愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcBiAdYzR8
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbMEeRwDfd
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYmrzLvVlH
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr62MjtCwmz
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE13orKgBJr
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但他沒有。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFIq6J9VF4
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPR62cVye9
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJeNRJIJvb
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiF0l0ebDZB
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nGWbwWrMp
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「妳在家嗎？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLm70c7jy7
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「嗯。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSR4MznqPV
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「下來。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckncaTV7AG
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymXQY9DG4Y
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxeLE5i9Wl
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NVuz7w3nM
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVCjSGLfK2
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「把妳載去賣。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlDtEFE8FN
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「嗯，好。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8HA0OcN33
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFG3U0pxoDO
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLi09HBZLtU
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「起床了。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUp9HZG4s9
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「快點起來，小豺！」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03FlscfikG
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAtn1PTBFf
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnwczaal2x
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiCPUTR4yu
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8XrEb6o12
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXxs4ON6tK
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavQhC3kSfU
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「在山上。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ516eVpWRXg
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocfGtaTSVN
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「你要拜拜啊？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtggcRgDM7T
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxEhkJStgo
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXjL1zpzzZ
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLehFwkHoTq
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFcBOPtJvD
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3WSbd8ugA
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「我哪知道。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheVNv4jYJN
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「……說的也是。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMz1p6zlBtf
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzs9BGVuA04
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2CBgcDKLx
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「會發霉。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6t1xVQhDr
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJlGoXSEwO
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg09juJkO1
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4OP62hhkG
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXqtF68HRQ
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCgUY0t0Ru
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「啊？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM69pw5ZBOF
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYBNifxXxz
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRKElNhrmb
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtmnQsB5B7
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFB7XFFtob
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJub0bfxlX5
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlpKrJ6d4Y
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOeWoezSFQ
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OWg3avHQ8
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxv2IF7a82N
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVN60giFUf
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYdAlgQFbc
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQ56Pk2HhZ
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPvKvPAEhV
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0nQxVDbKI
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmz4GaURR3
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJr7vD6cbf
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待續。
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