I walk off into the night wrapping my jacket around me tighter, hugging myself not knowing where the fuck my legs were even taking me.

After what seemed like a short walk I come near to my local park, the number of times Ty brought me here when I was younger it held some great memories ones I loved. 

The way Ty would push me on the swings, play hide and seek in the trees and bushes surrounding it, I thought I'd revisit a few While I was here maybe even sit on the swings.

As I got closer I heard some rowdy boys near the swings and there was one voice I recognised it was my boyfriends. 

Alex was here, I didn't know he came here I was about to jump out and surprise him but I saw a girl walk around from the slide, her hair was glowing in the moonlight it was the bitch. 

"Alex, we need to talk" he turned to face her and she leant in kissing him I mean what the fudge was that, that bleach blonde slut was sticking her lizard tongue down my boyfriend's throat. 

I was about to go in all guns blazing when he pushed her off, she fell to the ground. 

"Don't you ever kiss me again, stay the hell away from me and stay away from Reagan too" he spat with venom, she just laughed at him, that hyena laughed in his face.

"Well, that might be a bit difficult since we slept together not long ago, Maybe I will let her know along with bullying her, even more, make her life a living hell what do you think Alex?" 

"You bitch, wtf do you want?" she just stood there tracing her fingers down his chest, "You know what I want Alex" she retorted, He grabbed her, shook her with anger "Mind the baby Alex!" I ran away from the park after hearing that, what the fuck! was she carrying my boyfriends baby, what the hell I slumped down in the field shaking, crying, he slept with my bully, he slept with the same girl that has made me feel worthless since 1st grade,  I finally start to feel like I fit in, then this happens making me regret I didn't cut deep enough. Just then I see the group of lads walking towards me without Alex, I hid in the nearest bush, what's he doing? has he gone home with her, so many thoughts were going through my head at that moment as the boys got closer I heard their conversation. "She's a skank, what the hell did Alex see in her" one boy said the others laughed. 

"Do you really think she's pregnant?" the taller guy said, the third guy changed the subject all together "who the hell is Reagan, he's never mentioned a girlfriend before."

that was the question that hurt the most, I felt invisible again.

Was I an embarrassment like I was with Liz and my mum, is that what he thought too, I felt myself shake I had to get out of here I got up and made my way to the only other place I knew how to get to, Cal's, as I walked into the drive I noticed a few other nice cars in the drive, all the lights were on, I knocked on the door Cal opened it, as soon as he saw me he pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly. "What's wrong baby girl? you look a mess" he sounded like he was actually worried, I've known this guy for 5 years, never had he ever shown this much concern for me, "Cal man, are you coming the game just got interesting" he looked at me then back to the guy "Nah bro something important comes up, see ya selves out" Grabbing my arm he pulls me up the stairs to his room closing the door behind us.

I walk over to his bed throwing myself face first into his pillows sobbing freely for the first time since leaving my house.

Feeling the other side of the bed dip I look up to see Cal looking at me, pain etched all over his face. "Wanna tell me from the beginning?" I nodded, I start right from the beginning from the meal, mum, Liz, then what happened at the park, Cal listens to everything digesting it while rubbing small circles in my lower back easing my upset and

tension, when I get to the end of my story I sigh feeling like shit, he kisses my cheek.

"I'm so sorry you get treated like this, your an amazing girl you don't deserve any of it. It's not your fault about me and Liv splitting up! It's been something that was bound to happen, she's a bitch. I just couldn't see who she truly was until that day when I saw how she treated her own flesh and blood, I mean yeah every family fights etc, but we don't intentionally hurt them like her and her friends do.  I just couldn't be with her after that."

I sobbed in his arms, I had never felt so worthless till tonight, Cal wiped the traitor tears away and run his thumb along my jawline and then down my body gesturing to my curves, "Btw These are perfect in every way don't listen to your mum." 

I gasped at his touch as he pulled his hand away quickly stuttering his words "Do you wanna stay here, tonight?" it sounded more like a plea than a question but I knew I wanted to, I didn't wanna go home, not tonight, apart from Ty and my dad I had nothing there. I nodded in response. Leaning my head on his arm he brought it round me engulfing me in a warm embrace.

"What do I do about Alex?" I was so frustrated about it, cal shook his head "That's a tough one baby because let's face it, you hadn't even met him a month ago, so there ain't much you can do about who he's slept with." Ahhhh the fucker was right. "Yeah yeah I guess so but damn, peroxide really, what the hell," Cal laughed out loud. 

"Seriously that boy best bleach that do da of his before he comes near me, I don't want no albino crabs biting at my virgin vag," That was it Cal was rolling. I'd never seen him laugh so loud it was proper infectious. 

As if it had only just sunk in Cal leaned up on his elbows looking at me, "Are you really a virgin Reagan?" I nodded in response "Why is it people think that's crazy like every teenager is cock mad and have all lost their v cards at 15" he laughed again.

"Damn, why couldn't your sister be like you, she had lost hers before she met me," I smirked that sounds about right for Liv. "Nah I'm one of a kind" I chuckled, feeling overconfident, cal smiled, "Yeah you really are, Alex is a fool if he lets you go because I'll be honest with you rea, he won't get you back." 

I looked at Cal he looked serious, but what the hell was he saying, 

I didn't answer I was getting sleepy, a half arse yawn passed my lips, cal smiled.

"Can I use your bathroom? I think it's time I crashed" 

Cal got up and walked over to his dresser pulling out a t-shirt, "Here use my t-shirt it's clean" I thanked him before walking off into his ensuite bathroom or should I say extra room, it was huge damn, I'd get lost in that shower, I swear you could fit 10 people inside it. 

Pulling off my clothes I fold them neatly over the back of the chair, turning back round I look directly at my body in his wall to wall mirror, this is something I detest doing, looking back at myself I see just what everyone else hates about me, why did i ever let Ty stop me, why did I? hearing the T.v go on in the bedroom brings me out of my sudden depression, but it was too late I had already slipped back to that moment two years ago. Slipping over his t-shirt it hugged me in all the right places, I felt so body conscious. 

Knock knock..... "Rea, you ok?" I banged my head against the door in defeat, "Yeah" I open the door looking directly into his eyes hoping they didn't look at my hideous body. 

"I just hate the way I look that's all"  gesturing it with my hands moving them down my body.

"I actually really love your body shape rea," Cal said the whole time he was biting his lip, looking like he wanted to move his hands up down it just to ease some of the tension in his hands. I stepped past him back into the bedroom, turning back around. "Where shall I sleep?" I asked nervously, cal smiled.

"You can sleep in my bed I'll take the couch," I shook my head.

Cal looked at me as he closed the distance between us. 

"What do you want then rea? do you want me to hold you while you sleep, touch you, caress you because I will." his voice was getting raspier with every word. Cal grabbed the rim of his t-shirt tugging it, pulling me closer to him, his face was close to mine I could feel his breath against my lips I almost gushed, ughhh I hope my vag doesn't fail me now.

"I'll take the couch cal, you can't give up your bed, I walked over to the couch to get away from what could have happened, snuggling down I pull the blankets over my head. "Night night rea, god bless" those were the last words we spoke to each other as sleep took me.