童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbglwkHzMZU
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtGiGoAaev
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoqW8Wgd9s
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我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zQl46fhat
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZGAx3qW9a
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好可愛…1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDn6n3TEVQH
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzz9B0KdrX
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRoreg8BnZ
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GQytsYQPL
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkwmcXOqIc
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaCJ70uxp8
「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnERpRDnFt
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我就不去想像了。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJ2CiFS9uY
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「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZ0IpDvhW0
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOHY0pjNn6
「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnrlkXYu6k
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「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25nDk0NuqX
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ7qka3HM7
「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAs7VJCcptw
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2rYRrGTS9
「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhieE9z8a8H
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「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsubArxX3wv
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvyBeHBISE
「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbccuqB1ne
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「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdDoutv1SY
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hfPPcoOVv
「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWN514i2HqI
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「嗯…我知道。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjq44YJP8Jo
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「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch5bjylexw
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接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoegX58iV3K
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PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbfqEqXW6j
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVNc87F9KB
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至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJrMIH43hS
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLINzIkH4L
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1BbRRYPwJ
「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkwwwvgWC1
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxbdKHfQ2N
「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCB1irfj9I1
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「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco9M8IBhFV
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我愛我媽。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9P8KC7bPj
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「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6szti0IEmz
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我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIB0UePIU7o
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「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMHZYS0D4d
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無需任何思考。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpDFVMgYal
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「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnry9qmktwX
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8730NcYbYS
我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eIyJHLp3i
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIJsX0soQX
「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10TCCmVPfI
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已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JTQpaZ23i
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也必須要由我背負。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWko5crCYrk
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即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2fJr4KpQG
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「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzneGmtVfd
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3RL30O8zU
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「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBVYowebdM
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTmLnkMUbd
「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡda3k58lpR2
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「……佢真係好可愛。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVx3q6JEXN
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「佢好唔開心。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpJIJRZKWk
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「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9zWF8av5s
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她深深地在自責。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0svA0bFU4
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qxmTjubcv
別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5ZrFC8sUB
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Fe0FNkZNo
而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDusEqX8US
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「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7Ff2AzFFE
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwHWl2ygwe
「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WfmHpNrG4
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnvInkNMJ9
「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXeKfKvmdV
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsJmpZTG9l
「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAhxLAuBtm
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgexGQ28gi
我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Y3bHc5ctY
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3GDvSfwBh
「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsX189X1Pu
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEYsjSrk2X
「梗係可以。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevDu6dRXv1
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vIuYHMARb
「講個秘密你知。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQXr5l0sNY
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AyZr33JYx
「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77ZxIBQ0Jl
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVVHBhW2XO
「其實我驚狗。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0TpnfmClf
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hq2ngbWmi
「下？」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCPLea0A5E
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童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGxqSYsrzn
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWtxko4Ffm
「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfC4Yj02AS
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPzf9z7yfa
「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWh8fvevkXS
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「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4d8kEpA0u
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不過原理應該不一樣。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33IrZOV9Wd
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「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKbqW01aJS
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfifd75BH0
「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjI2I6LAKP
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYurHTraAo
「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7yUexjHol
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucOG53bv3a
「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXVJMYA69s
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「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmFAa1atOn
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看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1PpAkqB3d
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRr6BZnmYrc
童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVz0DdQZho
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我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZNvBgSLP9
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XIaGKg4ws
我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldIePqv9yQ
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「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZX1yCA8D2e
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「……」她卻沒有回應。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kBwCW50p0
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只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNG70fYeK6
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這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8ZN2Alp00
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只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHcZDY3DpW
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnH9SB1XoXq
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMYXC3ZYec
只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4kjWXL62r
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2TfyEbGqf
「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjHsws48rB
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJoP3fzm1w
「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfShJdnwtt
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjE0KB5xL1
「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2GDMnwYw2
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyH9LdtsNUo
「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3pvonu2zY
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSYhsEZdw3
眼角泛淚。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9SNMyuwko
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFXxKoXOvU
「呀遊？」童桐問。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXoJqo8VMk
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmu3l6Z7KH0
「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvIBAySFUP
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40MZBHlcx9
在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlIq5m24Cc
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PC5YMWoVP
／／還能互安慰1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRsxrGra8j
不必天氣多清朗1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqg0vQaG18D
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwweNEaHmz
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPGt7oejso
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdKsWMQjLm
1039Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05ryIfn47k
床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
ns 15.158.61.9da2
