童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFAcFowiA8
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNFASHe7xy
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQlFLJpeIO
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我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC61X0lMI7W
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvT4RClPqdr
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好可愛…1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNJYz93iR7
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFgXAX1UB4
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YqIZF9yQ8
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTp9jscqJXl
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2j82ydLmz
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7r0X7usxR5
「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRLfYmh6Jg
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我就不去想像了。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLn8WFbggLU
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「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZm9RO2m1Kk
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwcs5JjVpw
「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxwwSdWDeB
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「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTcET3j3kt
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzIGQpCB5B
「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93nk2h8MNG
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGZjPUbb0C
「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYSU5gf9Xw
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「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyih7T2gPHU
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmY6O8X4QU
「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjWEo6lOpV
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「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPQeEMXNJl
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreO2OYeYLZ
「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNBdlGP0rS
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「嗯…我知道。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRVhsFGeeg
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「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76uetzYuks
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接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡte2TEBrshX
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PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3GDXTgCTY
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKuZZUEMBf
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至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4hGcBlvBo
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7dTzx5hAO
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrh2wjBRZD
「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TZxpqNMoQ
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「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3plPSIZAW
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「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GpIUvpnkC
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我愛我媽。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADy4m0V60a
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「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvswizmKien
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我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLX6i2VFv4Q
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「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6ejO3ayPt
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlWZyJ3u3K
無需任何思考。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKsZuCNg8X
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOg0Mh7BWtQ
「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1qrLeO6kC
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrD0Lrjgv4
我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegvvkf4paO
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgh9hjkH3B
「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhY5MjXdf8
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已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qqkTptIVZ
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也必須要由我背負。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89lcLFWEPT
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即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKu1QTjK6ul
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「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXlJwTTScd
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9EE971nMN
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe78PAPHWB3
「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTftJkXqNI
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaFUVi9UAd
「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNqk2xWLc2
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「……佢真係好可愛。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShEBlV1Xw2
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「佢好唔開心。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡortAe5i9nk
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「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPROJ03Zgq
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她深深地在自責。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8nw6LXMhh
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別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBNzWW3W2S
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlvDkLIUxm
而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Kec5jTHky
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「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wIe2MmeqC
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MknjPdIeS
「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtwdBmq2uI
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcdgM1u9GY
「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMt5MAUQpzl
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1SozX0yf5
「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q6fMAVguF
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAS73O5hXq
我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVOjNWqJrK
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduAXreyFri
「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvDlriiRQi
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWQebW7vUf
「梗係可以。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMgyDJO42s
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1Q9VT59QC
「講個秘密你知。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgmxrp9tDx
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhp4tSSmzeJ
「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNic7FFRwJ5
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn31Bi4zXT1
「其實我驚狗。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDpzUdUoW4
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「下？」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8ICKsOaLx
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童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsPn8j29Ah
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ143eVQHXBE
「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1yUd28PJT
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuolk3yddxC
「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhni81qJXnG
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabUFa5CZe6
「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjG7wdeBM24
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不過原理應該不一樣。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuW7PX5CRC
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「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtwPCPpiGa
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYC3rJjxEE
「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU87KhZWLj
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMitiRItmXj
「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxxIran7pg
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe37U0K9kK6
「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXH88jLOgHV
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh3mmUhe5a
「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTXzqsFALa
1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKEx3YFTJO
看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGghAUrLaB
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童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mhLq8T0LD
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我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMrPgjltAI
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我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVg85pjtgr6
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「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2DXFahlER
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「……」她卻沒有回應。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhcUW72w4g
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只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XCchY8lMG
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這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdUVTWZ2w4
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只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTVvFl2Rl3
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqEeyi147R
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只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLhvurJD0m
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「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TqSBdJJyT
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「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRXHtIp4R3
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「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9h3TR77Mr
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「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHqkqfmxvD
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眼角泛淚。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01Zq2ZUE7R
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「呀遊？」童桐問。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU9sraikeb
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「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnsFQYkZQR
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在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIq6foVAwv
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／／還能互安慰1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2H0oYyAqH
不必天氣多清朗1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5SClr53rB
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi07y1IY1qv
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1037Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVNzmhL45i
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床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
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