Watch this space, my brother said, did he know something I didn't, has Alex said something to him, who the hell am I trying to kid, guy's don't talk to me, let alone like me.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBKInigi8Y
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No Reagan, get the idea out of your stupid head, he's just being nice because mates with your brother, but that doesn't mean for once second you can't drool over him or imagine him...... Oh Jesus Christ! Shut the f%&k up already. 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHhKFpSQCi
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I look over to see the diary on the bed, why the hell did he think I needed one, was this the only way I can display my true feelings, without giving the others satisfaction of seeing me cry.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYsEpBWnKA
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Hold on a god damn minute, not only is he hot and sexy with suckable lips, but the boy was a shiting genius! Ah, what the hell, I open it up and start on the first page, here goes.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Dku0DuVQ4
Dear diary:700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwt1tgrhn1
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Welcome to the world of Reagan, Charles, where nothing goes right, where every guy I fancy runs away like they're being chased by a herd of elephants.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJ99tBQ8Bx
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How the hell am I going to get any guy to see me, not some 14 stone midget who has a big round belly and big ta tas.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgLwZbyNnP
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I'm not even an adult yet and they already give me back ache.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX36ZL3bwu5
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I have naturally auburn curly hair, not so much curl, but corkscrew curly, with big brown eyes, I'm not the ugliest person, but I'm not the prettiest either.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhn4Ipg2XF
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Ok, so here I am writing in this stupid thing, I know people have them, but I never thought I would need one, I just carry my hurt on my shoulders.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuSe8wijND
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I'm what they call an open book, I wear my heart on my sleeve, I shy away and I don't show my emotions, I won't let them see it.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZ9WSr1bvB
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I think that's why I run away with my gob sometimes, people would think I'm no different to the bullies because I create names for them in my head! Or I'll answer back, or if they upset me too much I'll be planning their own funeral! But the difference with me and them is, I would and could, never hurt them, It's not in my nature.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOnGVbmRxa
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I keep it all in my head.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gQRj3U1zQ
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When I was thirteen after a solid week of abuse and torture from home and school, I thought it was time to end my life.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrEd13ze6h
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I felt I didn't belong anywhere, so when everyone went to bed one night, I crept down and got one of my mums razors, and well, they said for my age, I certainly knew what I was doing and if only my brother hadn't come down cause he was sneaking out, I would have bloody succeeded.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDXDgZN2pz
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I remember him sobbing holding me so close, telling me to hang on, I didn't want to hang on, I didn't want to feel pain and rejection anymore, I wanted to feel peace.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZv9HBKLV4E
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Two years later, my brother is always there for me, yeah nothings changed, but after seeing how much it affected him I swore I would plod on for his sake and f%&k everyone else who tried to drag me down again, now I'm glad I did. 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJK19cNeVN1
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I'll never be twig thin, I'll never be popular, but what I could be is real, if real means I use a lot of profanity and create my own little dream world to cope with it, then so be it.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3FTrJhqEb
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Shit I'ts almost 1:am, here I am writing in this pissing book about the ins and outs of who I am, but deep down I still feel like I still don't know who Reagan Charles really is.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifL5j56HLz
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I close the book and place it on my night stand I snuggle into my panda and fall fast asleep hoping for some solid sweet dreams. 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3yVbWioLS
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I was back in the meadow laid across a blanket, I was smiling, laughing, I looked happy, a hand moved a misplaced strand of hair away from my face, but I couldn't see who it was.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUtam4xtq9
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Oh for god sake I don't want to see myself, move out the way, let me see who you're with, I see myself smiling again and I blew whoever it was a kiss then I giggled sipping on a water bottle, aw what the hell your drinking water for, you never drink water! I see a hand on my leg and my cheeks go red and I'm finally looking at the person who's making me all hot and flustered. Omfg wake up! Wake up you stupid mare, it was Cal! Oooo shit.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9xc4bcs9c
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"Reagan! Reagan! Wake up turd burger, your fans await you, come on!" 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABWW18oIqw
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I open my eyes giggling "Yes, yes, I'm awake and the only fan I got is you," he smiled at me "I'll be your number one fan forever, but I'm thinking after yesterday you got a few more, now get dressed!" I threw panda at him he quickly ducked, moving quickly out my door laughing.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pkW2QgZve
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After a soak in vanilla bath oil, I sprayed myself heavily in vanilla, musk and decide to leave my hair down, I put a small amount of makeup on I was ready to indulge in another day of piss take.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPcJkEfUUu
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"Morning sweetheart," I see dad sitting at the table, "Morning daddy," he grabbed me as I walked past and pulled me onto his lap, he shocked me we wasn’t a huggy type of family there wasn't a lot of that between my parents either but I knew my dad loved me.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vYkTV1UrF
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He tried to show me affection often which is more than I can say to my mum, she was stone cold that's for sure.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFyD7srgCA
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"I'm sorry about last night Huni, your mum can sometimes be a little cold, but she does love you! I rolled my eyes, "It's ok dad, I'm use to it," he smiled, "I know but It's not right, anyway I've told your mum that your going to Cal's barbecue tonight with or without her permission," and he winked.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRjK7b0et9
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"Thanks dad," I grabbed a bottle of juice and a banana and followed my brother out to his car, "So, you and Alex, do you like him Reagan?" I looked at him in shock "Would it matter if I do? besides he's way out my league, so you got nothing to worry about," he laughed.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUR0JenOy01
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"Your not out of anyone's league, don't ever let me hear you say that again, he seems quite smitten by you," there goes the beet cheeks again.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiPXzpxg3c
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"Shut the front door! Your joking with me, you got to be kidding." He shakes his head "No I'm not, but don't let him know I told you," I nod in response.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27wHvjAJp0
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I sit in silence the rest of the way, I felt excited, so excited I could probably piss myself, I giggle inwardly, but then my excitement turns into utter confusion when we pulled into the school car park. 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwOjTY97eh
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I kiss my brother goodbye and ran, well stompede all the way to the girls toilets, into my favourite cubicle.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDbMX3RpvI
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I say my favourite the reason being is, I've kind of drawn all over one wall in different designs, you can tell I spend alot of time in here, but now I needed my tranquility more than anything. 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyAR1px4Xq
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Help! My brother seems to think Alex also likes me, what do I do? Do I confront him? Do I leave him to tell me? Hold up what the hell am I doing, the diary ain't going to come alive and say "Hmmm I'm not sure Reagan! Oh jeez! Maybe I need some nutty pills, ok Reagan this is upto you not a diary, ok lets break it down.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZWa8fn3Ma
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Alex ❤❤❤700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNSAUeDb55
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6ft 3(I'd have to stand on Orange boxes just to lips him)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4o1A3FDqit
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Brown tousled hair (sexy bed hair)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡef0Jn772Jx
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Hazel eyes (come to bed, Right now! Eyes)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJPjmwzXiX
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12 pack (I exaggerate you not! But you get me)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMb5me6aBwb
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Nice bum(you could crack a nut in them cheeks)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSS7jmDfAco
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Omfg! Let me have him right here right now on this bog.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovEdmmaNqB
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I laugh out loud, oh shit shhh, I'm meant to be in lesson. 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaiHm9hzrO
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Ok now for me this should be fun700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEfi0BkLiM
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Reagan Charles700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtF8LZyn1LJ
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5ft4(short ass) 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvKmMu2ydt
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44dd(they go south when I lay down)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4fO0Y9ITw
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Round belly (which wobbles when I laugh like a bowl full of jelly)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XspBbX1CY
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Wide hips( well what more can I say)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRlbn4Szwj
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Fat ass(God don't get me started on that!)700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlU7htJzEt
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Positives about me hmmmm700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSD5Jd8xFU
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Nice eyes700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBpHc64by1
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Hmmmm not many then, shit this is what it all boils down too, I got f%&c all going for me and he's got everything going for him, I actually felt worse than what I did before I came in here, I started hyper ventilating, who the hell was I trying to kid he's right he's had quite a few girlfriends.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXBtpRdsg6
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I can remember a few, Tara Jackson, eve porter, Lisa carter, these girls are what I call barbie dolls, perfect in every way not a hair out of place washboard tummies the perfect handfulls everywhere, with me he would need both hands to grab one boob that's no lie, oooo er misses. 700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96JCRpUsSZ
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I ain't saying that it ain't a nice thought, but hey this was some serious shit and hell yeah I was jealous.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uw4kY4tql
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Right, that's it, I slam the diary shut and shove it in my bag, f%&k you I can't be doing with writing in you anymore your making me feel more depressed, tears roll down my cheek.700Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrEDoUDHm5
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The bell goes and I walk out of the toilet heading for maths, let's just try get through this one lesson then I can be alone again and maybe come up with some plan as to what the hell am I going to do at lunchtime.
