大概連妍妍也沒有想過訊息發出去後不消一秒我便從升降機中步出,她的樣子明顯有點吃驚,竟然有點可愛的感覺,明明平日不說話時是有點冷漠,給人感覺難以接近的那種美女。838Please respect copyright.PENANA0HU3ptg8Mq
838Please respect copyright.PENANAe7x8P1oFxp
妍妍馬上躍起來轉過身去把略為凌亂的頭髮梳好才回首:「你地…去放狗?」838Please respect copyright.PENANA4DGcN2hQ0L
838Please respect copyright.PENANAqx7yXjxAFO
以往和妍妍相處還不錯的亞基,這次卻藏在童桐身後。838Please respect copyright.PENANAhxIFv8JwKj
838Please respect copyright.PENANAPEphbb2TuA
「嗯,去行下。」我說,「你…黎搵我有事?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAhPfGpXRF7L
838Please respect copyright.PENANAUCDvlv1pFc
妍妍這時卻是看看童桐,然後搖搖頭說:「咁我唔阻你地…呀,係喇,恭喜你地兩個正式係埋一齊。」838Please respect copyright.PENANANEQ5RyaemB
838Please respect copyright.PENANArl8HScBGPu
心中一痛。838Please respect copyright.PENANAB5JqbtCDp4
838Please respect copyright.PENANAwf4jSLmSCp
我聳肩苦笑說:「…其實,最後…我地…無一齊到。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAywAKQdEaFf
838Please respect copyright.PENANAnAClO63KNb
只是區區幾個字,我卻花了好大的氣力才能擠出唇間,而且還是在童桐面前。838Please respect copyright.PENANAlMOuoy4ATJ
838Please respect copyright.PENANAOYJADlsPZL
「嗄?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAGA8uiqEWRS
838Please respect copyright.PENANA2KQlzWxx6Z
我隨便編了幾個理由,反正我被拒絕多後也知道那些套路,甚麼時間不對啦,未準備好啦,未有心理準備啦之類,說著說著我都開始前言不對後語。838Please respect copyright.PENANAh5YWhUj2ii
838Please respect copyright.PENANAiiyLFsKbrS
在說甚麼,這根本無需這樣多的藉口吧。838Please respect copyright.PENANALieOKYzYco
838Please respect copyright.PENANAyUeFJ6POzV
總之就是童桐心中那個唯一的位置,最高,最獨別,最鐘愛的位置輪不到我坐。838Please respect copyright.PENANAvViNR6RTMw
838Please respect copyright.PENANAIjNmVNLFYE
即使其他人可以,就是我不行。838Please respect copyright.PENANAUDzsDlzLVq
838Please respect copyright.PENANAPLuE3kVnAD
「總之…我同呀遊依加只係好好,好好既青梅竹馬。」童桐說。838Please respect copyright.PENANAWneaNaF5Dp
838Please respect copyright.PENANA6jliPfBzDE
「嗯…」我點點頭。838Please respect copyright.PENANA53YXYHZtRp
838Please respect copyright.PENANAhgiNJwM1dy
妍妍雙眼閃過剎那的異樣,有點冷漠,有點氣憤,又有點…憐憫。838Please respect copyright.PENANAH5tkFnUqPZ
838Please respect copyright.PENANAjT2HXyS6yR
…被憐憫了嗎。838Please respect copyright.PENANA8CwabyxQz2
838Please respect copyright.PENANAMCO10al2P1
但馬上她又好像洩氣地嘆了一口氣:「唉,可惜啊,呀遊,我仲睇到情聖D相,以為你成功…咁…我走先啦,唔阻你地,拜拜啦亞基。」838Please respect copyright.PENANA8MdlgvlcPY
838Please respect copyright.PENANAhZE40AaNl3
亞基耳朵抖動一下,沒甚麼反應。838Please respect copyright.PENANAgAoeB3kudH
838Please respect copyright.PENANAFgjZ85O081
我和童桐住這兒是山上的屋宛,路過是說不通的,加上剛剛的訊息,她是有事來找我。838Please respect copyright.PENANAeHDlfWwvgO
838Please respect copyright.PENANAGhjdgfdeh7
但一看到童桐卻放棄了?838Please respect copyright.PENANAem1V49hIU9
838Please respect copyright.PENANAv0kIz126qE
上一次見到妍妍,她情緒相當不穩,還問我有關黑PR,核彈的事;再往過去回溯,無論是玩測謊機那次,水上樂園那次,她也算是一個相當有性格的女生,但是…838Please respect copyright.PENANAS5OoS1lzpG
838Please respect copyright.PENANAbNm9vA9v0Q
…這次她身上散發的氣場改變了。838Please respect copyright.PENANAa9tsl8B34N
838Please respect copyright.PENANA4fv7jRlJWj
我一邊思考著妍妍的舉動,一邊和童桐牽著亞基散步,直到我們在附近繞了一圈後回到樓下的公園。838Please respect copyright.PENANAQVpNIfb1sS
838Please respect copyright.PENANAIvkZf0kJg3
「去搵佢啦。」童桐突然說。838Please respect copyright.PENANA18B5tujHYM
838Please respect copyright.PENANAYUMi6NW7mS
「嗄?」我吃驚地問,「搵…搵邊個…」838Please respect copyright.PENANAxRD52ssI3t
838Please respect copyright.PENANA1FvgPxMRe1
「由頭先起你就心不在焉,擔心緊妍妍係唔係?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAsX1lS0EayB
838Please respect copyright.PENANA0lGGuOFUUs
所以有時童桐連我心思也能讀懂的這點也叫我相當頭痛。838Please respect copyright.PENANADyP9HkG7kI
838Please respect copyright.PENANALqP3Ooih5l
「我同埋你返上去先。」但我拒絕。838Please respect copyright.PENANAovmr4zEI04
838Please respect copyright.PENANAgY1KbBisXh
童桐也沒說甚麼,只是微微一笑。838Please respect copyright.PENANApfceSw6MuE
838Please respect copyright.PENANA5u8nDp5qgq
[你依加係邊,我等陣過黎搵你]進升降機前我先發出訊息。838Please respect copyright.PENANA4ollhEHJht
838Please respect copyright.PENANABvLxoVWviC
回到家後,童桐解開亞基的狗繩後牠馬上跑向水兜喝水,把狗繩其他工具放回原位後童桐道:「咁…我返去啦?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAL1y9AdmPni
838Please respect copyright.PENANAf0UidKoNMi
氣氛有點詭異。838Please respect copyright.PENANAWsAuNEQvny
838Please respect copyright.PENANAqdDMqsFKK1
我就說了,我與童桐根本不能回到和以前一樣。838Please respect copyright.PENANAHq6lJjMdLr
838Please respect copyright.PENANAvM4oN3oHAe
過去之所以是過去,正因已經過去。838Please respect copyright.PENANAx9FoApGL9f
838Please respect copyright.PENANA21Xgf9ZE20
所以,昨天那一吻,昨天那一晚,不能改變。838Please respect copyright.PENANAG89zqoF8ym
838Please respect copyright.PENANAbesOIjpC9e
「唔該你陪亞基。」我送她出門口。838Please respect copyright.PENANALJcEJixQln
838Please respect copyright.PENANAyJ9LWcjnLL
「雖然我唔可以做你女朋友,但你應承我一件事。」在門口,童桐轉身說。838Please respect copyright.PENANAQd54bRhRKr
838Please respect copyright.PENANAcoGKFWAUNG
「係?」反正她說甚麼我也會答應吧,難怪Beta他們說我無可藥救。838Please respect copyright.PENANAcy7riyB28I
838Please respect copyright.PENANApXLR8SoH0N
「唔準再好似個時咁自我封閉,唔準唔理我。」838Please respect copyright.PENANADDMCwJ6aDm
838Please respect copyright.PENANAsBbImnwTXK
「我…盡力。」我搔搔頭說。838Please respect copyright.PENANAnDM9MivMP3
838Please respect copyright.PENANADQoap0Yuux
「盡咩力,應承我呀。」她說。838Please respect copyright.PENANAvuzPUYvvum
838Please respect copyright.PENANA1nceFKOP7E
「好,我應承你。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAOP9DSpSKgr
838Please respect copyright.PENANAapzkjflgjM
「如果你再想咁既,我門都撬爛你架。」童桐以拳掌互擊說,她那裝兇作勢的樣子也很可愛。838Please respect copyright.PENANA3PR38PnBhe
838Please respect copyright.PENANA9ifzKoQJlj
「係~係~」我說,「但係我依加咁樣,完~~全係你搞出黎架喎,然後你仲話要黎爆返我度門轉頭?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAGmJkVzlp4q
838Please respect copyright.PENANAUTxTrXgCVA
自以為開玩笑的我,卻無意中刺到了童桐的痛處。838Please respect copyright.PENANA71WVYgQfDp
838Please respect copyright.PENANAK6g3PEqNWG
「對唔住。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAqjxn2NJcjr
838Please respect copyright.PENANA109mmmYwii
童桐先是一楞,然後卻低頭道歉了,如昨晚婚禮上一樣。838Please respect copyright.PENANASiZe5ZJDDO
838Please respect copyright.PENANAI1puQGejsO
「一晚就好…」童桐牽著我的手握緊了一點。
838Please respect copyright.PENANAaq5yIjYrGY
838Please respect copyright.PENANAF1CULTuP0H
「唔得…唔可以…呀遊,對唔住,對唔住…」
838Please respect copyright.PENANAQIqIHbJoJw
838Please respect copyright.PENANAX4zn92yhDC
「咁惡…嗚嗚…對唔住呀遊…對唔住…」然後童桐又突然哭起來了
838Please respect copyright.PENANAKC6OdKdDTx
838Please respect copyright.PENANAnd9DdE0wQL
「對唔住…」她又道歉了,第幾次?
838Please respect copyright.PENANAD18ye2MAdo
838Please respect copyright.PENANABJ9tNAHo4W
原來是這樣嗎,從那時起她就已經下定了決心沒法和我在一起…所以在那一吻後才不斷道歉,而那句「一晚就好」就是指只當我一晚的女朋友。838Please respect copyright.PENANAErnGlk7D1Q
838Please respect copyright.PENANAhsPAgH8tIl
我能不能理解成,她不想在拋花球時眾目睽睽之下拒絕我使我難堪?838Please respect copyright.PENANAtdI9PiHPCN
838Please respect copyright.PENANAoA67Pxqswj
如果是,她真的是在細心地呵護著我感受。838Please respect copyright.PENANAggEnBKoxWw
838Please respect copyright.PENANA7yEfsc06AE
…致命的溫柔,就是這種感覺了。838Please respect copyright.PENANAoDnnTgD1Pm
838Please respect copyright.PENANAC1SDAwBQ0r
「我…我唔係咁既意思…」我說。838Please respect copyright.PENANAqYSiZxhL6q
838Please respect copyright.PENANAQNmmBxuuFz
「信我…無論我應承你,定係好似依加咁拒絕你,你都係會受傷,呀遊。」童桐說,「但我唔想你會討…」838Please respect copyright.PENANAdO3gkNanSx
838Please respect copyright.PENANAZyu5c7N8OQ
靜。838Please respect copyright.PENANAWV1pII5P4A
838Please respect copyright.PENANADcomZ80Zun
「…喂下句呢?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAhi0SZ68IBN
838Please respect copyright.PENANAEj3CQzNBOU
「我唔想你會討厭我。」童桐低頭說,「對唔住。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAiiKcTXSL2M
838Please respect copyright.PENANAdXpfehbcsQ
那時我的理解是童桐覺得青梅竹馬的關係會更長久,更穩定。而她是擔心如果我們成為了情侶,那一天萬一鬧翻了分手的話之後餘生我就會徹底討厭她。838Please respect copyright.PENANAvbn3QTmPNg
838Please respect copyright.PENANAWSp0HCwQQl
結果我全錯。838Please respect copyright.PENANAfE6f384jkZ
838Please respect copyright.PENANAQwMwYp9KeY
還是錯得最離譜的那種。838Please respect copyright.PENANAuFKG7Dbtmg
838Please respect copyright.PENANAW2j0IArc2K
「唔需要道歉,感情呢D野勉強唔黎。」我說,「既然你覺得咁樣會比較舒服既,就保持現況先啦。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAamgbhRiUB5
838Please respect copyright.PENANA9vL9qDv1FU
「你唔好為左我放棄其他女仔。」她說,「如果有機會…記得捉住。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAW0FRGnlgxT
838Please respect copyright.PENANAH53wxPeQ74
「連你都無機會,其他女仔有咩機會。」我苦笑。838Please respect copyright.PENANAwK5y3xWcYo
838Please respect copyright.PENANAGUtc05HyH9
褲袋中的手機震動,是妍妍。838Please respect copyright.PENANAtbbJbdQAMR
838Please respect copyright.PENANA9CeLdcHmMg
「但…」838Please respect copyright.PENANAc8RDsM9UOh
838Please respect copyright.PENANANn02eaHJU9
「而且無人比你完美,比你更加值得我鐘意。」838Please respect copyright.PENANANks9ylNufA
838Please respect copyright.PENANANp8o5eAsKH
明明是我在讚美童桐,她的表情更加複雜,更加抑鬱。838Please respect copyright.PENANAsRX7veiE8u
838Please respect copyright.PENANArrqZj7P55y
「我先唔係…」838Please respect copyright.PENANAWGL2I7XDAu
838Please respect copyright.PENANA8KwhyxCtOf
「睇黎唔肯接受對方讚自己都係我地共通點之一啊?」838Please respect copyright.PENANArWmhopT8fA
838Please respect copyright.PENANAadgzxoW2o2
童桐終於被我逗笑:「係呀,最衰都係你,教壞晒我。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAY0GGjY45Dt
838Please respect copyright.PENANAR0fucdq3lc
我輕撫她的頭髮:「返去休息下啦,頭仲痛唔痛?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAANOl9FBX2d
838Please respect copyright.PENANAzWkdsrlTI1
「唔痛喇。」她說,「下次,我都想你幫我吹…乾個頭。」838Please respect copyright.PENANA8bKv4fzvlS
838Please respect copyright.PENANAZfa0jtkGcl
「點解?」我不記得自己特別擅長這件事,只有少少心得。838Please respect copyright.PENANA9oZ89e4yFk
838Please respect copyright.PENANAUBRkd8LpgA
「因為…我懶囉~同埋得你先咁縱我。」童桐輕撥自己長至腰間的頭髮說,然後打開自己的家門走進去。838Please respect copyright.PENANA4qv50byyMZ
838Please respect copyright.PENANAaH8jLctol2
好,看看妍妍回覆我甚麼…838Please respect copyright.PENANAHubc8rLf4R
838Please respect copyright.PENANA9Y3IDEyLJB
[係海旁,商場個邊]838Please respect copyright.PENANAcwVPOF4Tzy
[你等我一陣,我就到]838Please respect copyright.PENANANpLR9aJOfX
這兒附近在海旁的商場只有一個。838Please respect copyright.PENANA4biXj69X9k
838Please respect copyright.PENANA7UdWM9vSrS
雖說我與童桐分開後,馬上心中又是一陣沮喪,屋中的寂靜從四方八面撲來,如要把我淹沒掉。838Please respect copyright.PENANAg6RmPj4mR3
838Please respect copyright.PENANAp34rZAFvH8
我是怎麼了…838Please respect copyright.PENANACarZW5nfnp
838Please respect copyright.PENANAL9wMrXQujF
深呼吸,明鏡止水,但自己的呼吸聲也覺得…吵!!死!!了!!838Please respect copyright.PENANA0GyDvaeC5f
838Please respect copyright.PENANA892JFS0Wbj
屋中好黑,好黑;838Please respect copyright.PENANAVRHm6ZOrUE
838Please respect copyright.PENANAWUm9NcH0HO
耳邊好靜,好靜;838Please respect copyright.PENANA2XZTr3hiGN
838Please respect copyright.PENANALJLlxOCwXi
呼吸好吵,好吵;838Please respect copyright.PENANAbAlRyxYzjq
838Please respect copyright.PENANAAg5XGkWPGv
…但妍妍似乎真的發生了甚麼事,我不能放任她不管。838Please respect copyright.PENANA83wUmwwdXB
838Please respect copyright.PENANAdKtmWyj6p7
揉揉臉頰的我勉強掙脫自我崩潰的狀態,扶著牆強行站起來,換過衣服後又再出門,待我到海邊時我一眼就看到了她。838Please respect copyright.PENANAC7K3UMTfnn
838Please respect copyright.PENANAjqoR4atcwa
今天她的打扮沒有之前那樣韓系,甚至可以說是沒有打扮,波鞋短牛仔褲T恤,正坐在海傍看著起伏的浪湧發呆。838Please respect copyright.PENANA7TeTMTBmmA
838Please respect copyright.PENANAhvC3CDzfJf
「喂你唔好行過去。」一個男人拉住我。838Please respect copyright.PENANA7A8dftZIRs
838Please respect copyright.PENANAkHh1lJeHXb
「呀生你邊位…」是個完全不認識的路人。838Please respect copyright.PENANAmB3xlVEAw0
838Please respect copyright.PENANAmcduaRCitd
「我叫陳立正…唔重要,問題係你行埋去佢跳落去點算!?」他說。838Please respect copyright.PENANAIAhHbKtHKX
838Please respect copyright.PENANAdq0ZBdk4QE
這散發著寂寞的背影…的確會令人誤會。838Please respect copyright.PENANAIaxhq1C37N
838Please respect copyright.PENANAa5a95DEU3J
「我識佢,放心。」我掙開說,「唔好報警,會搞到仲複雜。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAY3DMY7t7pG
838Please respect copyright.PENANAZTtcpJnL6c
我推開路人,走向妍妍身後。838Please respect copyright.PENANApS3GCHPnjr
838Please respect copyright.PENANAcXVi2ugwEh
她看到我在地上滑近的影子,頭也不回地說:「同你個童桐放完狗啦?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAKZCV5LdLgT
838Please respect copyright.PENANA238QjLxRej
「咩我個…係就好。不過你再坐呢度就要上電視囉?七點半個節目。」我說,「岩先人地以為你想自殺差D報警。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAGgcBm1H10B
838Please respect copyright.PENANABP87YTMjgx
「……」迎著風,妍妍的頭髮被吹散,她的臉容好像有憔悴,有點消瘦。838Please respect copyright.PENANAsQA0rY7p6e
838Please respect copyright.PENANA48YN6xeFos
「你無事?上次你話想搵…」838Please respect copyright.PENANARCyaY4DNVM
838Please respect copyright.PENANAmTTRUAwjqs
「嗯,黑PR。」她輕聲地說,「最後我都搵唔到…不過可能就算我搵到都唔會郁手,我始終係得把口既個種廢人。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAzWqfGMUGx7
838Please respect copyright.PENANAtEUzLNMr3O
我不知怎樣回應,浪頭拍打在海傍的堤岸,破碎的浪沫幾乎要沾濕妍妍的鞋底,黑影中的她幾乎要與深灰色的海面融為一體。838Please respect copyright.PENANAVeeot1tvPq
838Please respect copyright.PENANAuR4lQILDji
「你呢。」她說,「係我面前唔使扮,睇黎我搵錯人,你根本就無餘力陪我係咪?你自己都搞唔掂,等我仲以為你得左米,個人咁正面可以感染下我。」838Please respect copyright.PENANAiKB4ev2Q3j
838Please respect copyright.PENANAIwmP5WDCQZ
這麼說,她不開心呢838Please respect copyright.PENANACjll2S5nIM
838Please respect copyright.PENANAghUrVa8QAw
「嘶」一聲,妍妍打開身邊的一罐啤酒仰頭猛喝。838Please respect copyright.PENANAUIGyho7u6v
838Please respect copyright.PENANAJybAcPmaGt
「…我…我無咩事啦,童桐話我地仲係青梅竹馬…」我坐到她身邊說,至少要坐到她躍出去的話能一手把她拉回來的距離。838Please respect copyright.PENANAIoeA7Zt4qh
838Please respect copyright.PENANAJOz4pPcjHn
「但你同佢,仲可以同以前一樣咩?」妍妍以眼角瞄向我。838Please respect copyright.PENANAlG7RfRLd80
838Please respect copyright.PENANAOLJcr01jGL
「……」838Please respect copyright.PENANAY3qk4fIQEL
838Please respect copyright.PENANAgCoYXRDrdf
胸口悶痛到差點暈了一下。838Please respect copyright.PENANAvVEFVAuZg2
838Please respect copyright.PENANA9Y9z2Nw5Xj
如果說童桐能憑著與我多年的相處默契「讀懂」我的想法,妍妍就是「理解」我的情緒,有點相似但又不盡相同。838Please respect copyright.PENANAeHNaVtcFhT
838Please respect copyright.PENANAXE1G3YXCTd
「哼,你個樣就係答案。」妍妍說。838Please respect copyright.PENANACe3CCkjti0
838Please respect copyright.PENANAz7FFmDHFYs
「唉。」我拿起一罐啤酒說,「整罐黎?」838Please respect copyright.PENANAudKul1ynV0
838Please respect copyright.PENANAZM2ukqMM50
還未待她回答,我便打開易拉環仰頭就喝。838Please respect copyright.PENANAhjoq45c9Qx
838Please respect copyright.PENANAJIKBkzjFwC
「……」838Please respect copyright.PENANASMfKnmisdh
838Please respect copyright.PENANALrq7Yb9aFF
「……」838Please respect copyright.PENANAzPbmiBSoaL
838Please respect copyright.PENANAT8GxO8esU9
我和妍妍都不說話,卻有種共鳴感,下肚的冰冷啤酒使胸口的抑悶驅散了些許,即使只有些許,也感覺好了一點點。838Please respect copyright.PENANA8gAQw8XtBe