愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExyngmgrOk
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhsS29Syol
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT85F6n8tBw
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINKA2MhdRT
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUGZwe84qE
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但他沒有。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4cu74mEiu
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzek66A4FwF
在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rx7JBY348
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIk1engivx
或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXNs017NSH
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CGTXmY0Zy
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGJF0xb7Pu
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKwVK82Akd
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBD12TJPuEs
「妳在家嗎？」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZB3HZbgc34
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDKW5D1PGH
「嗯。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdEU3xyHeY
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ104jIXxb5
「下來。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasZVBOjDKg
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGCZZUgEPJ
我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0Cdxy9EiO
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZdYmnV0DT
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PfG4dF7JS
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KRLnV8EhY
「上車。」他敲敲車子。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnjBRXR1cZ
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY2LB9CgK1
「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4Jd982W6s
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWBm80mplo
「把妳載去賣。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLU1j6v3HAK
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLafnCzFnm
「嗯，好。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQozvmJvgi
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tbjpUB1V3
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuptDs3jAyq
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fWbjq2SZZ
我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReZ5OYewV8
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDNTqvVX2f
「起床了。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcAugE8Dyc
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFQ4OHoSWT
「快點起來，小豺！」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODY1OTpoKa
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UwRu7CngT
我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcioJzsXQaY
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz2QtSiZzr
「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEPMS5wrxY
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWk939XDEL
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjWh1pVz7j
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPp9bGL96y
「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71uyI2fMUw
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OX3tqrpjd
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgxGK1Vi1w
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgofaWYXPiE
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGmLHJsbqk
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「在山上。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4kLlKy9B3
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuT1nbp4id
下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOwuVHraWZ
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonNeO0VIlp
「你要拜拜啊？」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOijbjxDlj
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlefmhKPxY
「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSl0KYhHg4j
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXByTW32XdM
「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHm7pu6SmcF
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAqT1wY76M
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYtKmsvQwM
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzq0Y4iPmo
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCbekd9VlY
「我哪知道。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwK1WhZcMr
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1XRx0cyqV
「……說的也是。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QrUG1A7Pr
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAX0tqtad0
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2dKJzkHiY
「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbr60GMCoY
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoAnkW14ra
「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnXcMgu9Hn
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RKkewAsA5
「會發霉。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VSmy7PQCh
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1NlL4jwlO
「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrkpgVIzUQ
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgEADHEQ1Q
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0LyLjpxH3
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44pIaVnRfV
「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOCvhVlIyk
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtXaAbJXKn
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERptxEnQZw
「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRe8n3b6bL7
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQNdgKzqXR
「啊？」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0D2vIrUmTp
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvAMeTRX3b
「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfOumaurXQ
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxOVrARuC7
「哈…你很噁心耶。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPt1yMjaMB
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8v2ZtHzFLY
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgef1qoOTP5
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNDCP7UBCl
「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOA5zKidjr
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aoK5fN7UA
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCZqARhLtU
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIttJbtSgVH
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2l127uGAH
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6F8Yh2n7qu
「好啦，我勉強用一下。」474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuZ80gJdFU
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3skJYHe3NA
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRInzQJMkF9
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaHlbkYK4S
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPECqReZW0k
474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQyY1X0ALb
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGsTESMYs1
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfQEXucMUR
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待續。
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