You know those days where you lay there and you're anxious from the moment you open your eyes, nothings gonna go right, those kinda days, well yep today was definitely that day.

I had awoken to the birds chirping on my balcony turning to the clock I saw it was still early so I laid there listening to them.

A notification sound brought me back to attention so I grabbed my phone before I even looked at it my tummy felt queazy like some sort of sixth sense I pushed it aside to look at the scream but I wish I hadn't even looked.

It was a long text from Alex.

It read: Dear Rea, I hope you're having a great time I popped by your house ya dad told me you were away, look I got to come clean about something I'm moving away looks like I got myself into a bit of trouble but it means we will suffer well you will if I stay I'm so sorry I never got to promise all that I promised but please know that I care enough for you do not want you to be a part of this so I'm ending it now before it gets out of hand I'm sorry you don't deserve this but you also don't deserve my crap either have an amazing birthday tomorrow coach knows I've left he already has a replacement tell Ty and the guys I'm sorry to take care, Rea."

I threw the phone against the wall screaming my heart felt like it had been ripped out I know this was gonna happen but I didn't know it was gonna hurt this bad that bitch has done it again she has ruined me from day one now she has also ruined my relationship.

Throwing myself back on the bed I cry into the pillows trying to calm myself down before I take a wrong turn into the bathroom, to use the razors I found. 

"Rea wake up sleepy head, were heading into town in an hour get ready" I sat up only to see the for shut again I couldn't comprehend who that even was who spoke as that text was imprinting in my brain causing the pain of my heart to hurt again.

Finally pulling myself together I walked out of my room taking deep breaths before meeting many eyes gazing at me from the living room, Jay was sat on Tys lap, Tyler was sitting at the piano and Theo and Cal was lounging against the bar Ty spotted me first, he knew something was wrong he smiled at me with his reassuring eyes but all I wanted to do was scream.

An hour or so later we were in a tiny little village that was surrounded by beautiful little boutiques and Restaurants.

I and Jay went off to shop, whilst the guys sat in a beer garden waiting.

"So what's happening with you and Ty now?" I asked Jay.

Her little face lit up at my question, "I'm not sure, to be honest, we have kissed a lot, but not much else, maybe we will see when we get back home" I nodded in response

It would be great to see someone happy again, getting some action....Ewwww no fair, as long as Jay doesn't tell me all the juicy details, I'd probably be jealous as hell, I'd definitely vomit for sure.

One shop we went into got me so excited, I felt like a kid in a candy store, it was only a plus size shop, but it was just the fact I ffnt have to search for my size getting embarrassed if they didn't have it, all the dresses, skirts including tops and underwear, were all in my size. Going through the aisles and shelves I started filling my basket, suddenly I came across a graphite skirt it's design was to die for, I had to have it.

I grabbed it off the rack whilst looking for a top and shoes to match everything was right in reach the set looked awesome.

I was gonna look killer in this, Alex was so gonna regret dumping me for sure, that's when I felt it again, the pain in my heart, I had almost forgotten that text this morning.

Once I had got everything I wanted I went up to pay at the till, the woman behind the counter was a plus size girl she was stunning, once she rang everything through she looked at me ughhh her eyes were to die for, she smiled at me and those damn eyes sparkled even more damn, I smiled back feeling my face blush in response.

"That will be £384: 64 pence please beautiful!" woah what the hell she just.....Jay smirked at me.

"Sorry, here you go" I passed her the bank card she took all the details and handed it me back with a receipt, I took it when she held my hand, looking directly at me as she put a flyer in my other hand, "You should come to this club later, they have the best music and DJs, the drinks are quite cheap too," I nodded at her before rushing out of the shop.

"Well Rea, I think you might just have an admirer of the same sex," Jay just kept laughing at me as we walked back to the lads.

Finding our way back after 15 minutes of Jay tormenting me over that woman was a relief.

we came out the other side of the trees and there they were.

"About time sis, these lads were just about to come looking for you, Cal smacked my bro's arm. 

"Don't lie, man, you were getting worried we said we would go look if they didn't return in a few" I just rolled my eyes.

Theo looked over smiling at me I was pleased to see that smile, Ty walked over grabbing my bag taking a peek inside whilst peering he pulled out the flyer checking it out.

"Hey Rea this sounds good you wanna go?" the lads looked up whilst Ty passed it to them to check it out they all nodded.

I was just about to agree when my big mouth bestie answered for me, "She has to she's got a date with the......I slapped her upside her head making her swallow what she was about to say next, the lads looked at us confused, I straightened myself up giving Jay a glare before looking back at Ty.

" Yeah sounds good bro, but seriously keep your girlfriend in line please," well that was it, Ty went red and so did Jay I licked my finger and put it up doing a tick motion, "Now let's get going we don't have much time," I spat.

The ride home was a quiet one, not an uneasy quiet, I just think everyone was relaxed and looking forward to a night on the town, I for one intend to paint the town red.