我比他先到達高潮，直到那刻我仍沒有出聲，在雙腿緊繃幾秒，高潮退去後，我靠著牆滑坐到地上。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLr9J4DUDV
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然後看著他的體液沾滿手指、手掌和手銬。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFItbO1YvR
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「豺姐…？」過了一會兒，他出聲。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4nuYZteRG
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我做了個深呼吸，站起來，拿起椅子上的裙子和內褲。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQMxj9Fsed
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「別動，等我一下。」我走進浴室清理自己。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOYU06vVE1
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出來後，我從包包裡拿出濕紙巾，擦拭他的凌亂。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYWSIWdigJ
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「我自己弄就好了…」他窘迫。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5gPkRgFgy
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「不要動。」我說。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUJVwxYU4s
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擦拭完畢後，我解開他的手銬、取下眼罩。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHoIq3gNFi
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他慢慢地睜開眼，室內光線是柔和的黃光，他沒有花太多時間適應。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAHln5An5M
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「妳臉好紅。」他盯著我。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeGpivgzhW
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「哪有你紅？」我笑了，對著他的身體使了個眼色。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdbsyuPFVy
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他才意識到自己一絲不掛，匆忙站起來跑進浴室。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDgB8Mzpxl
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而我的笑容在他進浴室後消失。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8iwvF8XTQ
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待他出來後，我在桌旁等他，示意他坐到另一張椅子上。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3f7P0kAKM
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「我們結束這樣的關係吧。」
我直接講了重點，在他出來前的內心預演統統沒有用上。說出口後，他的表情定格了好幾秒。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Xs7hpIMGF
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「為什麼？」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaxIJaBKZx
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我想像得到他會問為什麼，但我卻沒辦法馬上回答他，只是看著他的眼睛，沉默。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzqaQqzVs0
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「為什麼啊？」他稍稍提高了音量。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RNavDsjxZ
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「我做錯什麼了嗎？」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5j4qdG69fm
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他不停追問，而我仍沒有出聲。有那麼片刻，我還以為我們是正在協議分手的情侶。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdVASGwl5H
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而那種錯覺正是必需結束的主因。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT89eInniNp
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「你是不是越來越依賴我了？」我輕輕的開口。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItpyjxFUuY
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「什麼意思？我太黏妳了嗎？我可以不要太常去找妳吃飯啊。」他急著「改正」可能的錯誤。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4KCiG9hXO
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我搖搖頭，「那不是問題，問題是我也開始依賴你了。」這刻，我還是盯著他的眼睛說話。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIk1OtBqo5
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「……」他語塞。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmfQad01sH
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「有時候我會覺得你像我的男朋友。」
「你從來沒有做過越線的事，就像你一開始保證的那樣。」
「可是當我開始希望你越線的時候，我們的關係就很難維持了。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NGZmoQxLy
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「…妳喜歡我？」他猶疑了一下才說出口。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YIYkIn12j
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「可能有一點，或只是習慣你。無論如何，這樣不行。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbW7A39kwGe
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「為什麼不行？」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGEkqHfNpt
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「你喜歡我嗎？有想過跟我交往嗎？或你有想過要跟我上床嗎？」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6buxlceaT
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他被我突然的問句嚇到，過了一會兒才回應。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcnHCiqfNi
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「我…沒想過。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbuDLhRdcX
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「是了。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgdyuSJz0l
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「可是…可是我可以想想看啊，只是…可是…」他慌了，語無倫次。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjomVLOglX
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「別想了，這樣結束就好。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jcbGlfp7O
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「我不要！這樣太突然了，我不要啦…」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZeIWsh1kT
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我摸摸他尚帶有水珠的頭髮，覺得他像隻淋濕的小狗，365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24G6ln8HJ7
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惹人憐愛。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBtVppCAgv
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從一開始就是這樣看待他的，我心裡的情感疊了太多層，無法和他明說。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8p7cBG1hh
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「你只是捨不得能陪你玩的對象而已，趁現在結束才不會有更多麻煩。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9D8FlwNhCa
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也許是被我冰冷的話語刺中了，他的眼睛滾下一顆淚珠。我預料中的反應。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShOU60byBG
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他離開椅子，跪到我面前，像犯錯的孩子。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhJ3MnTgx4
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如果是情侶，跪著的那個人大概會抱住坐著的人吧？365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LOGh2Vqum
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但他沒有，就是隔著剛好的距離，恭敬的、卑微的，跪著。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7c1TModyLS
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那就是我們之間的距離－－主與奴的，即便我從不肯承認。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3TwDpQuy4
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「如果我們變成男女朋友，我就能夠留下妳嗎？」他嗚咽的說。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh3EZBJXFt
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那語氣裡滿是委屈，被拋棄的、不情願的…365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyv9MzHkPa
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「我們不會變成男女朋友。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFp41YDAoR0
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我把椅子拉開，也跪坐到地上，與他平視－－不再是主與奴的視角。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XXQgcw3eJ
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「就算我們變成情侶，也沒辦法滿足彼此。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzgB34J0Xi
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他看著我的眼神，表示不懂我說的意思。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fWCawUfwq
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我握住他的手，允許自己坦白。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y9cfsUz9s
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「你不是想知道我為什麼會使用麻繩嗎？不是一直覺得我對這些事很熟練嗎？」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpZ2q8DUqQ
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「那是因為我以前也做過。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuN7YSeap8
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他的眼睛倏地睜大，「我沒有別的奴。」我的雙手使了點力，示意要他繼續聽我說話。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3i0QfAu4gl
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「……我以前是服從的角色。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kWBluuIVf
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「那些我對你做的事，都是以前別人對我做過的。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16svYR6TAx
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「所以我才知道怎麼進行，但以前那個人很野蠻，我都被弄得很痛，所以我才不希望你受任何傷。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2Bo7TC2WD
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「我更不希望當你看見傷痕的時候會想起我。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDwjLZVWL1
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我看著他，沒有移開目光。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5TGDENh5C
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那些時候我看著他，會把自己的過去與他重疊。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMXvImT6No
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對他的處境所衍生的心疼，或許也參雜了更多私心，不曉得是心疼他，還是心疼過去的自己。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddCYCizodT
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他傻住了，什麼話也說不出來。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAoQLMiqcf
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我放開他的手，再次摸摸他的頭髮。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaXT1g5NsB
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「去吹乾頭髮吧，會感冒的。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzu7B2NcV1K
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離開旅館後，我們再也沒有見過面了。365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKPKwAq7gq
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那天晚上我在自己的記事本裡寫了一段這樣的話：365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bmgMt8fZD
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「我們都只是被情慾支配的獸，你是狗，但你不知道我是狼。」365Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oeuXgdjQd
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