愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTFlaRlarW
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1y6nWnNmW
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQy0JdWHSu
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDz7OAUYJ7X
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzlpSHprI6
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但他沒有。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlz6GKueU8
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQu8bX3c0CE
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziWjdQWDZ8
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58yuc575Av
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rxrT3Ue5F
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「妳在家嗎？」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoLj7yIIo9
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「嗯。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOjCJlfMnG
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「下來。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIyPBVoI0n
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6rt9nidtN
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkSs6bqt2L
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtTT90Aa7M
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTbO6GZzKV
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「把妳載去賣。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJjdXm4NI7
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「嗯，好。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVq0EIUWz1
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUlpm1N6E4
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgoPmzTK2R
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「起床了。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLrZB3bLDI
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「快點起來，小豺！」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6m8T2S89zc
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIJhAT2uBH
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DPFFmJm8S
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyUkYrO4FG
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnZ4Ps3BRU
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScTy4Tosf1
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTvSEzfAxL
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「在山上。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUiBPBvVrS
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NgYn0nVyW
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「你要拜拜啊？」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD86TNyxK6B
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1JTdjMG2N
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjnOxob6qp
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1GA56yUdh
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuT4Pu1WQm
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「我哪知道。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUmF2VYB2y
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「……說的也是。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILPqyxJpgq
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡox46afYfBE
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwIPftadhr
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「會發霉。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLF0yQ0uzRm
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1dcTPfOI1
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlC3ZoPV4tA
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ679uTs0FLo
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKSyf8yM7B
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「啊？」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeE68fG4br
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYBKrR2JwB
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2eQELTNOl
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAqsGe4THq
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcbiFwcWnt
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLcQGPWyp8
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11SYOOTGZA
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92qvn4cCja
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6rOsGDmEu
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HIoHOVmvp
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuh48qla4Jg
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。461Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpbFRU61vl
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待續。
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