童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsfw1lGkAj
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡes6u7UH1tl
正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQue9sR9zqK
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA62zSJXiYA
「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeTchg3kAy
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaF8Jv6V2W
我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZqwAnZsGa
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcDR3uj954
我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcL8Ltsfmu
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbDiA6Uzfp
好可愛…984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0e1msCdwxD
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPYhTspZED
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqfBIJkFy1
參考圖 IG:bordercollie_0814984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXbBGxC9gP
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KpHUopSOx
「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ961dhXpjTA
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOsl6W9UsV
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheB6qJA7D6
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQXGtqv6M5
「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jBSkO8RMm
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfoMgSwMfA
我就不去想像了。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklQjkqZiMn
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUrO3uxxZv
「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3Fnj9BtCB
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkmvDzr7Ib
「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVkyHD8lsT
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQqrB0wiLu
「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9iyZai4UK
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC248URTAw
「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT1g3kpQk1
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKY3gr8FRO
「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD7XUqkzwX
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvajyDuAapN
「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrXt86Rk7G
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfG22qducu
「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt13tAOyBcr
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxBCa60Ki1
「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmVLVY0O4Z
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOZi8bsRi0
「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvjQ36Q34X
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84VnppMYqQ
「嗯…我知道。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qWVXmcukQ
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpA2O1kOQn
「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIIiLQ59O8
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipIVMKsGOF
接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLOS6pTJZx
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTY43EZ5uVp
PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpmn3lHMDp
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8t5LAx3OWu
而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzLsxzKaN1
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJcgTbqAZQ
至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7SNBx821Q
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RGJOsMWY3
也和童桐現在身上一樣。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BkP8WczG9
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrMF8AzYsX
「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1F6DT4Tnd
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91ot43C0Ki
「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5UPwWDg5Y
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNXKRdsQoB
「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehLTS8Zw2y
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNiNpZBF9H
我愛我媽。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBw9LOHPLNS
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtk4uD3mzyW
「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2y93u50tz
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDi56FBoPt
我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPJOmN16iR
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWTQ4SyHa3
「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOe0mwh9Jf
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwo0T2oyqF5
無需任何思考。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwwrPUfwdx
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLLYy3rShD
「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMIf7NEv0m
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGUw4YYUtp
我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTK15qanQQW
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7a1MuYhtt
「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpADiVcHSdq
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbq4qnwVgx
已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSCDWkitRK
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGyZbW1Fv6
也必須要由我背負。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5qgXd9ywJ
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV68OVSQydY
即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutiQsAxXSK
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtC2L0hRJd
「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPVCXmvxYP
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLhXbIC3RV
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNR2s9Kzg2r
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOsdLZGvYF
回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqUR2ExHIr
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1u8fqXrfqV
「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIs8YTt0VRc
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSAwAFWs1C
「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwe9irPtp7v
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeO2wzsiM8R
「……佢真係好可愛。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDHHxjqKjv
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzLSc8wN3e
「佢好唔開心。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMg4rZ8ieK5
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4qO4z8Hhi
「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yTVstyjYo
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXjPWzgMOZ
她深深地在自責。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsbDRHsm1v
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfz8PX3kf7t
別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOR6g8vVC7
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BqrzBOeVZ
而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8neC4u9Jzn
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ048BbmBRL7
「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5gAfaYRyt
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDmF3IuaxI
「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNb26Ui9hH
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GLtM3q0BE
「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhLsugAvUn
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2Quk4bzoc
「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2g6v5iltW
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVkGuJf3yP
我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MFwgN3jVL
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIS6eGqU6qS
「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXs3QX2UpnF
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6xFdhAhT3
「梗係可以。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAzIRaqBDY
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN7RDBI8un
「講個秘密你知。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpzk6EdIdP
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qcNZV8mdg
「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡficoH2rUag
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnF8vF08Eh
「其實我驚狗。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7tfjWyyA9
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEZYPpML1Y
「下？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGrvb2Csbz
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAei7L4HSj3
童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cSmGkxs12
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rVyyUWwOe
「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90tgxq8yyB
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeViPzBlQeU
「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJz45RyIOie
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhOE7DhdB6
「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvXFLnvIyN
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsdYgAtVvz
不過原理應該不一樣。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Dmpsh4ZMI
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjLiQnWbrR
「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPrYk3d0SI
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWRHxGyGnT
「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1XHhyFWgy
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjPOaHCnU5
「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKL7jfWtXSX
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wDGBheFKd
「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWByGEiV7D
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnRqU2c57j
「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcD7DYrmmLX
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BRFYue7Bh
看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMHZETqTJm
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkX95IcxsQ
童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XcP4t6yYl
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlsU92QN9z
我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9ZUhGZTqP
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrpJhuZJB7
我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsj0y1cN6lK
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1TOl3vUzn
「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMHzoOzWV8
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDimvNFwxgO
「……」她卻沒有回應。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGl4c9SgKXu
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYzh6raVOz
只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJVAMPEeia
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8LQdhVVOf
這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwkd4V0Y9s
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY2DFrYRf8
只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsckQrN4wBy
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnqP3BPsZe
「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWCTogGHr3
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDmsmuBvlP
只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1TZP3LiWp
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHmJMzTZC6
「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkB4PdacEWE
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZp3adVhsL4
「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJaClUmLmg
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QwvKnGXI4
「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuMWAvfdkB
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9sC1Sa8ED
「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgpl7Hlmu5
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiV3YRNfAB
眼角泛淚。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukiiFWXhQC
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUAlzPWGUS
「呀遊？」童桐問。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XeGxXawnK
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0G70t62F4F
「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1OXqfiJj9
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uALVqFXK6
在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvvNOTQtxF
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQkpw3IcD6
／／還能互安慰984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QjArKOOUz
不必天氣多清朗984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0uxE8Vgmh
狂雨暴雪一起對抗984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYx97BhK0o
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7e3DNRmSR
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy275QV8XH8
第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXofZ67V5tO
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhAYhzN4ow
床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
ns 15.158.61.44da2
