第一二七章:過去401Please respect copyright.PENANAfGnlIgdZUt
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我們分手的那一天……401Please respect copyright.PENANAwfQri9oF0Z
「聽日你唔好嚟送機啦!我知你好想嚟見我!但不見比見更好散!」401Please respect copyright.PENANARJyN8HUC3C
那一晚,Mandy果斷地掛斷了電話。401Please respect copyright.PENANAb3YUAav0Ad
並在短時間內,把我從她的WhatsApp、Instagram等社交平台通通封鎖。401Please respect copyright.PENANAChpV8nFlM5
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我一時三刻說不出任何一句話,大慨大腦根本沒有回過神來。401Please respect copyright.PENANA89BbABTAHt
而直到回過神來的時候,已經是我躺在床上看著她在WhatsApp上的資訊欄。401Please respect copyright.PENANA9olwAMy0CV
空白的頭像、空白的Statues、不存在的最後上線時間。401Please respect copyright.PENANA5lERSY0eKI
嘗試向她傳送訊息,作最後的挽留。401Please respect copyright.PENANA8NcHnWVHpF
顯示的卻是單剔號。401Please respect copyright.PENANAfTXH3VVrco
五分鐘、十分鐘、三十分鐘、甚至是一個小時後。401Please respect copyright.PENANA8oyEJEfAgN
仍然是那黯淡無光的單剔號。401Please respect copyright.PENANAA08RHL6Gb7
彷彿就在諷刺著此刻的我,失去了她,失去了世界所有的色彩一樣。401Please respect copyright.PENANA6rYbIWFwET
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雙眼無神的我,把手機放到床的一角。401Please respect copyright.PENANA5LWdGK93Bn
然後就轉身望向天花板,一直死盯著那空白的天花板。401Please respect copyright.PENANAFTW7ZEOorQ
直到手機突然傳來了「叮鈴」一聲,是接收到訊息的聲音。401Please respect copyright.PENANA4P0rozqIKv
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「!」我瞬間彈起身來,拿起了床邊的電話。401Please respect copyright.PENANAJIfE2BI42L
心想一定是Mandy了,可是現實永遠都是殘酷無情的。401Please respect copyright.PENANAMo06ycMCYT
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因為訊息的傳送者,只是同班的Haley。401Please respect copyright.PENANAo4rMeT59Qf
「Alvin,聽日喺咪十二點喺東涌集合?」401Please respect copyright.PENANAJM0FXpBQ4D
他向我查詢了明天到機場歡送Mandy的詳情……曾經的詳情。401Please respect copyright.PENANAILUAWkNb4L
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「我有啲唔舒服,聽日唔去」401Please respect copyright.PENANA7ELbym6tws
在按下訊息傳送的按鈕後,沒有等待Haley的回覆,我已經把手機摔到地上。401Please respect copyright.PENANAS2YfgHkG3k
不想看到、不想聽到、不想知道。401Please respect copyright.PENANAa5hn1MqkfB
就讓我獨自一個靜靜地渡過這一晚吧……401Please respect copyright.PENANAp47qNYn5Oi
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「我叫Mandy,多多指教啊!」401Please respect copyright.PENANA9VA25Uz1mx
這是回憶嗎?401Please respect copyright.PENANAjJfDG1NCF4
「有機我哋2E班要搞翻個羽毛球班會活動。」401Please respect copyright.PENANAFBJusvpbNM
又是回憶了。401Please respect copyright.PENANACW47MtIJbO
「我退咗燒啦,多謝你之前借件冷衫比我保暖。」401Please respect copyright.PENANA5GuOlghS0p
怎樣都是回憶。401Please respect copyright.PENANAsBxnpDyDVi
「我都鍾意Alvin你。」401Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6Q0qT36UC
不要再是回憶了。401Please respect copyright.PENANAzWJ9DOr8QF
「隻熊送比你啊,同你好襯!」401Please respect copyright.PENANA41Mq4vFedg
不要、不要、不要!401Please respect copyright.PENANAOX4qkmzrSS
「我唔想離開你!」401Please respect copyright.PENANAErOvuZ2iCV
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「夠啦!」401Please respect copyright.PENANAvF9Bjukvtu
在一聲喊道下,我睜開了雙眼。401Please respect copyright.PENANAMlvoOPBQOF
只見眼前是那昏暗的天花板。401Please respect copyright.PENANAibtmlBESQw
原來剛才所看到的,都是夢。401Please respect copyright.PENANA56QwoQtVWe
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好不容易才睡著,卻這麼快又醒過來。401Please respect copyright.PENANAQR5FfCpbSS
還是先看一看現在是甚麼時候……401Please respect copyright.PENANADnYwrjS33a
「咦?」401Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9jTNFODkc
當我伸手到床的角落時,卻模不到任何手機狀的物體。401Please respect copyright.PENANAlsvGq6WXzm
「啊,啱先比我扔咗落地……」401Please respect copyright.PENANA8FD8xNVw2o
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我轉過身,來到了床邊。401Please respect copyright.PENANAT7joQkfyjz
很快就看到了被我丟到地上的手機。401Please respect copyright.PENANAmOTOpJpNcr
於是便伸手按下了一下手機的主螢幕按鍵。401Please respect copyright.PENANAQLyaM5xfJQ
而手機也瞬間亮起了螢幕。401Please respect copyright.PENANAQ74hDxpLuD
但裡頭卻是一張我與Mandy的合照。401Please respect copyright.PENANA5LJkXCV98U
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我首先愣住了,但是當看到Mandy的樣子時。401Please respect copyright.PENANAvkgCfLEyHJ
淚水,卻從雙眼流出。401Please respect copyright.PENANAMoZqbKZfPg
所有的悲傷,都一下子湧現出來。401Please respect copyright.PENANAWutTSGxr7F
我不禁抓住心口,無聲地痛哭起來。401Please respect copyright.PENANA5h7ooM3yHi
當晚伴隨我的,除了孤獨、無助,就只有絕望而已。401Please respect copyright.PENANAATTL90BcXa
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直到第二天,我醒來的時候,感覺已經是下午了。401Please respect copyright.PENANAiHjFtEENjF
我已經忘記了昨晚到底斷斷續續地睡著又驚醒多少次了。401Please respect copyright.PENANA9Viv8E77eE
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不過醒來後,我仍然躺在床上,一動也不動。401Please respect copyright.PENANAjxNHBpXwNl
即使在醒後來,地上的手機已經響起了多次訊息傳來的鈴聲。401Please respect copyright.PENANAWKiSlpBdTa
但是我完全沒有再次撿起的意欲。401Please respect copyright.PENANA3k4ouggMPh
反正那些訊息,大多都是他們與Mandy送行時所拍下的照片了。401Please respect copyright.PENANAELni2EkALQ
而我,卻沒有那個勇氣去看見那些照片。401Please respect copyright.PENANACrYGgSJVu7
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在接下來的時間,我都是躺在床上,沒有睡覺、沒有做其他的東西。401Please respect copyright.PENANAdKTNvfj8rE
只是躺在上面,呆呆地看著天花板。401Please respect copyright.PENANADtHyR8kSyp
當肚子餓的時候,就走出房間,吃點零食,上個洗手間。401Please respect copyright.PENANAh4SkJA1Dux
然後就再次回到房間並躺到床上。401Please respect copyright.PENANAomBNXrVxpC
過程中,手機都仍然被我放置在地上,碰也沒有碰過。401Please respect copyright.PENANASwDT07e3Pg
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但隨著時間逐漸逝去,卻不時都有一剎那突然變得很想拿起手機來看。401Please respect copyright.PENANApRjKZLeUBA
不過心裡也會萌生另一個念頭去阻止自己這樣做。401Please respect copyright.PENANAgBtxEevhCz
其實,我一直不去看手機,不去點開WhatsApp。401Please respect copyright.PENANAmcaAHkRhv5
一切都只是想營造一種我失去了蹤影的錯覺。401Please respect copyright.PENANAy8PPyn6dsO
好讓其他人來主動慰問我的狀況,不,是好讓「她」來主動慰問。401Please respect copyright.PENANA7YYCCXR9Sr
正確來說,「失蹤」只是打算做給她看而已。401Please respect copyright.PENANApkEguo57lw
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然而,我又再一次把事情想得太美好了。401Please respect copyright.PENANA4F380LXe26
最終,我還是忍不住了點開了螢幕,但沒有點進WhatsApp裡。401Please respect copyright.PENANAAOUT52GBK2
這麼就能繼續營造「失蹤」的錯覺了。401Please respect copyright.PENANANrASxTCPxp
換言之,我是把手機的通知欄拉下,查看傳送訊息的人中,有沒有Mandy。401Please respect copyright.PENANA7mSycObyc0
不過,當然是沒有了。401Please respect copyright.PENANAVdCMLNxMEg
當刻心裡除了失望,就已經再沒有任何的情感了。401Please respect copyright.PENANA9dFRsoTTm3
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或許今天沒有,明天會有呢?401Please respect copyright.PENANAx1iY2r0obU
相信世界總會尚存一絲的希望。401Please respect copyright.PENANAtaT0KfxPUR
那怕只是個自私的期待,我相信仍然會實現的。401Please respect copyright.PENANAF7xuRajVBI
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如是者,直到第二天,我都沒有點開過WhatsApp等社交平台。401Please respect copyright.PENANAA01zJyxHh2
手機的用途只餘下用來玩手機遊戲而已。401Please respect copyright.PENANA5ADNGBHR30
接著正如我所想,通知欄中開始出現一些訊息是慰問我的狀況。401Please respect copyright.PENANAA4EPJyJgHS
可是大多數都是「做咩咁耐都唔上線」、「好翻未?」、「今晚打唔打機」等。401Please respect copyright.PENANA6XHMQTNe0i
但是,Mandy的名字,卻仍然沒有出現。401Please respect copyright.PENANAqfNdcRfj8d
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持續這樣渡過第三天、第四天、第五天……一個星期、一個月。401Please respect copyright.PENANAk5TjCgbkeL
當我再躺在床上時,已經在與朋友在WhatsApp上互發訊息聊著天。401Please respect copyright.PENANAkckwu8JUvm
手機的鎖屏螢幕,也換做了風景圖。401Please respect copyright.PENANA0BIA0NJZhV
聯絡通訊錄中,Mandy的名字,早已換回「Mandy」。401Please respect copyright.PENANAI0i6d8IJcE
相簿裡的合照,已經全數隱藏起來。401Please respect copyright.PENANAjCKTbE4SMe
但唯獨不變的就是,晚上間中睡覺時,都會夢見她。401Please respect copyright.PENANA5tddt9spUj
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最常夢到的,就是在海旁得知她將要離開的那一晚。401Please respect copyright.PENANA12B5D81j8D
我沒有上前擁抱著她,而是捉住她的手說:401Please respect copyright.PENANAcEqSzGdEKE
「如果我哋再一齊,我絕對唔會再比你離開。」401Please respect copyright.PENANAAYHPlEpqZn
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「阿侑,今次真喺要講再見啦,聖誕之後我會翻番……嗯?!」401Please respect copyright.PENANAPTxHfg6h18
就在Mandy把話說到一半的同時。401Please respect copyright.PENANAdadlAf758F
我卻走到了她的面前,並把她拉到懷中,以雙手緊抱。401Please respect copyright.PENANAQZvWlbuWfT
「我絕對唔會再比你離開。」401Please respect copyright.PENANAoEOQADJcES
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「尷尬一時,還是後悔一世呢」401Please respect copyright.PENANAIgDQKD6FoN