我比他先到達高潮，直到那刻我仍沒有出聲，在雙腿緊繃幾秒，高潮退去後，我靠著牆滑坐到地上。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SnNIz78wT
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然後看著他的體液沾滿手指、手掌和手銬。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wDrdCdLet
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYol0t5tX1
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「豺姐…？」過了一會兒，他出聲。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogcScwyenC
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk9NVTSNdM
我做了個深呼吸，站起來，拿起椅子上的裙子和內褲。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgC5JNcv4sV
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBAc9y1jew
「別動，等我一下。」我走進浴室清理自己。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrV3lhhiZW
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zpGPTpUPI
出來後，我從包包裡拿出濕紙巾，擦拭他的凌亂。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCnD6aLRHz
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziKgWcfAY9
「我自己弄就好了…」他窘迫。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJ6UNsqN4q
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkHM6DdqOQ
「不要動。」我說。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82t09BRAvs
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIojknLRN0M
擦拭完畢後，我解開他的手銬、取下眼罩。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqq8eiJsIu
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHal6J0sIyz
他慢慢地睜開眼，室內光線是柔和的黃光，他沒有花太多時間適應。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpTNMCguRQ
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLFoozyM6o
「妳臉好紅。」他盯著我。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92dSgUzrr7
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlf1xSChofq
「哪有你紅？」我笑了，對著他的身體使了個眼色。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgM3aPpeNG
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF6cFLtJwQ
他才意識到自己一絲不掛，匆忙站起來跑進浴室。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXpfrK2o0y
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWIep3siNU
而我的笑容在他進浴室後消失。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTDjEcw8H7
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sWZM9Qgj3
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfBlzBA8AS
待他出來後，我在桌旁等他，示意他坐到另一張椅子上。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFCJF0aYRz
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIPRrj3A8F
「我們結束這樣的關係吧。」
我直接講了重點，在他出來前的內心預演統統沒有用上。說出口後，他的表情定格了好幾秒。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdStUKfAFLa
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcCbPBwKWa
「為什麼？」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xr3mcnDaW
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDSTtw0G1A
我想像得到他會問為什麼，但我卻沒辦法馬上回答他，只是看著他的眼睛，沉默。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4DqORdV4r
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOV9miFMYK
「為什麼啊？」他稍稍提高了音量。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEUCWeH8Hx
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVpFe6XWiR
「我做錯什麼了嗎？」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPkNTx52qE
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1T2mqSUFHn
他不停追問，而我仍沒有出聲。有那麼片刻，我還以為我們是正在協議分手的情侶。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLW92wIABs
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77g5RQCvn2
而那種錯覺正是必需結束的主因。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzILWghs41k
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxCnHjBuRd
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7g447CnG7Y
「你是不是越來越依賴我了？」我輕輕的開口。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPeC8mu7HQ
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmpV4w8hcF
「什麼意思？我太黏妳了嗎？我可以不要太常去找妳吃飯啊。」他急著「改正」可能的錯誤。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVk24Am06xq
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsavYNUgLao
我搖搖頭，「那不是問題，問題是我也開始依賴你了。」這刻，我還是盯著他的眼睛說話。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqV4U4xMKXS
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nDgbRYPqD
「……」他語塞。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GOQUt9iPB
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9gd253rPs
「有時候我會覺得你像我的男朋友。」
「你從來沒有做過越線的事，就像你一開始保證的那樣。」
「可是當我開始希望你越線的時候，我們的關係就很難維持了。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSxlgPo0vT
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBJoV05hD3
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZKtZLsfGe
「…妳喜歡我？」他猶疑了一下才說出口。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKpy8CQh9q
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrue33LPJV
「可能有一點，或只是習慣你。無論如何，這樣不行。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN9QXVSCBX
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AHcCCZgYF
「為什麼不行？」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRdNjuhJI8
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiZSjvgQka
「你喜歡我嗎？有想過跟我交往嗎？或你有想過要跟我上床嗎？」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrH9X00IyR2
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAJNZY5iDE
他被我突然的問句嚇到，過了一會兒才回應。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnMqxt2vbd
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQy4p3W4IaT
「我…沒想過。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDDyoyMpn8
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「是了。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYWXbtRtMk
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyVASwZjm9
「可是…可是我可以想想看啊，只是…可是…」他慌了，語無倫次。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnk3M11E9a
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqmDchle6b
「別想了，這樣結束就好。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgHheVbm25
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsacY3Ky7wV
「我不要！這樣太突然了，我不要啦…」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KY1Z9ocSR
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLtQhd7jjE
我摸摸他尚帶有水珠的頭髮，覺得他像隻淋濕的小狗，373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSxHWWQqIE
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQoRoTnYHy
惹人憐愛。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifw4Hmw1Jt
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoQpBzAy13
從一開始就是這樣看待他的，我心裡的情感疊了太多層，無法和他明說。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwVzYBcyBb
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkVb00lN2p
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41i9mPIbeM
「你只是捨不得能陪你玩的對象而已，趁現在結束才不會有更多麻煩。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpU20gUYcJq
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1odDma2xmM
也許是被我冰冷的話語刺中了，他的眼睛滾下一顆淚珠。我預料中的反應。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEAGEcnW9N
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCVZPAQusj
他離開椅子，跪到我面前，像犯錯的孩子。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqa1wmWvT0I
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqY9PmYUQ9
如果是情侶，跪著的那個人大概會抱住坐著的人吧？373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkU1X38BF9w
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam7Vn43XFs
但他沒有，就是隔著剛好的距離，恭敬的、卑微的，跪著。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQgMO7i06Y
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugHaX8IUZc
那就是我們之間的距離－－主與奴的，即便我從不肯承認。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRG6NaMa6j
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBOQKU2NKr
「如果我們變成男女朋友，我就能夠留下妳嗎？」他嗚咽的說。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE6wEjwBKQ
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILb36bKrU5
那語氣裡滿是委屈，被拋棄的、不情願的…373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILkNOp3qQq
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7q0VQm36rV
「我們不會變成男女朋友。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIMeEFNZuJ
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzJtGle5MH
我把椅子拉開，也跪坐到地上，與他平視－－不再是主與奴的視角。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTv8nCXMlO5
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArmkxe8kiI
「就算我們變成情侶，也沒辦法滿足彼此。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcstgrzYJA
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoGK6tvYvY
他看著我的眼神，表示不懂我說的意思。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTESAiry9yC
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfeYAJF73a
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlY9gYqKRas
我握住他的手，允許自己坦白。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UxMYKBNzN
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69d62tY5wV
「你不是想知道我為什麼會使用麻繩嗎？不是一直覺得我對這些事很熟練嗎？」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YlWmz4BZ0
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnS8CWLsHmG
「那是因為我以前也做過。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJcbESR8aT
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSizD1leunn
他的眼睛倏地睜大，「我沒有別的奴。」我的雙手使了點力，示意要他繼續聽我說話。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yu5Hjpwc5
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ36ItHijDQ
「……我以前是服從的角色。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbbYN6OwO5
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ekOl0kFUY
「那些我對你做的事，都是以前別人對我做過的。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkvxUMxUxC
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFiRBsvWpV
「所以我才知道怎麼進行，但以前那個人很野蠻，我都被弄得很痛，所以我才不希望你受任何傷。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0suNhfp5q
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckJ3znyXFP
「我更不希望當你看見傷痕的時候會想起我。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpiReX1Smm
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hzZR6oEGn
我看著他，沒有移開目光。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUepMLa2sb
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK753zSsLrt
那些時候我看著他，會把自己的過去與他重疊。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QtW9Pg6Xj
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTErUk5ElRu
對他的處境所衍生的心疼，或許也參雜了更多私心，不曉得是心疼他，還是心疼過去的自己。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrakWqbky0
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTX96EXA9PQ
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fAatIeXcv
他傻住了，什麼話也說不出來。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWKOeF5qcg
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vC9hMflvN
我放開他的手，再次摸摸他的頭髮。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9W7nJkkP1k
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3Zc7BWrpr
「去吹乾頭髮吧，會感冒的。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfKe3mwzdG
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZtTnD6tlN
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdSMsL0NZD
離開旅館後，我們再也沒有見過面了。373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtcDFpFSvh
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5wUac6d3h
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa11sXygOWO
那天晚上我在自己的記事本裡寫了一段這樣的話：373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOvvQs4mOH
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fA8QWyRSg
「我們都只是被情慾支配的獸，你是狗，但你不知道我是狼。」373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiU5QfEqp0
373Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLmQXmCdtK
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