等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJj8MsaPWML
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyVIFjf3wY
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPDZCm5hyB
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEGKfKQUd8
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkjf2GSALC
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Eb66yCIyt
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVg5yXA00M4
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WlKEBFVbR
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqtP0ramxz
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lILr1GwST
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EXtbgfsbZ
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0idedH7Jn
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19tbZo0uoE
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPl4ZxX6E8
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbZdij1YSB
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeU0BjDG8dk
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yUiwpxK6Y
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNno5kvM6V
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ520AivVPG5
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRc5N2ORzEw
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBMmJJzDJ4
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpWOE4NWrE
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWi6FN2uTSs
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0d4aTKIWxy
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVMAYg3S2y
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxUcU5uKWT
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjHI25EPMZ
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEhYBzKVLG
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgo9tBi7fAQ
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjwJ3kyGFl
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKa42L9XZD
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWXok3gZSC
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiz8Hvldpog
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aSaUAivWx
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGPTDdl3jL
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryAjfOJjr6
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3zqIYfQ6M
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTUkQryGzS
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWh9jIxA6p
「這是新編的。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqHCBR1sOh
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVkwN6Qbej
他看了看手繩，又看看我。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyN4e2xwEN
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuY9VqsGyp7
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHTUBOxKTN
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDn72inrDsj
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLv3w338qa
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhATIIV9pqT
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswQnslZH9r
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJefcAuHLYL
「妳看。」他得意。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLw5SgbIpE
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfb93SH70k
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHMnDEGigK
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnaqPExL0D
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnLoEDja8N
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBB6zpNSDNj
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJ878pSCTq
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckYMK0vXW2
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcrtG15LLN
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPAq7JdvOg
「現在拍。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QE699Q1Zm
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「啊？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZr0sSuG4O
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSQByRllOX
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7kkZhZTDT
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45dlwjWUaM
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAO3O2fPvT
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrh0LLZQU8
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mNrOhAimW
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlOVLcnVYj
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX243av2lbP
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoJ7YG1r2M
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6lWW0LRro
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQ1RyksZDk
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZjsglMzu0
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXY2fwIPXe8
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WIj9OK0C4
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhh0kmNFej
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWST2Cg1Zgb
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjidTaEQY3J
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIJGITqYPr
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpgRO4HwyO
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtt4uRrPsP
「…有寫一些小故事。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTR66jfYDF
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXpnZQ4hBC
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUjHsVTctO
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RWxXZbSiQ
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6NQdlbmpQ
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡellcNFcQ8g
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgCqgugpHn
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGZBrRmPwb
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdWavroYua
「妹。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBhZS7gUS4
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPqrnJYL0X
「嗯？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8emrYhFb92
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fN1j2oZjX
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OtJ8MPTTz
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEybf6hfiK
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnrUqeVFk9
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1zDXF4DnN
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVo3LGuS58z
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vKIgpZ1sN
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9ssCTkgXS
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobqhJuufUm
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudy0aMdMix
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYAXP7m8zI
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5IRaUBu1J
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm0Ip13xB6
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdMGueEoUz
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUZ2qqO4RQ
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeFSc5TkpL
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIhpaH8B5S
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmR28UeKR8
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqR1VycH71Z
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0N9YGkZPW
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3nuykZOgN
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMDL8q5tOu
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5YbkvPlrU
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8JmEW5GPM
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVoqKlb855
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但我是欣慰的。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2Ok4fSjfT
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那一天來的又快又急。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9Ua72iPrJ
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXVPv94omZ
「妹…」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrYq5xvINO
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8FSFAicSG
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6g3gvWDt6
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtBEJbeNAR
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaz3uodV4M
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GPyteasiu
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWu2Wtik9vE
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJBOopo4yt
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yyACZlvOx
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKOpvMIXfG
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gzx4zg7an
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUtLyoJJzR
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BKdSXQIfo
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0mVL0025t
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbj2r7qQNo
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsI52YByEe
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpVTdHu02V
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP74bFI983y
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrp7RLjkvY
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFALanUWAg
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKb0DEYOVbt
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh221PGk9J0
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEVBWktSo4
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xcp24txsi
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6KSY1IJQY
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「我真的，還不想死。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAsFPmtZ8a
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZ3SxZHzdI
我握著他的手出了點力。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2PyrAVRFq
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHClv2minRa
「我很害怕。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTOMFHod0q
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUK8PUuaPFy
「我很怕死…」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrokY9P1WNO
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI30OECeSpP
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTdEs6VHTf
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OvZFfZfiI
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhvpYR24uB
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjKjaaXYkM
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFGoSvUx6e
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WQ7QQihxi
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqdU8hiw4E
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbnnRKW3GP
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJITAeck6bn
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJ69bmBbkK
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCeBebkFlh
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEz8GbN19dM
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kmpXlZi6c
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6540rNv7Tr
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjBMw8LPzW
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ971BHCrYGl
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBbEixauq9
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlFjiXH6Va
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPFcb23GVs
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHb5xH4jT5
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「妹。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXVV6EVQu6
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprTzzfNGHn
「嗯？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55hmgrzzHn
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6dZR3Tb9J
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdKT2UsDi3
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBv9vainvx
我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EKwfym4ll
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「回去再看。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5invL9yO1
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「好。」我收起信。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnbBktnSEW
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「妳回去吧。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt72qPd5ZEz
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「什麼？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxACa5ClKp
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLQuPysq5G
「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjwyP56LJy
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「為什麼？」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCR6SPZxWQ
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVFjkrFvqE
「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUP2hAE28S
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「……」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WFsY1OyF3
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「回去吧。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57IUXmMaQ1
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcv6mn2ea9x
他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBK4809Mqh
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwRQr7QfQ8
不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6gNdoszZB
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELh3q7aEbV
我又抱了抱他才離開。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmmMdiaQom
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460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRl1nFEMYd
當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleVq2oDMcC
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJlVBHcUQK
「英傑已經走了。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBBI4J0hgB
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEouJrO5td1
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxqpJAiR0v
那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bE5q5z9Dw
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFjkYQts1h
我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yvspqiX8i
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl70qzpmAG4
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「Dear 妹：」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrOPjFnifB
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「妳永遠是我的天使，460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIda4eAUPKC
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請不要忘記我。」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmp9brU00m
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「哥 英傑」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYZw4tLdkW
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMCxXAzcNg
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSx2EV10sm
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUV6MZUS5Qa
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSP19lJ3vOm
之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5colru8x33
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcK3hYb9wBO
每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7twa21TtND
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFH2YroojWY
前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADUxbQZUDc
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlKdAFbnRV
後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmD0Ve6XOjC
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS20TWpfhgf
英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgTdMrrj14
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzg3KgaMkI
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfql0bxVExZ
曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvcDsHIoKz
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但我什麼也沒做。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIV5uonmcn
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTZWD5mSyE
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgETh4zRsb
所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs9yhGUfMA
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLVAv2Z4HQ
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8uKTHgjif
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8s5hrBw3D
說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpJNoxyURQ
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去年，我沒有寫信。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkEMAKZ5BM
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzu4pGniWe
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZgipDfy6o
460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4dgM8uRiA
我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUexAGT2854
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這是，我哥哥的故事。460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTBqLVu9zP
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