大概連妍妍也沒有想過訊息發出去後不消一秒我便從升降機中步出,她的樣子明顯有點吃驚,竟然有點可愛的感覺,明明平日不說話時是有點冷漠,給人感覺難以接近的那種美女。942Please respect copyright.PENANAIT8txFhWOW
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妍妍馬上躍起來轉過身去把略為凌亂的頭髮梳好才回首:「你地…去放狗?」942Please respect copyright.PENANA3BYIA5C83Z
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以往和妍妍相處還不錯的亞基,這次卻藏在童桐身後。942Please respect copyright.PENANAlJCTlOUegf
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「嗯,去行下。」我說,「你…黎搵我有事?」942Please respect copyright.PENANAXSDOTARfe6
942Please respect copyright.PENANAEYQv5Fme3n
妍妍這時卻是看看童桐,然後搖搖頭說:「咁我唔阻你地…呀,係喇,恭喜你地兩個正式係埋一齊。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAtornuc2KSm
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心中一痛。942Please respect copyright.PENANAnf23AkFzNt
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我聳肩苦笑說:「…其實,最後…我地…無一齊到。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAzxzulKXr2z
942Please respect copyright.PENANAZKz77lxYeY
只是區區幾個字,我卻花了好大的氣力才能擠出唇間,而且還是在童桐面前。942Please respect copyright.PENANAkPlku7SLMg
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「嗄?」942Please respect copyright.PENANAahCK3aia3A
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我隨便編了幾個理由,反正我被拒絕多後也知道那些套路,甚麼時間不對啦,未準備好啦,未有心理準備啦之類,說著說著我都開始前言不對後語。942Please respect copyright.PENANAcY8Go6yHzc
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在說甚麼,這根本無需這樣多的藉口吧。942Please respect copyright.PENANATosPPVHaVj
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總之就是童桐心中那個唯一的位置,最高,最獨別,最鐘愛的位置輪不到我坐。942Please respect copyright.PENANAxS28lXZjdB
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即使其他人可以,就是我不行。942Please respect copyright.PENANAFjMmKr773z
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「總之…我同呀遊依加只係好好,好好既青梅竹馬。」童桐說。942Please respect copyright.PENANAOOG848tUGV
942Please respect copyright.PENANAoWh9H16S90
「嗯…」我點點頭。942Please respect copyright.PENANAKz4wLa3KHZ
942Please respect copyright.PENANAC54pSIfiTs
妍妍雙眼閃過剎那的異樣,有點冷漠,有點氣憤,又有點…憐憫。942Please respect copyright.PENANApsoUGhNAT9
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…被憐憫了嗎。942Please respect copyright.PENANAZ9dpFi1Xkj
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但馬上她又好像洩氣地嘆了一口氣:「唉,可惜啊,呀遊,我仲睇到情聖D相,以為你成功…咁…我走先啦,唔阻你地,拜拜啦亞基。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAkY6iLnHMbs
942Please respect copyright.PENANAZbQmxeCNUc
亞基耳朵抖動一下,沒甚麼反應。942Please respect copyright.PENANAEIvb9ltqBo
942Please respect copyright.PENANATLtjPqQYnb
我和童桐住這兒是山上的屋宛,路過是說不通的,加上剛剛的訊息,她是有事來找我。942Please respect copyright.PENANAuxc605p80Y
942Please respect copyright.PENANAaMk3FFSIRF
但一看到童桐卻放棄了?942Please respect copyright.PENANAxHphMX5s4U
942Please respect copyright.PENANAhwTUpDw4gV
上一次見到妍妍,她情緒相當不穩,還問我有關黑PR,核彈的事;再往過去回溯,無論是玩測謊機那次,水上樂園那次,她也算是一個相當有性格的女生,但是…942Please respect copyright.PENANAipiDagb4i3
942Please respect copyright.PENANA488ePf1qnv
…這次她身上散發的氣場改變了。942Please respect copyright.PENANAIXlpHwGnyK
942Please respect copyright.PENANAvRakaT0FkW
我一邊思考著妍妍的舉動,一邊和童桐牽著亞基散步,直到我們在附近繞了一圈後回到樓下的公園。942Please respect copyright.PENANAeGZKIg4TCQ
942Please respect copyright.PENANAxueMdbCs8m
「去搵佢啦。」童桐突然說。942Please respect copyright.PENANAJYbCSkQspW
942Please respect copyright.PENANAdV9Mi8bfzy
「嗄?」我吃驚地問,「搵…搵邊個…」942Please respect copyright.PENANAfxllctszO1
942Please respect copyright.PENANAtWVvrGM00W
「由頭先起你就心不在焉,擔心緊妍妍係唔係?」942Please respect copyright.PENANATHHZOUn9rv
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所以有時童桐連我心思也能讀懂的這點也叫我相當頭痛。942Please respect copyright.PENANAaN2jRtREiH
942Please respect copyright.PENANAnt93t3YWvh
「我同埋你返上去先。」但我拒絕。942Please respect copyright.PENANAHkxu6NWTzo
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童桐也沒說甚麼,只是微微一笑。942Please respect copyright.PENANAYc4K4oGCfO
942Please respect copyright.PENANAz8wLJ4DIlP
[你依加係邊,我等陣過黎搵你]進升降機前我先發出訊息。942Please respect copyright.PENANA6Me2beEz9h
942Please respect copyright.PENANAFr9aX3ZCAv
回到家後,童桐解開亞基的狗繩後牠馬上跑向水兜喝水,把狗繩其他工具放回原位後童桐道:「咁…我返去啦?」942Please respect copyright.PENANAAZ7ZzR0Al7
942Please respect copyright.PENANABGCfQkstIk
氣氛有點詭異。942Please respect copyright.PENANAa3oqPB5Npa
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我就說了,我與童桐根本不能回到和以前一樣。942Please respect copyright.PENANAaWjM0LDLCL
942Please respect copyright.PENANARLltFkm0sC
過去之所以是過去,正因已經過去。942Please respect copyright.PENANAidhrsQZuoz
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所以,昨天那一吻,昨天那一晚,不能改變。942Please respect copyright.PENANAwcUOukUiHO
942Please respect copyright.PENANAnKVjNF3fSl
「唔該你陪亞基。」我送她出門口。942Please respect copyright.PENANAwIwLih6vkv
942Please respect copyright.PENANARqnwfPP67a
「雖然我唔可以做你女朋友,但你應承我一件事。」在門口,童桐轉身說。942Please respect copyright.PENANAzZKRolcLf6
942Please respect copyright.PENANAgvt6BpEnWV
「係?」反正她說甚麼我也會答應吧,難怪Beta他們說我無可藥救。942Please respect copyright.PENANATTSMEpQDKw
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「唔準再好似個時咁自我封閉,唔準唔理我。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAi9rMmOmP9N
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「我…盡力。」我搔搔頭說。942Please respect copyright.PENANAaVgd7AEFiq
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「盡咩力,應承我呀。」她說。942Please respect copyright.PENANAx2q8B4fl0X
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「好,我應承你。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAHHxsHNnNHr
942Please respect copyright.PENANAg6hm17ZtRJ
「如果你再想咁既,我門都撬爛你架。」童桐以拳掌互擊說,她那裝兇作勢的樣子也很可愛。942Please respect copyright.PENANAOeAC40KBnc
942Please respect copyright.PENANA8RJEFYFWRs
「係~係~」我說,「但係我依加咁樣,完~~全係你搞出黎架喎,然後你仲話要黎爆返我度門轉頭?」942Please respect copyright.PENANA2aUxVN1jaZ
942Please respect copyright.PENANAs036LUQdiK
自以為開玩笑的我,卻無意中刺到了童桐的痛處。942Please respect copyright.PENANAedauM6NrCy
942Please respect copyright.PENANA8WwCApbEZL
「對唔住。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAtjVWeRuLKv
942Please respect copyright.PENANAPmOtuer2g1
童桐先是一楞,然後卻低頭道歉了,如昨晚婚禮上一樣。942Please respect copyright.PENANArEJ6xSAiKo
942Please respect copyright.PENANAjALWLTlbz5
「一晚就好…」童桐牽著我的手握緊了一點。
942Please respect copyright.PENANA943YvYLSYo
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「唔得…唔可以…呀遊,對唔住,對唔住…」
942Please respect copyright.PENANALcxjgDuywy
942Please respect copyright.PENANA74urG3GbNr
「咁惡…嗚嗚…對唔住呀遊…對唔住…」然後童桐又突然哭起來了
942Please respect copyright.PENANA1Q4I6jUQTG
942Please respect copyright.PENANApgAoLWnunp
「對唔住…」她又道歉了,第幾次?
942Please respect copyright.PENANAiOsAkeXI8a
942Please respect copyright.PENANA9pDtUpStcN
原來是這樣嗎,從那時起她就已經下定了決心沒法和我在一起…所以在那一吻後才不斷道歉,而那句「一晚就好」就是指只當我一晚的女朋友。942Please respect copyright.PENANA70We7CG8kE
942Please respect copyright.PENANA53LbbC5aFH
我能不能理解成,她不想在拋花球時眾目睽睽之下拒絕我使我難堪?942Please respect copyright.PENANASbxa1RDWJs
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如果是,她真的是在細心地呵護著我感受。942Please respect copyright.PENANAMg4lO7A0sU
942Please respect copyright.PENANA9b0L3jL8ML
…致命的溫柔,就是這種感覺了。942Please respect copyright.PENANAdYtOb62RFM
942Please respect copyright.PENANAya4CF0NCka
「我…我唔係咁既意思…」我說。942Please respect copyright.PENANAq9OSnGmos7
942Please respect copyright.PENANAfEwgrIvJMU
「信我…無論我應承你,定係好似依加咁拒絕你,你都係會受傷,呀遊。」童桐說,「但我唔想你會討…」942Please respect copyright.PENANAWvMiPFWUdV
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靜。942Please respect copyright.PENANATYFffC5pJ5
942Please respect copyright.PENANA1GJc7U56TD
「…喂下句呢?」942Please respect copyright.PENANALNiZTWf18y
942Please respect copyright.PENANARaHYyT4sV2
「我唔想你會討厭我。」童桐低頭說,「對唔住。」942Please respect copyright.PENANARkStWICDJs
942Please respect copyright.PENANA2zgVIUMKXf
那時我的理解是童桐覺得青梅竹馬的關係會更長久,更穩定。而她是擔心如果我們成為了情侶,那一天萬一鬧翻了分手的話之後餘生我就會徹底討厭她。942Please respect copyright.PENANAB6jb9s1S11
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結果我全錯。942Please respect copyright.PENANAVLi9LqLKBq
942Please respect copyright.PENANAn5XK6jDhAi
還是錯得最離譜的那種。942Please respect copyright.PENANAAT2PVjPvqB
942Please respect copyright.PENANAhYw5s4xO9j
「唔需要道歉,感情呢D野勉強唔黎。」我說,「既然你覺得咁樣會比較舒服既,就保持現況先啦。」942Please respect copyright.PENANA5J8uicz9hE
942Please respect copyright.PENANAAdjFcnWUa0
「你唔好為左我放棄其他女仔。」她說,「如果有機會…記得捉住。」942Please respect copyright.PENANACJhsJSGEOJ
942Please respect copyright.PENANApmKf5pmwbX
「連你都無機會,其他女仔有咩機會。」我苦笑。942Please respect copyright.PENANA3IZAsTFr9c
942Please respect copyright.PENANAa7j3qGQBno
褲袋中的手機震動,是妍妍。942Please respect copyright.PENANAoz02rK9hPM
942Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0U1QhSPHy
「但…」942Please respect copyright.PENANAeGQF0o7Ysl
942Please respect copyright.PENANAJbqbFwkoD0
「而且無人比你完美,比你更加值得我鐘意。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAZxfePnE43U
942Please respect copyright.PENANATCEZo27860
明明是我在讚美童桐,她的表情更加複雜,更加抑鬱。942Please respect copyright.PENANA23KYAy8IfR
942Please respect copyright.PENANAlQoIfPUomB
「我先唔係…」942Please respect copyright.PENANAW9o9mAn9je
942Please respect copyright.PENANAmPp6oL3pUK
「睇黎唔肯接受對方讚自己都係我地共通點之一啊?」942Please respect copyright.PENANAkaYGwYnODc
942Please respect copyright.PENANAprnis8LGr1
童桐終於被我逗笑:「係呀,最衰都係你,教壞晒我。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAoAsLGVk6FA
942Please respect copyright.PENANAeAG81odzLH
我輕撫她的頭髮:「返去休息下啦,頭仲痛唔痛?」942Please respect copyright.PENANAOIFPM3Ptyn
942Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9s5s43DEi
「唔痛喇。」她說,「下次,我都想你幫我吹…乾個頭。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAcECEcpXYj5
942Please respect copyright.PENANAy0sKu7RCUW
「點解?」我不記得自己特別擅長這件事,只有少少心得。942Please respect copyright.PENANAGAXZHHdGw0
942Please respect copyright.PENANAMnxcUn1qIw
「因為…我懶囉~同埋得你先咁縱我。」童桐輕撥自己長至腰間的頭髮說,然後打開自己的家門走進去。942Please respect copyright.PENANAeqy9uoeXhT
942Please respect copyright.PENANAh6sB1mqB89
好,看看妍妍回覆我甚麼…942Please respect copyright.PENANAfz77dZfVvR
942Please respect copyright.PENANA5t26olBTPS
[係海旁,商場個邊]942Please respect copyright.PENANAcADp7XFjJi
[你等我一陣,我就到]942Please respect copyright.PENANAL9okkeuhGI
這兒附近在海旁的商場只有一個。942Please respect copyright.PENANA2hIcCwGO2U
942Please respect copyright.PENANAYPriryEkZH
雖說我與童桐分開後,馬上心中又是一陣沮喪,屋中的寂靜從四方八面撲來,如要把我淹沒掉。942Please respect copyright.PENANA9rCsdeYuRo
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我是怎麼了…942Please respect copyright.PENANA9siGFlfPbZ
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深呼吸,明鏡止水,但自己的呼吸聲也覺得…吵!!死!!了!!942Please respect copyright.PENANATWS79DkPeI
942Please respect copyright.PENANA3VNC2Moj1q
屋中好黑,好黑;942Please respect copyright.PENANA6OTW6unNc7
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耳邊好靜,好靜;942Please respect copyright.PENANAVn2R3Nn7TW
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呼吸好吵,好吵;942Please respect copyright.PENANArrvEQvEFIM
942Please respect copyright.PENANA5lZKektrt6
…但妍妍似乎真的發生了甚麼事,我不能放任她不管。942Please respect copyright.PENANAwrxdU5s84w
942Please respect copyright.PENANA9jjex0RNVE
揉揉臉頰的我勉強掙脫自我崩潰的狀態,扶著牆強行站起來,換過衣服後又再出門,待我到海邊時我一眼就看到了她。942Please respect copyright.PENANAemaHuG2nkM
942Please respect copyright.PENANAknzM1fXBeG
今天她的打扮沒有之前那樣韓系,甚至可以說是沒有打扮,波鞋短牛仔褲T恤,正坐在海傍看著起伏的浪湧發呆。942Please respect copyright.PENANAmi2sDRV2YJ
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「喂你唔好行過去。」一個男人拉住我。942Please respect copyright.PENANAFXR8SEQaJL
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「呀生你邊位…」是個完全不認識的路人。942Please respect copyright.PENANA4yZ9cNnV8k
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「我叫陳立正…唔重要,問題係你行埋去佢跳落去點算!?」他說。942Please respect copyright.PENANAeGKVVU4mq4
942Please respect copyright.PENANAYDwRIO6lAf
這散發著寂寞的背影…的確會令人誤會。942Please respect copyright.PENANA1JFYh4dOaN
942Please respect copyright.PENANApX61QytJp5
「我識佢,放心。」我掙開說,「唔好報警,會搞到仲複雜。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2oZIucfz5
942Please respect copyright.PENANAjNHNwAwKn1
我推開路人,走向妍妍身後。942Please respect copyright.PENANAZMUT9kzWqp
942Please respect copyright.PENANApO21wNwAHa
她看到我在地上滑近的影子,頭也不回地說:「同你個童桐放完狗啦?」942Please respect copyright.PENANAIwww8gnNKb
942Please respect copyright.PENANAVmF8eHXLO7
「咩我個…係就好。不過你再坐呢度就要上電視囉?七點半個節目。」我說,「岩先人地以為你想自殺差D報警。」942Please respect copyright.PENANARhgGOLjTBC
942Please respect copyright.PENANASPjy0pXw1v
「……」迎著風,妍妍的頭髮被吹散,她的臉容好像有憔悴,有點消瘦。942Please respect copyright.PENANAKLpQqxu23f
942Please respect copyright.PENANABXsUPL7NrA
「你無事?上次你話想搵…」942Please respect copyright.PENANAEKWFInhRhj
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「嗯,黑PR。」她輕聲地說,「最後我都搵唔到…不過可能就算我搵到都唔會郁手,我始終係得把口既個種廢人。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAdWY5v9cPmd
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我不知怎樣回應,浪頭拍打在海傍的堤岸,破碎的浪沫幾乎要沾濕妍妍的鞋底,黑影中的她幾乎要與深灰色的海面融為一體。942Please respect copyright.PENANAOUPM6vBtUN
942Please respect copyright.PENANA3woCQ4aaoM
「你呢。」她說,「係我面前唔使扮,睇黎我搵錯人,你根本就無餘力陪我係咪?你自己都搞唔掂,等我仲以為你得左米,個人咁正面可以感染下我。」942Please respect copyright.PENANAtKM7onLJOw
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這麼說,她不開心呢942Please respect copyright.PENANAhaaj0DJplf
942Please respect copyright.PENANADKXOd02Tp1
「嘶」一聲,妍妍打開身邊的一罐啤酒仰頭猛喝。942Please respect copyright.PENANAEfl03EKoj5
942Please respect copyright.PENANAMfOWkkVEEV
「…我…我無咩事啦,童桐話我地仲係青梅竹馬…」我坐到她身邊說,至少要坐到她躍出去的話能一手把她拉回來的距離。942Please respect copyright.PENANAXUPXEqDrbi
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「但你同佢,仲可以同以前一樣咩?」妍妍以眼角瞄向我。942Please respect copyright.PENANADeHjgb3Qg3
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「……」942Please respect copyright.PENANACDouG84lY5
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胸口悶痛到差點暈了一下。942Please respect copyright.PENANAgFJrb7YifQ
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如果說童桐能憑著與我多年的相處默契「讀懂」我的想法,妍妍就是「理解」我的情緒,有點相似但又不盡相同。942Please respect copyright.PENANAKgZbJ9SHSh
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「哼,你個樣就係答案。」妍妍說。942Please respect copyright.PENANAq4AXInzD9O
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「唉。」我拿起一罐啤酒說,「整罐黎?」942Please respect copyright.PENANA1F02WDlvlW
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還未待她回答,我便打開易拉環仰頭就喝。942Please respect copyright.PENANA3LrzZ77WyA
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我和妍妍都不說話,卻有種共鳴感,下肚的冰冷啤酒使胸口的抑悶驅散了些許,即使只有些許,也感覺好了一點點。942Please respect copyright.PENANAuCOb5X764U