She doesn’t answer me, but she doesn’t pull away either. I crush my mouth to hers and she grips a fistful of my hair. Fuuuuuuuck. She knows I love that shit. I want her in the worst way, but I have to do things right. Unfortunately, that means being a gentleman. What I really want to do I can’t even fucking think about because I’m at full salute at the moment and it won’t take much to release the savage in me. I have to stop.
“No.” She tightens her grip on my hair.
“Aria, if we don’t stop I’m going to lose my shit.” I whisper to her.
“Then lose it.” Her eyes leave no doubt that she means every word.
Internally I go to war with myself. Externally, my hands cup her perky breasts over her shirt and I can feel her hardened nipples through the fabric against my palm. Alpha…please give me the strength to stop. I wait for Alpha to respond, but he doesn’t. Fuck it. I lift Aria up in my arms and a few of the others watch as we kiss, lick and bite our way up the stairs. I carry her to my bedroom and no one says a thing. No one tries to stop us either.
I lay Aria down on my bed and take my shirt off. Her eyes light up and she runs her bare hands over my chest and abs. I crush my mouth to hers again and place myself between her legs. She moans as I slide my lips from her mouth, to the nape of her neck and then the valley between her breasts. She has a shirt on so its mostly fabric I taste in my mouth, but I can only imagine what she tastes like. HEAVEN.
I’ve imagined this moment in my head every day for seven years, two hundred and forty-seven days…seven hours…thirty-two minutes and twenty-three seconds, and…WTF! Is she crying?
It takes every ounce of strength I have in me to pull away, and sure enough, Aria is crying. The deadliest assassin in the world is weeping like a little girl. It’s the first time I’ve ever seen her cry and the first time the fact that she’s young is apparent. I’ve had girls moan so loud that it rivals thunder. I’ve had girls whimper, beg and plead for me to put them out of their misery. I’ve had girls shout my name to the heavens like I was the Alpha himself, but NEVER…and I mean NEVER have I had a girl cry…especially not before we even get started…
“Aria, what the fuck?” I try not to sound as irritated as I am. I climb off of her and she turns her back to me. “What’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
“I can’t believe you’re going to have a baby and it’s not with me.” She speaks softly. SHIT. I pull her into my arms and hold her. It’s the only thing I can do. She’s hurt and it’s my fault. “You were supposed to wait for me.” She sobs.
“I’m sorry.” I apologize, still very much in shock. I didn’t think ANYTHING could hurt her. She’s always so strong. “Ar-star, look at me.” I demand. Her eyes slowly shift to mine and the amount of pain I can see in her eyes almost causes me to look away, but I don’t. “I can’t change the fact that she’s pregnant. All I can do is promise you that it changes nothing for me. I am where I want to be and that’s with you.”
“But your family…they’ll disown you.”
“I don’t care. Fuck it, I’ll change my last name to Bliss and really piss them off.” I tease. It works. Aria bursts into laughter and wipes her eyes.
“Well, since today seems to be the day for confessions, I have one of my own.” She turns to face me. I don’t like the sound of this.
“Whatever it is…you’re forgiven. I don’t want to know.” I tell her. It’s more for me than for her. If she tells me she slept with Noah I’ll burn this whole goddamn galaxy to the ground. “Let’s just call it a do-over and leave it at that.”
A knock at our door signals the end of this clusterfuck of a moment and I put my shirt back on before answering. It’s Wake. “Can I talk to you for a minute?” He asks. His eyes keep darting over to Aria, and she takes the hint and leaves.
“What’s up?”
“Did you two-”
“No.” I shake my head. “Why?”
“Dude, you know I normally don’t get involved in your love life.”
“But…”
“This is Aria we’re talking about Havoc. Ever since I’ve known you two, you’ve been inseparable. I know you’re in love with her so I’m only going to ask and then we’ll never speak of it again.”
“Ask.”
“Do you really think you should be sleeping with her so soon? I mean…I’m not one to talk, but I know how much she means to you. I don’t mean to be preachy either, but maybe you two should wait until you decide to give her your yang.” He suggests.
“I’ve screwed A LOT of girls and not once have you ever questioned me about them.” I point out.
“I know, but this is Aria we’re talking about. She’s not just some girl, she’s THEE girl.”
“What the hell are you getting at? Aiden, just spit it out already.”
“What I’m trying to say is…don’t rush things. Cherish her.”
“You’re worried she’s going to kill me if things go badly, aren’t you?”
“Pretty much.” He chuckles. “She’s pretty surgical with those blades.”
“You’re right.” I nod. “Its probably for the better anyway. She started crying.”
“Crying? Was it the ‘you’re a tripod’ kind of crying or the ‘you suck so bad and I have never seen anything that small before’ kind of crying?” He jokes.
“It’s more like the ‘get the fuck out of my room so I can take a cold shower before I kick your ass’ kind of crying.” I retort, half joking-half serious. “I’ll be down shortly.”
Wake laughs and shakes his head as he goes back downstairs. He’s a fucking prick, but I would wipe the earth of anyone who’d lay so much as a hand on him.
I turn on the shower in the bathroom and stand underneath the showerhead with the water beating down on my head. Wake is right. I have to be careful with Aria. Not just because she could kill me and my body would never be found, but because I DO love her. I have to do things right.
Being responsible sucks. I’m harder than Chinese Arithmetic right now with no sign of coming back down and I can’t even finish what I started. I turn the temperature of the water down so low that I’m freezing my ass off. Finally my hard on disappears, I get dressed and go back downstairs.
There’s an argument going on and it gets louder as soon as I get to the bottom step. It’s Aria. I follow her voice and walk in to find Willow holding her back from Qi who’s obviously pissed off. “Stay away from Noah or I swear to Chi I’ll kill you in your sleep!” Qi shouts.
“Before or after I slit your damn throat?” Aria fires back.
“You already have a boyfriend, why won’t you stay the hell away from mine!”
“Boyfriend?” Aria scoffs. “Hardly. But like I said, I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about!”
“Oh really? So I’m blind now, is that it! You didn’t have a full on make out session with Noah right before you went upstairs to fuck your boyfriend!” Qi shouts.
Suddenly everyone is aware of my presence. Part of me wonders if this is what Aria wanted to confess to me earlier. The confession I dismissed because I knew it would piss me off…I was right by the way. I close my eyes, pray to Alpha for strength and then I step into the room.
“Thien I swear…he kissed me.” Aria is quick to explain.
“It doesn’t matter. I told you I didn’t want to know and I meant it.” I force myself to say. What I really want to do is yell and curse, but I’m a man of my word and I have to swallow this shit now. “Qi. I don’t know you and I have nothing against you, but it takes two to tango. If you have a problem with what happened, that’s who you should be angry with.” I point to Noah. “Not Shadow.”
Noah barely bats an eye. What an ASSHOLE. Seriously…why the fuck does she care about him so much?
“Only she won’t get mad at him, because the truth of the matter is everyone knows he could give a damn about her.” Aria fires off another insult.
“STOP. TALKING.” I glare at her.
The wounded look on Qi’s face is enough to make me want to date her just so she can get over this douchebag. While she’s standing here, exposed and heartbroken, he’s literally texting on his phone like he’s oblivious to what’s going on.
“Really dude?” I finally address him. “They’re fighting over you and that doesn’t make you feel just a little bit guilty?”
“Qi always fights over me. Its what she does.” He waves me off.
I’m flabbergasted. He goes back to texting and I don’t know whether to kick his ass or be impressed by this fucker. I turn my attention to Qi, whose eyes are locked on Noah. She loves him and there’s nothing I can do to save her from this dick if she’s not willing to save herself.
“You see that? THAT’S who you’re in love with. He doesn’t care about you or your feelings Qi. You warm his bed when it gets cold and that’s it. You can accept it and all the bullshit that comes with it, but you can’t get mad when he acts like we all know he’s going to act. OR…you can realize you deserve better and move on to someone who cares about you.” I reason with her. She nods and walks away. Now I have Aria to deal with.
“If we’re going to be together, that shit can NEVER happen again. Am I clear?” I ask. She nods and shifts her eyes to Noah. NOW HE’S PAYING ATTENTION! “Stay the fuck away from her. I have a lot of patience for a lot of things, but that patience runs out with Shadow. Don’t make me kill you.”
“You can try.” Noah scoffs.
I step to him, but Aria stops me. “It won’t happen again, I promise. Ignore him, he’s just trying to get underneath your skin.” I walk away, but something tells me this is FAR from over.
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