過去篇(四)395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsAJrGQA4f
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6bO8UOp1z
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIPnHw3DRV
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGFgjRN5HP
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xrA30wUCO
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYSK1vKHrj
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmOEIWxsef
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6yO5YMBon
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6a1k4O57g
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqQXVZltP8
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZfvr4XHrV
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizkcq2r6u5
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjkMNU9Tne
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMGQ8I16X6
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOZCqxoQk2
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFHaNaipPU
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpeJM0hfdy
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZSxmQQ5R5
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OqsvEIyIJ
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDEwqHbNWx
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYEMk9ZdP8
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdA0pNA2ow
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskV3mk2uk3
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs0g4Dip4H
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY88u0Nzs78
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGQ2QEZFFq
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCc6EghueN
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6r2dENVv9
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wIuRyTXBR
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQvGXKZ8jX
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9OcYdhr9Y
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFvEDcLxKn
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqYNjeauXt
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6N1PdueY8G
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkth1ZdpmS3
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhljTnwwxx1
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSdxhkaXBr
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjL94pRrZy
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuALFJ2eEbP
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5ZyQsulay
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxCvzgdfws
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNErU22cv49
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1nYiHzQAP
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAvTw8wnnj
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlzFkgkaJP
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpwbuo4apB
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvCq0khlKP
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSet5NfsmR
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLdaCvxkJc
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVHYDmJUb4
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF2CAhyrKY
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KaBa0CDg3
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCUSnBBDjh
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqh8tnkQT2
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciUvKlUmcF
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqxXQdhN71
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZp2esaW9h
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395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHZmeLRO1z
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEze2M38C4H
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE95e2kZrPC
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1lgIMxl30
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgWfGBVraY
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hSa7cLZei
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99gwaRhDOX
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Y8d66vkYH
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXel9hOS6C
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfph7SS23V
隨即二人也站在了原地。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsWepluFjL
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdrKD9TxGm
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfukRCsuQUb
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwt8WvgUxm
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxNsIzGmW0
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3py8m46jsh
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5eKw6FDWS
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ46X7FtgAF
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1om9bi4atv
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRYHRV1V83
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBKac2BWSv
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuLYKQsAXG
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLW2USntbo
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijpOhy3qkM
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoX40pfXVU
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6Qd6otlUG
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzNhMFhtMn
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPWxmTCEom
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLMc6SnfQ6
可是，她接著聽到答案是……395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWRuUELDpv
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpESYjiFJi
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4oorRd2IC
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgo6bVJPbJz
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRENE9uTSO
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHzLRs355S
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeppLxAtpGM
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtons3pOXw1
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8ezvBje0P
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWbOpcv4CJ
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCItFienlG3
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhCMsPnB7h
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoV0tDX6nxw
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb42dNSMI4A
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72ki1TnIG5
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CqHqkeRA5
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdTYBBmOlh
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzPfx9tPXF
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYR1QANcg8
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuDQBypmdT
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkrTgWqbq1
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDDLRtgn8d
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395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeuJiZKqP5
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhueKEj7GlR
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6Bo6o40es
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yHoBpPNQz
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih6dE5PLIy
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhLjrGYMLy
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3E4HMBe8Ob
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBN3WGxcyPt
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMxoVvoH7X
「嚓—」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ASO2b4FSI
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0HnJmmWUc
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdA494CRSo
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqJXaaVlbZ
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc72zpNDjV
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uGmdFZD9r
作者在此鄭重聲明：395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtYroH4gvC
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LAEqwUPpv
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPAfGUgJEh
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuheyGAe9qq
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hikaex0ym
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHQbQNkbup
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqCjPGfp4G
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8zGYeRHpQ
作者閒聊：395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1wgFcqCTV
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWPqFSeO45
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxpAbnn0IY
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