童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR26YD7XAIw
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLm49zxXVBI
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58YFS0ER9C
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEj2sudAAs
我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhz4bf7MPcr
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWjuoHmkcw
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好可愛…1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFmZYqI3UJ
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7huR3uy2c
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Tea1eSU8W
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RLDJsAGVn
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7Wufhdpeq
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpwb05SyYa
「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oYKq4r6M0
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroOp1z7XNz
我就不去想像了。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgCnadmw4u
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbtCtxriZx
「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPqr5KQ1iR
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMkLoPaCkb
「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fmgoIFvyV
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7sj9BtuEo
「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF02KiwXIiJ
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKh6USIWnWO
「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzFzD2V7ep
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlm3ym1eWnc
「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrkQHKYEv3
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「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSgmegXODk
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYQH2wWSUD
「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7BI4RVlj1
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcn74tJUcD
「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjidRia5jN
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVdA12W5bd
「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZxJjRNeyk
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUnooVAXOH
「嗯…我知道。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquJDULJQTp
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcT2cSslIH
「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TTN2IumTY
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接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SeyCqld8R
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PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeXQbg7fhQ
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0rIItmJeD
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmi6KWfrrq
至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE10ki6AmQX
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLssMGKJDcP
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGN9GQuN5G
「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHW6G5Qb6h
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHYeZJ2V2r
「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Q6yE5cKD9
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQHpr0fntL
「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9A7n11lAU
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcIs5FBpv5
我愛我媽。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GgJjqXEXk
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「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdRZ6CnQSu
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPVDgWr2PZ
我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKwrExLbTw
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCHOYzwJaB
「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatsQOF9zHW
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JPaVcsEUX
無需任何思考。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6QPPmdQZ7
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRT0vuQgyq
「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK4Au6ep0P
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFW5ZyP8LIm
我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbGazFci7W
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAmQ8h0s6z
「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdJc9bbCso
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBIZoU2gY9
已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58sBEeCTRs
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也必須要由我背負。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kERDQFLGi
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即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDwNuwv9xQ
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxN2gwXAIs
「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzDiMineJq
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05F7cBivDp
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcCq0dbxm8
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZzbRPvbP0
「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBftfbNd4U
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGEsozcCPI
「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPIxWNYauI
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCtyVLC9Z7
「……佢真係好可愛。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyKdEAAHDe
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGQyoApdZo
「佢好唔開心。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgyB3gvAic
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY80fD2Dnct
「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLY8US5Lf3
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGvjvVOgnS
她深深地在自責。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiq4pqDH3c
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別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyOGd6lNRR
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHWbN2XKOl
而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2nMP2HdSZ
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWvQwuzPTl
「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRC7kESAFr
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSPcMKglHj
「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUFtUkbpYV
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEif9UM4dr9
「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xvJwNBvJS
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq6yuvn2mr
「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54jk2zxHuO
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIOcU5FsLU
我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRF7Gq7bnC
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bhJraGs3t
「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4rq0IwIHH
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN4BOMvQFG
「梗係可以。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfgpXOtkmj
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOjWFJhYvc
「講個秘密你知。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXG1rfAKBqM
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViSCLk8xnw
「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7W6GGieD6l
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gQraDX6Fn
「其實我驚狗。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCUyvOgmiA
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79cJMWMc2d
「下？」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HyQQ1q2gZ
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjn6fAZ1Efh
童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsez6QlKtZ
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHcPho6UeV
「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVuq6AlKtn
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5b9yOzTHF
「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKHLzbrnAm
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJLDY1hX8n
「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qhUJ6q99u
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhr396Y7Xo
不過原理應該不一樣。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0nFgxLcmq
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lP093wLMW
「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1P5k02wFIv
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjdYSxvO4S
「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5TD7gNwVd
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRIYokfQ0b
「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgRvOzorku
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoC0Cog3GVb
「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVA6RrJWCU
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAIfql1SX7
「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1rDyVmOy4
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YIq3z4tzg
看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpx98XSBZnZ
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hJSIwDIKd
童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR25HmuNgbQ
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjA66KJuJS
我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡux5qNTyvNE
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNIJxb4GAr
我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6u4NvbHhp0
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyJQOOcs9M
「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNizUtYLuG
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5eJ91hOgz
「……」她卻沒有回應。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgL21mcdKq
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThiowF7Uhp
只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGelmvopzBZ
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這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Vo6sT21wV
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSme03jpG3l
只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HcuF1c8rd
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwCHyuGPnk
「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzCCykk58P
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKoK0MtWJg
只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG48ZB9zpsX
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPw6ZS8hRB
「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4mRRVh7qu
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoIIijrrLE
「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CMFq7qJak
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpAzZv1VeG
「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwL0bpVC500
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGapgKPST0
「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9BTxvOUvY
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdWiazUg01
眼角泛淚。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmXFflMS6f
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckTfd7rIHY
「呀遊？」童桐問。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PCFbPe5ge
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnEd7P3ubD
「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6IKQHBHol
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3gETMtOfv
在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32vfnwPcDT
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lbwiKA2dr
／／還能互安慰1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyg2oRkGkgl
不必天氣多清朗1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEr1hIr3WWU
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZOSnPmFLa
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38rrKDM2SJ
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBAI8OCZ1f
1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybpX0ogV03
床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
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