站在了原地。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfEiqFk59R
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WoFpQSjEr
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsMDw9ORDZ
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiB5g4TjSxK
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUIk1ItVJv
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGK3QeSImP
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5mamxzEbU
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0Nxy8QyfB
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ujYWVqc0Y
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3WlA0bnQm
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgETV1xuJE
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8PDOMEcaw
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohapMATWjA
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8TZvtbJRO
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpr5OrQbyN
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqu2vpjGcK
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01pKnLnQov
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCDC84Kr47
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuZkYv8Jd3
可是，她接著聽到答案是……367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPm9CtnDDkP
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXZT75yGbd
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntZ02NBleb
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUe1bIxyB6
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjCFvNKXnt
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYCJTQp1Sd
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2g6jq1YjlD
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeP7DsRxCPA
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx02zaInpLC
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK10A2VCVG3
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFA98zamm4Y
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsxBpw9HMO
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2RWWtxEHD
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCHVb46I43
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVrHUNjZt0
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxAniSisQr
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6qoCQpsHu
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMcYzo81Hd
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7UilgW6Qe
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAtcwg1xrz
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aiDgTYA9P
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2vX6fuFRl
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2jCFq1RyJ
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseFzAOXKBd
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2U4dbOeBrm
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJhs30hCwH
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrM1v1Epl5
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKk00P5Q8q1
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHs2reFmkXf
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftHoxseTnz
「嚓—」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4st8Zgdi8a
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BEwqaqw5r
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS20RCniRk7
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFA1PmBBMzs
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uWesyoMhf
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyWQl43zib
作者在此鄭重聲明：367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3GDbpj2XN
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbgUxMZkcY
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAI4HNtPmi
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4WeeKuENz
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpy22FVloV
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgzXScyYXv
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJZIZB1qs7
367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDa6DhTxqp
作者閒聊：367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDclvqeKtm4
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRZXz825bL
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……367Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJW5oJqe95C
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