愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66J8L57yVZ
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87S36kTWxg
後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq88yIK8KXI
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudsq5llIEd
然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZI9dCUcir
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxH3NIb66N
逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbweAvldQmj
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu0AubSwWN
也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSppZqXipuB
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但他沒有。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB6a3XD7nP
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ANAVR81YT
在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXKezJ5k1C
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0lHkYGXQr
或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUluX9rCCp
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjlWH39BWo
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGvuIcAwmm
再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAjNWWXwSe
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthi1cAXIIk
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvyP8RYYtF
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7Zv8aJ9MT
「妳在家嗎？」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eWkftID60
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FIQlywANs
「嗯。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1eHt7ae2f
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMc2tmsStIv
「下來。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL09lj3kxg0
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfdr1M3lEV
我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1WdeKr4hK
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKO4GySeDO
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjFHAdAhbx
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakZXg8SY36
「上車。」他敲敲車子。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡug2fbO0DT7
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyB0N8OYfb
「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCpNA9wUm2
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZMCczIYuJ
「把妳載去賣。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGYmy64UEX
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHtmJMGIWZ
「嗯，好。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqob8AhCCm
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEblczKtGd
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6YGhoByif
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9r0lStjPfo
我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6SC90jEvu
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIBL4xFSDU
「起床了。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrQvEKviOA
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBazjsbO2BR
「快點起來，小豺！」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAiIDjS75J
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoObDnRKAF
我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3bEPutFOH
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAShSqxfmI1
「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEysT1wJgl3
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50OXhMOjx7
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGT8lPqUgHV
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTbw940UEz
「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ3bDm95cU
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pRZQzhoap
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJWibUw98G
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsp5Egwd9jt
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xZJ2n2B89
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntB0IPPQ8G
「在山上。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4knGhfQiP
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcqKg9J2xZ
下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLuQS9ZXOi
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2fub5uC1a
「你要拜拜啊？」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3J4FhfC6K
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBuQ4EuThB
「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONVgp5hH3k
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbC7GQgV9iJ
「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AcLJYqV86
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAaK4CsPdV
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLMcRoXEZ2
我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEcHUlYLlm
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYloLpOkWJ5
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReigNNGhfc
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudoBcraAbq
「我哪知道。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzk1C2lhMV6
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZ9AcGqVOc
「……說的也是。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4t5D3j5H2s
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIid1Z92aGc
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb3tAp75pv
「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqZJ0f9xSf
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oaXsvbfml
「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqopGrXO8R
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14ISMBZsDN
「會發霉。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3EyRuMLJ0
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6y7uyH30g
「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbNnKqmHpZ
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtzKszhiBc
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUO1hKZyeSs
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWBjXXESpP
「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XIv1p81bT
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWv6fgNXjbb
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1Ut0AcLht
「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7f5WSEjTHg
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswdH21Uw2R
「啊？」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTI6AS9PJGh
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnFtfnVw66
「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNj7S2xQYxs
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtplfxZEdGK
「哈…你很噁心耶。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTHO2fomnC
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwXvWXsRHD
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ14QyyPFSp
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4JqD2GHm4
「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGoUHc0nPL
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLHbFE9FIb
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1YqrLfGK6
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31VKp0nBpV
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQUwAJzUKa
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2KUscvqTQ
「好啦，我勉強用一下。」484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BNxACXXA0
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡej9qzf8Wry
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPXKVHPI3E
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRYbhxyyrx
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQniyZDq6eb
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsYL2bccYF
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjAcoLezOS
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVIcnA3LlK
那是我和他最靠近的一次。484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1iyMND7qp
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLMYKtc0r3
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkJ6JALM6e
484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UzkdyA2My
待續。
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