愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFx10RS5WjA
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQ0573uG9c
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWoAEEzlBD
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnhrsIKnMf
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xfvqHnGWi
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但他沒有。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ig2bFMfpN
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoun03Hc9Z6
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYHzGMiVcr
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmXjQIcEdH
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZp3ax68b6
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxR4D3TPmr
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「妳在家嗎？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk638Z2oK8Q
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「嗯。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHg4K1Npbuy
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「下來。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwutyBaJRua
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi62U32KpD
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lduxUkILt
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqYQzTJoYq
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRFStksfs5
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUxoIUspVT
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「把妳載去賣。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7GQ2H8kpj
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「嗯，好。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasbL8PfhL1
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHx4dqO9zz
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qp3vsPAKC
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VZcuEnF64
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「起床了。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGt0VDi2UGh
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「快點起來，小豺！」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHDLm1IpoF
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CdgS7dFfZ
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibjKif1TTo
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RWQ4Kxe2D
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKMtIzfXln
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YHeh1oMop
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEzQrALrlw
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3lpQ8HYP6
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsdZ3rmOYg
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「在山上。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjz520ImKe8
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3c2oFgrch
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「你要拜拜啊？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwH0soU8HQe
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrVylvH3a4
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOafC6N91lm
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzeVl5zNly
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WaI8Ul8Oo
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWvi4yNyvP
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「我哪知道。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbidoKBHh8D
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「……說的也是。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcCW2un0Tw
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjpLX9PKrJ
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvAJGph1sl
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「會發霉。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKwJOJMtDf
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumkRx2jw2V
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwZbNc43rR
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFTbzUe1Ud
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbRFK0gy9w
「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9O08jl6ME
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ41i9CotXN
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「啊？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBMpM59NDL
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiajYcrVszJ
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLxt3JpaSY
「哈…你很噁心耶。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJi2woL1HcR
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudIPYNKjOk
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqYmfz1ToA
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtU4vaXJEyU
「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyf1TkpWXE
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRsrM9dVfU
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0qBClW6FN
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WPogFx5OM
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5aLVIDiMG
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMruiyoQ64o
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9AJWpXZow
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezZgiWrSzB
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOG4sgnGt0Y
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKXKy8lD6l
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwhgizH08W
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNd4EaVeVso
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待續。
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