童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpB86g4pQ57
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAS4cmd9de
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPbxXJnuf4
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我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGFcv4YCLI
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjo6NzzXTl
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好可愛…962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhY9XSYbNa
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_0814962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVryJT2ip4
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9zS6e2ihO
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoce816luhZ
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOthFjGnJ3q
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「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZRXRPRr7K
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我就不去想像了。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkWHGzTFN4
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「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eiDj8GNxP
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「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uukj75VIF
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「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rza9r2xp9
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「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHTcwC6eR9
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「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIWzlsEpnQ
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「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8aLNmjyfj
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「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT5xVp25m3
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「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87BVKy4tSW
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「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImFxz51C4M
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「嗯…我知道。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP0KdYyfhu
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「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMtDjg0QPW
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接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuhiks23XD
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PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Mx7tNmmu1
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNruED8jjJO
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至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZilvdWNhJ
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFulzDmkV3
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「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEskWrXLHnE
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「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCJROsi6F3
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「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewVALaXEPL
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我愛我媽。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxoG2W4dX9
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「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8gEnKKArk
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我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3C75DLKNi9
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「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz39SCLZF38
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無需任何思考。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJqVmhfp3C
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「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGq48cpnaWY
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我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyizivhAt50
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「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUhkAhXnlF
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已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkchlqyA2CX
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也必須要由我背負。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYCfBby2Vz
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即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQPMNmlmws
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「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDmfWWOv4b
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjMOSThQE4
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「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXyNvh9fg1
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「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcsdYm1HfE
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「……佢真係好可愛。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHIEtjQXu3
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「佢好唔開心。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdich7X8TS
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「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErBfXMbBvc
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她深深地在自責。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMbUYntAy8
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別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGT0y6gHmi
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而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpflLN5l7Ca
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「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOyiP3eUWo
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「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaI8Sr07wK
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「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk1PYQKD0v
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「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNiUowLXHW
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我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LXSIs4D0k
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「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL11iyfyoBC
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「梗係可以。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXeLSGHGah
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「講個秘密你知。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG9itnzCoc
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「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8IvDnOZNa
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「其實我驚狗。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhp95ZoaJZ
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「下？」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKLDXeTO7z
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童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccR9rev0gO
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「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqSITFzvIB
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「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEBsMdLNo9
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「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudTvxPLzwZ
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不過原理應該不一樣。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4hnFgosal
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「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5wNZSiK7f
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「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2g1l1tGHy
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「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ozhkp7VxJ
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「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgdZL0i8Iv
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「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHPdVd3toc
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看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGfQgaF6jp
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童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZQlN8hrjB
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我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheP1THVR1c
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我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmSfwPa1Ws
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「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwXBY5y7f0
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「……」她卻沒有回應。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPvyc7wxOM
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只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAffckmz4l
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這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnN1AcHxaDF
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只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcamIIpOEtr
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALxYv0L6uB
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdpVbpOJsZ
只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeGooXoxny
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepFOvKrG7u
「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89YzbnVduR
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSThnAWi0ma
「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpCGPS8CyT
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIv6uaHcaw
「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsd1D6ewcWB
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc30dmacyUn
「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeGrHkgcnf
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBjSUlYzsf
眼角泛淚。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6HuGpltBw
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHoAZj9THq
「呀遊？」童桐問。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1iqPOW4xL
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYq3ttoNLgo
「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSa9HDqMHp
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW89AkiJ0a9
在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPF8w3EZlO
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KXmGHWxd8
／／還能互安慰962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJ3UfmibIb
不必天氣多清朗962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FqzyEtOnX
狂雨暴雪一起對抗962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PrJsfPeAh
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWOjRVE36w
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEilTUtnrh
962Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQCD5X17YF
床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
ns 15.158.61.23da2
