Some things are really complicated and this is one of them.
It's almost religion against myself....myself against myself! How do you defeat yourself? 489Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9ZzcquLMs
So I'll try to explain it. First off, I am a Christian. (That makes things so complicated.) Anyway, and I ALSO think I'm bisexual...or I guess I'd consider it "I like who I like" kinda thing. And I feel like my self that likes whomever she likes is fussing with the religion self that says "BOYS STRICTLY" and its a war inside me and...its so confusing.489Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed9L3HKZIc
I don't think that me liking girls possibly should have to effect my religion. I can be the same person I was....am. We all have our differences and I don't know why mine has to be so controversial with my religion. 489Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0jTcBbAxj
I just wanna go into a church and scream: SO WHAT? I like a girl. It's NOT the end of the world. Why can't it be acceptable in your eyes? (God's)489Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaQrSo3SdH
BUT like I said I'm struggling for it to be acceptable to ME. Thats a hard battle to fight, feelings vs. beliefs. What do you do? Which side do you pursue?
What makes it more complicated is that the girl I like doesn't like me. And, I mean it's not just that part that makes it complicated. It's not like a secret crush you have, she knows...but when you hang out with the person you like it's just...weird (anyway) but when she's your friend...you don't wanna make it weird because you value the friendship but yet...you wanna talk about it and act on your feelings. 489Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmgXTam8wQ
It's hard. It's complicated. 489Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqDsCIYN8g
One good thing, she's not weird about it at least. I think I'm more weird about it then she is. 489Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRh5h7jwmj
But, it's still confusing and something I've got to think through.
© Madison B Barrett
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