2ct & Lizzy's current conflict
I’m dying to see Lizzy because her current conflict is not only completely understandable and fascinating but also heartbreaking.
I hadn’t gone into it in depth because I was waiting to see if 2CT got confirmed - but it’s hard to keep quiet by now with everything that happened in this chapter.
Like, putting yourself in Lizzy’s shoes. She and the Real Ciel were inseparable when they were children; he shaped her character and she loved him dearly.
Then she thinks she has lost him forever—but he comes back to her.
Except it wasn’t him, but his brother posing as him. And without being aware of this, Lizzy poured her heart and soul into protecting him and making him happy. And this wouldn’t be a problem by itself, because I’m certain Lizzy would have done the same thing for ours! Ciel regardless—because he was her precious cousin.
But by not being aware of the truth, Lizzy was robbed of the chance of truly mourning the Real Ciel and of coming to terms with the fact that what she felt for him pales in comparison to what she feels now for ours! Ciel, whose acceptance made her finally come into her own and feel more comfortable in her own skin.
…And then she finds out that ours! Ciel, the boy she loves with all her heart, has been lying to her. That he took on Real Ciel’s identity and Real Ciel has been alone all this time.
And here’s where the problem begins, because Lizzy doesn’t only feel betrayed by our Ciel—she most likely feels like she herself has betrayed the Real Ciel.
Because I bet you a bag of English tea that one of the things that are killing Lizzy is that even though she has the Real Ciel right there and he is in a tight spot (I can’t save you), and our! Ciel betrayed her trust—her traitorous heart is still aching for our Ciel rather than the Real one, her actual honest to God fiancé and previous best friend.
All this time she has been mourning the wrong brother, all while falling in love with the wrong brother.
So imagine how guilty that must make Lizzy feel, and how torn. It’s no wonder that she has no idea what to do and has simply resolved to remain by the Real Ciel’s side by now—the pain, the confusion, and the guilt are leading her to overcompensate. She most likely feels like the Real Ciel needed her and she let him down. AND Bravat has most likely made sure to say the right thing at the right time in order to exacerbate those feelings and keep Lizzy where they want her to be.
Hell, by now she probably wonders what else may our! Ciel has lied to her. How can she trust him when he lied to her about something this big? Seeing ours! Ciel right now may probably be entirely too much for Lizzy to handle—and that’s why I love all the focus Yana gave to how impossible it is to bind another person’s heart.
Because it goes both ways. Our! Ciel may not have been (yet) able to bring Lizzy back to his side. But while Lizzy may feel bound to the Real! Ciel by duty and care and guilt—when it comes down to it, Our!Ciel is still ‘the person Lizzy loves the most’.
If you add to all this the symbolism of chapter 177 and the very clear juxtaposition Yana has created between Real Ciel and Our!Ciel in regards to Lizzy, it becomes obvious that the current drama will end up strengthening Lizzy’s relationship with Our Ciel.
Because this time, she will make a conscious, well-informed choice—and choose him.
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