尋死的念頭一出現，我就被自己給嚇到了。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6MMgNgVse
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「妳瘋了嗎？」456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYtueFcV7Q
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNRthzUlF3
腦裡出現兩個我，理性的那個正在發飆，狠狠咒罵另一個我。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0ylnPXv42
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3RJGO9Tu1
而被罵的那個我，只是一個勁兒地哭。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcPzmU6mwl
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OwuKiwLhV
我覺得自己隨時都會爆炸、衝動行事，便躲進被窩，用厚厚的被子蓋住全身，連頭都包在棉被裡，不讓任何光線進來。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxLo09BDwx
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiM9syZre4e
在充滿二氧化碳的被窩裡，我全身是汗，滿臉淚水。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0OlXMsFxk
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBFsbs6EY3
我側身把臉埋進枕頭，把尖叫送進布料與棉花裡。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuaNA1WOWX
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWDURWKDSp
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0f6dUGV9RN
我往自己的腳下看，有一片草原。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJM61yQR4Io
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriaDPtqy1M
面前有一條石頭道路，盡頭是顆大樹。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsEPrsnTkJ
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx91JM8YGss
樹下站著一個人，太遠了，我看不清他的臉。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAG5F4TAEE
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgo8qExzsU
所以我走近，愈走愈近，直到我看清楚他是誰。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryQtCmagVs
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjywLY7oVh
站在樹下的人是英傑。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bvKbEbuX3
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxpZURuw4D
我跑向他，勾住他的手。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vwfemQXKP
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12FkX7v4mn
他對我笑著，什麼話也沒說。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVafryKfS3
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt99p5eCSHJ
我像是要把這些日子以來，所有發生的事情都告訴他，開始滔滔不絕地講。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80IkIoxgOm
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UD4CfpSJP
他陪著我走到我原本站的地方，就停下來。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0gpGXR06l
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvQOB4g4qG
我還在講，他轉頭看我，伸出手揉了我的頭，就像他每次做的那樣。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEu0AG6BIx
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQTU3XKuUn
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkLNOtHMrl
我張開眼睛，才知道自己夢見英傑了。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPeralD1G1
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMX3T0t3bSK
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIWZ0OCAHV
我開始懷疑起自己做這個夢的原因。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQSC9LnKy9
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZgaOUCRDX
是太想念英傑了，還是壓力太大需要出口？456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdt7tqmYlI1
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiE2NpzIdUY
或是…他真的怎麼了，才到我夢裡來？456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpG4IdzRcpv
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFoouPb6pK
我心裡很害怕是後者，但我知道此時的自己無法找到真正的解答。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNY44slZ1V
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL26Jp9Flvt
這個夢緩解了我的情緒，也瞬間恢復了大部分的理智。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0KXrQ3smu
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbST90koH6
不管是什麼原因，都是英傑救了我。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXHzeh7k9T
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAo8BDs6fNh
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhTNKOodb5
我度過了心中的那個坎，日子雖然沒有改變，但我的心態改變了。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPS3Hey7vn
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNI6AgPbcb7
「沒錯，都是我選的。所以，我要更努力才行。」456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovUhOAPs5G
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHUc5cAM4w
雖然，從那個時候開始，過了很長一段借貸的日子。人都說救急不救窮，但我很幸運，擁有很多好朋友，如果我開口，他們總是不說二話的就拿錢給我；就算我死愛面子不開口，他們也會一直逼問是不是沒錢用。我拿著跟朋友借來的錢，繳家裡的房租、水電費、瓦斯費…然後在假日另外打零工還錢。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrcjicThbS
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nIAXVyPEG
高中的最後一個學期，我也差點因為沒能繳出學費而休學（當時已有就學貸款，但沒有考慮，只想著沒錢就去賺錢，別念書好了），但我那班不知該說是兄弟還是恩人的同學，硬是把一疊鈔票交到我手裡，要我慢慢還，要我和他們一起畢業。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuEFpnD9E7
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0hfcTqaDG
我沒參加考試，畢業後直接去找了工作。我還清了錢，卻欠了好多人情債。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRLDI8Eodb
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXwXPstlNh
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlcCf4IlmW
生活條件穩定之後，也談了戀愛，生活圈的人換了幾輪，越來越趨於穩定。
只是在我心底仍有一個空蕩的角落。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzw6rQcJauk
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BwehGPGaS
我還是沒有更換手機號碼，一直抱著小小的希望，456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1EEuf7Fe9
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyi3BSzxQT6
可我已在心裡默默地接受「英傑可能已經過世了」的事實。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaU7qc7ZH1
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4XsHjUlxw
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJhCbwTXxe
某天，我的皮夾不知在哪兒掉了，找也找不到。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJ0Fc7qvTW
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasPcop6WhC
我辦了卡片掛失，心裡希望有人撿到皮夾，會願意送還給我。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclPWlRnqPQ
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6KBF1x27A
這時，我才想起皮夾裡有英傑的照片，也想起我們說好要另外拍照留存的事。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTJdy0Czhg
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCymttYsLZy
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkX2blOliP
我的皮夾沒回來，英傑唯一的照片也這麼沒了。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycSMAKf7CK
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqByykgnbt
有時候，我會懷疑自己已經忘記他的長相，便努力回想那段日子，但畫面只是越來越模糊。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLiPjea42e
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhkgGb3F18
一年、兩年、三年，當我漸漸淡忘這段過去的時候，我卻看見他了。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaSAiT15Pu
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9BPU2Na8d
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jSk2y6cHw
在電視裡面。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29EC9ih3ot
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rOhhGNfjT
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyzjfHsqnc
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhctbzaRP80
待續。
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