等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsFq27AQPg
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wKsM02DvB
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHNLN61Wzo
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcGtwCN5TD
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我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1g4BkbiSHO
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVBhEMkrtH
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTXEAdtQ0x
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qYilB8Zb7
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGj9u5IwjbQ
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwzCuJ4eBg
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkizA6WrrQ
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uy1SJjCDO
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeB9hAk8jtL
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「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFPo9QGKpx
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRUnhfWaOj
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「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvO7SIUzEL
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他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe64ImNUEcZ
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavjHtz4imU
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNFcQxnNYE
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「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfSRu2CIQz
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我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3K6JwjQhyR
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「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqRHclM3FR
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「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFI7x5yRLG
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgvB9fkEey
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcC4WmffXPY
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「這是新編的。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWTxZ3yuSA
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LBafi4j9I
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「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkmXLOxFLU
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我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yEhUtGgzM
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白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sAbmXue66
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「妳看。」他得意。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbtwxrdraJ
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVL8gjp3zOu
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「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUrHAqDBJm
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeEZ35wp4h
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvyrWl7yLX
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「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6p9IIZnDq2
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「現在拍。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLnjWRHfYz
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「啊？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkQ9xXc5Tm
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNlfxeMNJX
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「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UbwvtmYGb
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGa3L2MRQMj
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「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4jLqhlunG
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWwdOcKJYL
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqozw14Rl5K
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSEZjlmvP6
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fi6zZqqjt
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONkTCgYxLu
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4j1RPEIoX
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pCktauh3x
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTPZRKCA0A
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PQGxgBoCv
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「…有寫一些小故事。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWoWZ59tvo
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHOWvh3Kyb
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6dnPRvdM3
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgDlYdFhre
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「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3SfIRYfTA
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9Ah3HXBL9
「妹。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiH7mSKBl0j
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「嗯？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IEHPZlBYz
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcciAuta6k3
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我突然意識到他正在做什麼。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyO2jUNrsuA
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像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuK2umWgGoO
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因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxi7NZcGxQ
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApL0LW1Wgr
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他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0oZBSkFyn
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「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrxYr6clJf
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爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAB5cgCr8O
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我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPa7EbAwGf
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBotunOTvj1
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我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡef7LKclV7o
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我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLON7xoRmo
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但我是欣慰的。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJCVLKsq4Q
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那一天來的又快又急。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNorzXVb0X
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「妹…」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMLHZb532z
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我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGXdj4O15N
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「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi39uNrznyQ
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還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlksC9hy4Ju
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「我還不想死…」他哭著說。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9jV7KrkUM
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9i2dZwKNx
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83RfGZi2yX
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfq3kocpQ1
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他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8jcW7Avan
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英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CHmHWidEb
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她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvcvclObZY
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbAjzaBBaj
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZN21SRmva
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「我真的，還不想死。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0PHFVsrAa
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我握著他的手出了點力。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUyzfUXiow
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuAwSjcx8Q
「我很害怕。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58nSiY45DU
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「我很怕死…」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgl96o4P2Ow
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dfLVUVRo6
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBDGf9BFRh
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NFoUmxZG7
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkNFai6jF4
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2WJHhSEA7
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru6a04irFa
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtby9CfIavh
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMCV9iFduL
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeMlZRKHUQ
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtYTGHXTzV
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vJfJrgp4J
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2GfMz0cBP
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGOo4qkhe8
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MC9EXHLvg
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7rkQSPXqH
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxsNzSI3Pn
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「妹。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKVloI1bo7
453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbf1BGynQf1
「嗯？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiP2PqofgX
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh72jc0tyMX
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxSRJYndi9
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「回去再看。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3l9X4TqG5j
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「好。」我收起信。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoDcom7GEs
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「妳回去吧。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lvudSP0ZV
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「什麼？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfLmiGPTH4
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LcGjMH7gW
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「為什麼？」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTJxaSzjqy
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DinJuLFBA
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「……」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtibIz7tIhH
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「回去吧。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3y4MOutpur
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8PERZfv3p
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtntaLoDmyV
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我又抱了抱他才離開。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumu3JhV9ic
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpF60cwYcL4
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「英傑已經走了。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SeOJmsol1
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByuLsgqIH3
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6eUYkjt4J
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「Dear 妹：」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4A8mPpQC1
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「妳永遠是我的天使，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUnWLK9FZy
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請不要忘記我。」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxxlhy1mzQ
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「哥 英傑」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWeKWIVpDe
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4wmrnoyKA
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0lqeK6kNV
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHnGrbyZrT
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNvBelKtSG
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEjqKr7QAr
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUthpBMzhs
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtKWjn2Jnb
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukL92vLMDM
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但我什麼也沒做。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfP6f1EqwYV
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURWnTWWHXF
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnVuIp2fQR
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhG6EgwavH4
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1V3ekqG4X
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfb0PDG755
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去年，我沒有寫信。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyX6P6p3zR
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrN3OTthe3y
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYY8Ow4q4M
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyq3tPKmfT
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這是，我哥哥的故事。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuor8jrd4td
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