I feel like there are a few people who actually know who I am as a person. I have this shitty habit to change everything about myself to fit that person’s expectation of me…it’s silly. But I recently had a conversation with my friend and it basically just went over that most people only know snipits about me and my life. None of them really know enough about my life to talk shit about me without starting to make stuff up. Which is fine.
Though another thing, I’ve learnt that people are only nice or tolerate me to get stuff. Like the first “friend” I made when entering high school. I learnt she doesn’t even know my name and I’ve been at high school for a long time. So she definitely had the chance of she wanted to learn it. So long as I was under the impression that we were friends I guess she would always get a seat on the bus and when she ran out of data she would just hotspot of me. Oh yeah and instead of my name she calls me “anime girl”…I’ve never watched anime on the bus…
Aight another one, in class I’m known for always having a charger on me. So people normally use it. I’ve had kids in my class talk to me who I’ve never had a conversation with. Oh and like half of them only have my snap to ask for answers. Like this lovely guy let’s call him…Charlie! So Charlie basically just had my snap to ask for answers…me thinking we were friends gave him my essay to use or see what had been done. He never talks to me now. I said hi a few times and was then ignored.
I guess this is my fault though for believing I had a bunch of friends and trying to hold on to relationships that were going to be erased.
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