我知道妍妍企圖自我犧牲的心意,卻是愛莫難助。948Please respect copyright.PENANAuBPBpwPfFB
948Please respect copyright.PENANAs4Q3fOHtBD
她已為我指明了道路,她已說了不用理會她,她已叫我繼續前進,即使我多想也好,我也沒可能留下來陪她,騙她,騙童桐,更騙我自己。948Please respect copyright.PENANABSwwlyO3lT
948Please respect copyright.PENANA8nUBa6bcLe
即使我勉強和她在一起,她也受不了我心中記掛著童桐。948Please respect copyright.PENANAjaxm3WaQ5k
948Please respect copyright.PENANA6nYoqFX5lC
即使我勉強和她在一起,我也受不了我還在心中記掛著童桐。948Please respect copyright.PENANAN2Ede3DJEE
948Please respect copyright.PENANALYzSsOay3G
只能說—948Please respect copyright.PENANANCWU4kaCAo
948Please respect copyright.PENANAMu5x3z6fYP
—世上也許沒有所有人都能幸福的結局。948Please respect copyright.PENANAUoWcXyJf1E
948Please respect copyright.PENANAJSAwDWQ8kk
「咁我地以後…」948Please respect copyright.PENANAi0QeqUAYdH
948Please respect copyright.PENANARQYtndKEVK
妍妍落寂地說:「你可以俾返錢我,當我地就只係金錢交易,同之前其他人一樣,咁樣會唔會易處理D?咁樣就…」948Please respect copyright.PENANAxHmGz51tEK
948Please respect copyright.PENANAwbKv0m4DZI
「我做唔到。」我斷然拒絕,這不是錢的問題,「你當我係咩人?你又當自己係咩人?」948Please respect copyright.PENANAYPEPD1yBm7
948Please respect copyright.PENANAMdZQJVh1it
「…呢種時候你先咁型…」948Please respect copyright.PENANAvfVZ8CiYxN
948Please respect copyright.PENANA9A8hYk2EMe
妍妍先是一楞,然後欣慰地一笑。948Please respect copyright.PENANA0w4g8TM3aF
948Please respect copyright.PENANALWANethTpf
甚至還有點喜極而泣。948Please respect copyright.PENANAXr8xkazC5T
948Please respect copyright.PENANAzx7zoD1Q13
然後她說:「咁係你搵到答案前,我地就當尋晚無事發生過…」948Please respect copyright.PENANAojkSVcbQYQ
948Please respect copyright.PENANAVyHzuIS6Pn
「都做唔到。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAxKykKgwyTE
948Please respect copyright.PENANADlqrwGLksq
「嗄?」她似乎有點不解。948Please respect copyright.PENANAdDbv1pTVm1
948Please respect copyright.PENANA5eJot7MVvk
「答案係咩都好,過去之所以係過去,正因改變唔到,我唔會當咩事都無發生過。答案係咩都好,你都係我人生中最初…最重要既女仔,連童桐永遠都佔唔到你位置。」我擁她入懷,「甄姿妍,你既名就由我馬川遊永遠記住。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAhdPRrLM5zp
948Please respect copyright.PENANA3mPUv89Opd
還記得,妍妍昨晚說過寧願她的前度恨她一世。948Please respect copyright.PENANAUZzAAneErG
948Please respect copyright.PENANAzY3vRPbilf
她大概很想在某人的人生佔上一個重要的席位吧,她那個寧願被人記恨也想被記住的樣子,老實說更像是在乞求。948Please respect copyright.PENANAfpsJBpn81t
948Please respect copyright.PENANAZT4JBSUsg7
我不想她這樣。948Please respect copyright.PENANAIb6qtndjQr
948Please respect copyright.PENANAdOpOReVeb6
把我擁住的妍妍眼眶卻湧出淚水,她先是全身打個哆嗦,然後才說:「你,真係好過份,都話咁樣落去,我真係會鐘意你,到時點算?你,係你話架!馬川遊,你自己話架!」948Please respect copyright.PENANAH6OBB8o3N4
948Please respect copyright.PENANA7LdfIAc6C0
「嗯,我應承你。」我笑著輕撫懷中她的頭額,撥開瀏海輕吻她額頭。948Please respect copyright.PENANAoznZOwggHW
948Please respect copyright.PENANAv0iYB5cpvv
「嗚嗚…嗚嗚…」948Please respect copyright.PENANAceTKcHk3ti
948Please respect copyright.PENANAedgzke01ro
我全身感到妍妍的肌膚,痛哭著的她回擁緊緊地環抱著我,猶如遇溺之人終於捉到了水面上的救生圈一樣,再不會放開手中的一線生機。948Please respect copyright.PENANAnzS18Ei5zP
948Please respect copyright.PENANAlRfEzaVNuK
抱歉,妍妍,這是現階段我只能辦到的事。948Please respect copyright.PENANAGpQ3wF5Pfc
948Please respect copyright.PENANAblHGszlmTW
我和妍妍家一直陪著她,直到傍晚她笑著說真的不用,並再三保證會照顧好自己後我才離去。948Please respect copyright.PENANArbIdlBHC2L
948Please respect copyright.PENANActTsoaikji
在那走廊之中,我還站了幾秒確保聽不到哭聲之類才離去,可見我有多心虛,多內疚。948Please respect copyright.PENANAsxQqRe0Jny
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幾乎一天沒回家,我才一步出升降機便聽到亞基在抓門,一打開門牠更是直撲我臉上舔得我一臉口水。但馬上亞基停下了動作,皺起鼻子在我身上胯下左聞聞右聞聞,然後轉身跑開還一臉鄙視。948Please respect copyright.PENANAVbppvU1QXx
948Please respect copyright.PENANAX4Q1viWfgL
亞基似乎是童桐派的。948Please respect copyright.PENANAIlvOebDGGn
948Please respect copyright.PENANARbLKnp3pii
有我媽照顧牠當然沒有餓沒有渴,狗零食還少了幾條,似乎有人襯我不在時和牠吃了一頓放題。948Please respect copyright.PENANAjwSoIXium9
948Please respect copyright.PENANAZPXf1Zt4Ib
「連你都咁啊。」我向亞基說。948Please respect copyright.PENANAaSdqTFl6Hn
948Please respect copyright.PENANAAr9v9GkqTi
亞基只是抖抖耳朵,連頭也不回,再以極侮辱的方式打了個噴嚏才鑽回狗窩中睡覺,還用屁股對著我。948Please respect copyright.PENANAJtSUcgbf17
948Please respect copyright.PENANAwP5lhM47RL
我苦笑一下,才走往浴室洗澡換衣服再出去找Beta。948Please respect copyright.PENANAIZszGjVbyc
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但是在出門前。948Please respect copyright.PENANAnGsLHJIZqR
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「喂,呀遊。」948Please respect copyright.PENANA6flwjr8u8L
948Please respect copyright.PENANAD9Dbl9wb6L
回首一看,童桐的家門打開,她正站在那兒叫住了我。948Please respect copyright.PENANAcr3cVLgT6s
948Please respect copyright.PENANAd2M2LMw2mw
糟了,我還沒回她訊息!948Please respect copyright.PENANARrlAQUgok0
948Please respect copyright.PENANAVQsL2q0p5o
「尋晚,你無事呀嘛?」她雙眼有點紅脹的樣子,「你知唔知我差D報警?」948Please respect copyright.PENANAwXFCZFaLk0
948Please respect copyright.PENANASeeiJrkT9W
「…對唔住…」948Please respect copyright.PENANAMYM8wh7uVh
948Please respect copyright.PENANABqBKHBXoGl
「知唔知我會擔心你?」948Please respect copyright.PENANAjV6R8QyGfl
948Please respect copyright.PENANAB7w6WYskOj
突然間,我覺得我眼中的童桐好像有點不同了。948Please respect copyright.PENANANgz6FLfmpR
948Please respect copyright.PENANAJLxqFOvZza
當然不是說外表打扮不同,她還是這樣可愛,這樣動人,身上穿著鬆身T恤和短褲,但是…948Please respect copyright.PENANAnGlRXprfyv
948Please respect copyright.PENANADmhdwAQX82
失去了那種,我不知怎樣形容的神聖感。948Please respect copyright.PENANAMx2xyT2dJ5
948Please respect copyright.PENANAUd8WcvFe9c
感覺就像小時候看到人家手中拿著的Iphone,感覺是人類睿智結晶,劃時代的神造聖物,神聖不可侵犯一樣;後來普及了,連我也有了後,那蘋果標誌就只是一個很有設計感的標誌一樣。948Please respect copyright.PENANAG3yscQyWRy
948Please respect copyright.PENANAsQbd0XvhEI
那種同一件事,價值卻不同了的感覺。948Please respect copyright.PENANAqgj5mRhaXM
948Please respect copyright.PENANASaeopRocXr
「…做咩發晒呆?你唔舒服?」童桐向過來。948Please respect copyright.PENANAMK44jtWNua
948Please respect copyright.PENANAlN0FgwDm85
「無事,我只係…未食飯,我約左Beta佢地食,放心。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAVgr8cV1XqH
948Please respect copyright.PENANANkfbmVDRFW
「真係無事?」948Please respect copyright.PENANAzGcsQcEuhv
948Please respect copyright.PENANAoPFEmyhgWi
「嗯,亞基…你幫手餵既?」948Please respect copyright.PENANAQvrBFRB5bZ
948Please respect copyright.PENANAmpTyPcnrwX
「無呀,姨姨餵既,我帶左佢落街散步。」童桐說。948Please respect copyright.PENANAydtQZ2BnUz
948Please respect copyright.PENANASX7BXYDHIz
「哦,唔該你。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAIebzgwpd8h
948Please respect copyright.PENANA3i8GMjhDfG
「…你…會唔會同我講你成晚去左邊?」她小心翼翼地問。948Please respect copyright.PENANAT4sBQToc82
948Please respect copyright.PENANAmGjTvrq9lG
「唔會。」我說。948Please respect copyright.PENANA5NDO0T1ymA
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童桐馬上一臉失望。948Please respect copyright.PENANAlTAW4tuKYr
948Please respect copyright.PENANAmwgbhGHz4h
但還好我也了解她,早就料到她會這樣問:「我唔會將你同我傾既野四圍講,同樣地…妍妍同我講既野,我都唔會同第三者講。」948Please respect copyright.PENANA1OluJ4uhYx
948Please respect copyright.PENANABJYPPHNOr0
「…你都講得岩既。」童桐明顯接受了這解釋,但還是顯得有點失望。948Please respect copyright.PENANApfsVymQGDy
948Please respect copyright.PENANAq9ZqWtR1z2
不只你能有自己的秘密吧,童桐。948Please respect copyright.PENANAypDrZz3gNH
948Please respect copyright.PENANAfl88hBUP9p
「咁…我出去喇?」我指指已打開的升降機門。948Please respect copyright.PENANAiFnKOYU28B
948Please respect copyright.PENANAhh6scYrCZD
「拜拜。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAUyr7NPxSeb
948Please respect copyright.PENANAur5dP4UT6H
升降機的門關上,她消失在鐵門的另一端。948Please respect copyright.PENANAcjTJE9t2Yi
948Please respect copyright.PENANASnUAoFFrFV
「呼~」在升降機中我舒了一口氣,很久沒有對著童桐這樣緊張了。948Please respect copyright.PENANAjChvUliaqF
948Please respect copyright.PENANAqybJP8u62P
但那種光環褪去的感覺…有點玄妙,我不肯定自己喜不喜歡。948Please respect copyright.PENANAXbKwOYleq3
948Please respect copyright.PENANAbKCKYJetha
沒法回到和以前一樣,妍妍說的就是這種感覺嗎?948Please respect copyright.PENANAGgDdB38Wrl
948Please respect copyright.PENANAGJYO7ltUgK
還是說…948Please respect copyright.PENANAyjT9nt5KUY
948Please respect copyright.PENANAfUH77XVw5j
我說我約了Beta吃飯的事當然也是騙童桐的,他只會吃外賣,那天他到我家開會已經是破天荒,出現在情聖的婚禮更加已經可以視為那些百年一遇千年一遇的天文奇觀。948Please respect copyright.PENANAvK9jMOGe0W
948Please respect copyright.PENANAAZ1VbuZdqs
唉又騙她了,我卻沒有感到內疚,是因為我本來已經夠內疚了嗎?948Please respect copyright.PENANAlNxlFAac96
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我不知道。948Please respect copyright.PENANADlCCdc3bu4
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現在我根本不知自己想怎樣。948Please respect copyright.PENANA5n7wNR2u4E
948Please respect copyright.PENANA0Cjkh3Ua36
到附近快餐店吃了個焗飯後我才上去網吧,因為情聖正在渡蜜月,我又去了Beta的包廂之中。948Please respect copyright.PENANAXwbPPumXGz
948Please respect copyright.PENANASLcwBay2bu
「黑色警告,唔怪得個樣死老豆咁。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAvy54ZMj588
948Please respect copyright.PENANAGCpHgnN13e
我們那時公會中把公會中的情況分成黃色,紅色,黑色的程度,我就直說了,這是抄襲暴雨警告訊號的,總之就是在群組內使其他人一眼明白嚴重程度的指標。948Please respect copyright.PENANAdZppMFv5W3
948Please respect copyright.PENANAgbSzhZ2eKE
「嗯。」我有氣無力地說。948Please respect copyright.PENANAgF0EUqXkfq
948Please respect copyright.PENANAhDORcvN7y8
「入黎喇。」他拉開門。948Please respect copyright.PENANARZgnOpXhCx
948Please respect copyright.PENANA8zqwg3AJKE
「童桐無同你係埋一齊係唔係?」948Please respect copyright.PENANAozxtydQyRV
948Please respect copyright.PENANAbQDc3OB7Dh
「係…咦,你點知的?」我有點錯愕,這也太料事如神了吧。948Please respect copyright.PENANAqcXBHe3WEg
948Please respect copyright.PENANA2MH8B56DGG
「不出所料啊。」他說,這樣子也不像甚麼猜中,而是他的推理之類?948Please respect copyright.PENANA8rwydA1jIo
948Please respect copyright.PENANAGn2hYO2iK0
「你…」948Please respect copyright.PENANA9D7173BX15
948Please respect copyright.PENANAPhOjGPghz3
「我知你想問咩,總之…由頭講起喇。」Beta在桌下的迷你雪櫃掏出一罐梳打水拉開易拉環推到我面前,「講晒出黎,不但你C伏啲,我先至幫到你諗計。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAhbkFnkun1Y
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不對,人還未齊啊。948Please respect copyright.PENANA5noJAq8v2Z
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「情聖呢?未Online?」我問。948Please respect copyright.PENANAAszLO1uDoe
948Please respect copyright.PENANAGse5u3dOkG
「佢唔會ON。」948Please respect copyright.PENANA68uDwgcvSE
948Please respect copyright.PENANAL8y4RSpIUM
「加拿大個邊應該係朝早十點左右,應該去左床…」948Please respect copyright.PENANAjlsldxuzo0
948Please respect copyright.PENANAIjmTxSh7jb
「係我叫佢唔使ON。」948Please respect copyright.PENANA0OfQi9UxFZ
948Please respect copyright.PENANAQoZTHiBfio
「嗄?點解?」948Please respect copyright.PENANAT2eNSxVWZh
948Please respect copyright.PENANAFD0QVwu72o
「…相信我,我有我既考慮。」Beta說,「今晚我都有事要同你商量,而你…唔會想情聖係度。」948Please respect copyright.PENANASWTvJtvsOv
948Please respect copyright.PENANA9PqGH7yzWy
他不是說「他不想情聖在」。948Please respect copyright.PENANAEJIQD6UCpI
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他是說「到時我不會希望情聖在」。948Please respect copyright.PENANAekWyidEo3g
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差之毫釐,謬之千里。948Please respect copyright.PENANAPyI9skDHMM
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我把我和童桐,我和妍妍之間的事說了一遍,花了的時間比想像中更長,因為中間除了發生的事實外我還更了一堆其實不是必要的心理描述和掙扎。948Please respect copyright.PENANAmabUVVuHuu
948Please respect copyright.PENANAhSbB8R9QOx
Beta聽畢後第一句是:「呢個妍妍唔簡單。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAtVBYMcPPgh
948Please respect copyright.PENANA2WGHZTDtlD
「嗄?」948Please respect copyright.PENANANbAFoTIqQz
948Please respect copyright.PENANA7wjAdyvpMB
「唔好誤會,佢應該無呃你無陰你,只係佢既推理同我既人際演算法得出幾乎相同既結果。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAJwoIXhSYDw
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甚麼演算法。948Please respect copyright.PENANAmsIztNNZ2D
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Beta語重深長的說:「不過始終我勝佢一籌。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAQjvq0vkpSq
948Please respect copyright.PENANAGtYOpa4UtP
「…勝咩一籌。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAKjsoWkFwsE
948Please respect copyright.PENANAVQYPjOm7hP
「我有答案。」948Please respect copyright.PENANAZDt1ENyw7V
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我心中一沉。948Please respect copyright.PENANA7IFkziUXpJ
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「我早就知道童桐唔會同你係一齊,而佢係有原因,黎到呢度妍妍既推理同我既人際演算法仲相同。」Beta說,「差別在於…我可能知道原因,亦即係你同妍妍口中的答案。」948Please respect copyright.PENANA8wPYhRC0ls
948Please respect copyright.PENANARf8cek8u55
「係咩?」我覺得自己在情聖,在Beta,在妍妍,在岑大師,在我媽面前,甚至是在童桐面前,也笨得像個白痴一樣。948Please respect copyright.PENANAGH0LnoT8Hn
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而且剛剛Beta說我不會喜歡情聖連線連過來,恐怕就是因為這件事了。948Please respect copyright.PENANAmtYq6c8l36
948Please respect copyright.PENANAKem0sIVVJk
「但你肯定要由我黎講?」Beta反問。948Please respect copyright.PENANAlQocVJVUlT
948Please respect copyright.PENANATkkIlUxNpj
「下?唔係點…」948Please respect copyright.PENANAEdI9FBGqTg
948Please respect copyright.PENANAqm5unc4rmR
「呢個答案其實應該由你親自問童桐,由佢講俾你知。」Beta說,「就好似之前個條女咁,情聖都識話起佢IG出黎add係無意思,要自己鼓起勇氣問,如果連拎個IG都唔敢就算起出黎點…」948Please respect copyright.PENANADjlp2mfXs7
948Please respect copyright.PENANA2jat5h3GAB
「咪煩喇,快D講!」我撥撥面門,好似要揮開Beta的嘮叨一樣。948Please respect copyright.PENANACxp3TMWMnj
948Please respect copyright.PENANAyp9msXvlDR
「即使真相你好有可能接受唔到?」948Please respect copyright.PENANAEAibOy08Zw
948Please respect copyright.PENANAgmUZ1YCe59
「童桐無野係我唔會接受到!」948Please respect copyright.PENANAtszUd8SzSk
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印象中我好像不是第一次說這種對白,但是這一次我竟然感到心底升起的了一絲的不安,一絲的膽怯。948Please respect copyright.PENANA8fQ4hqTdlT
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在無意間達成共識的人,是Beta和妍妍。948Please respect copyright.PENANAGEIZfyKfHV
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而始終一意孤行的人,是我。948Please respect copyright.PENANAXe3DjpTwrS
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通常在情況下錯人都是…948Please respect copyright.PENANA0O9yZiilAx
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