好幾年時間入面,我都好糾結一個問題。638Please respect copyright.PENANAdtVSK8NcjW
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係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走,定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑?638Please respect copyright.PENANArxVBkc7zsg
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分手未夠兩個星期,就有條新仔,仲要一早就無取消張機票,兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行?638Please respect copyright.PENANA4fshfSjd4J
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點解一開始要呃我取消咗?638Please respect copyright.PENANAwkXofW1zhm
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可能因為唔想被人罰錢,所以留住張機票先,但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知,直至話取消咗等我死一條心。638Please respect copyright.PENANAJDVFGu2SbT
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點知分手之後好快搵到另一個,咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。638Please respect copyright.PENANAhXWmoub2k2
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定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行,所以無取消張機票呢?638Please respect copyright.PENANAnaB8BDHjTo
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好多我無辦法確定嘅答案,令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。638Please respect copyright.PENANAjDOrnYmziD
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唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢,就係喺機票依個問題上,芯玥呃咗我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAiyLS51Zhs3
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個,日喊夜喊,搞到喉嚨勁痛。638Please respect copyright.PENANAAeh0K4fLgy
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生,淨係求其買啲喉糖食,舒服少少又喊過。638Please respect copyright.PENANAsR12PQSCxJ
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當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞,話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲,其實就係我嚟。638Please respect copyright.PENANA6abii473DG
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喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗,都無乜為意,聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好,點知就無再好過。638Please respect copyright.PENANAHz363KOFzX
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嗰次分手,驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟,阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAIIjJKlEfhy
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我去食煙,聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。638Please respect copyright.PENANANxDFOaDOQN
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我去飲酒,酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊,點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。638Please respect copyright.PENANAuGXuUJJ3R4
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我去隊草,但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心,喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強,見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔,一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。638Please respect copyright.PENANAnaYOvoQ91v
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後來每個朋友都話,嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。638Please respect copyright.PENANAWCBqilY77F
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但唯獨自殺我無做到,可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚,諗返起都覺得醜,不過每個人都安慰我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAYk1mvcowqb
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雖然安慰係無補於事,但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAMXzEMufJ7Z
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽,分手嗰陣都講晒,之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。638Please respect copyright.PENANANgwZ3lFXcr
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蠔哥話:「留有用之軀,無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先?唔會吖嘛,咁你死嚟做乜先?」638Please respect copyright.PENANAkCMAgfZ529
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或者係逃避痛苦。638Please respect copyright.PENANAiuQcz4DQCo
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雞腎話:「痛苦總有一日會過,到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到,原來個世界仲係咁靚。」638Please respect copyright.PENANADFaiFaznSl
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蘿蔔話:「計我話,快啲搵個第二個啦。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAwbuHm8zmZ4
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結果我頹廢咗好耐,每日都想死但又要控制自己,先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。638Please respect copyright.PENANABrwfcoxxnH
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所以你問我有無自殺?我係每日都想死持續咗一年半,但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。638Please respect copyright.PENANAfSmLI1cBhF