等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwe9Ih49pk
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWxv8vaYo2
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0HzvPtRpD
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeR1oc5Jag7
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我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASClN10k87
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzegFIoMdbw
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wFbejwHL0
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXiSWbZFSN
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「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ356bcywYra
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjzpYB2N2r
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaz7mHXMSPJ
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzfsFQXdLG
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「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPKj3Cunmk
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3i6ZHGkDQ
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「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZo54dK6d6b
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他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORSU36kqrB
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDbJo7J07a
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswQ9N0rUpM
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「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklHCWOB1q2
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我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtG9Diqmu6K
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「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpnqlzBb0W
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「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6nw6fyJIY
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MnaIOEWiu
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxnKfmOgzv
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「這是新編的。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTeuilEH2T
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchxUrjCSkb
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「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAg8sUOWs2
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我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpSLOtym2Z
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白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD8z6LAWXV
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「妳看。」他得意。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4sdcFy7P4
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9LdH6Zum5
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「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYy6asaLfi
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我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLjzq51W2U
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「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzcRaONbiO
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「現在拍。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WO66gDdPJ
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「啊？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwkxa1DQCM
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VfEwriqpc
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「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRCxQ6TLGT
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKA3grDMr0
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「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYLbG1hnCf
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我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqFHfPn6SG
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QLkxpjE0X
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「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnZDjhrONh
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我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpGblAJ1b2
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXbnLAIVhv
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「…有寫一些小故事。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlS9n7oCe9C
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQRwLQCz6J
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FXs6brK84
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ivtFRNt13
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「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBjOZI49lY
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「妹。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxxmzkFu9V
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「嗯？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGkwqLVgc7
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYKzT7hioJ
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我突然意識到他正在做什麼。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4l5IqjXzYV
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像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoplhgWytaN
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因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCchUCBwo9W
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2z3Ym6oAI
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他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojUVqNhqhf
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「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJPB1rvkhV
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爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXiuxxa9ai
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我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMwgOzuprr
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91UAAuQJHM
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我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7J0SQcC6Na
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我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypBTBYlLnS
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但我是欣慰的。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnY0qrEBOE0
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那一天來的又快又急。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKslHLh449
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「妹…」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXhNJ5cTTe
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我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOhsWWUtMl
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「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCZ1rivx1A
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還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZic1eCtfz
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「我還不想死…」他哭著說。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjFqz3qsf4
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那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6mRJypgGw
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzB5svs1Yg
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他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HPLzTCgte
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英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnb0aVQIGGM
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她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9RHt2Rz8m
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Dg95gSTjM
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvY7Fi2LnVq
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「我真的，還不想死。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzLpkcMxt8
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我握著他的手出了點力。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnnooovm95
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「我很害怕。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mHH6A4H45
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「我很怕死…」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJotJHS5yi
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoo7AFctpl0
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISXNFX6fFj
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「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvjEgh9N4F
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「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IdyBoIDkR
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我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8JVf0ywA3
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MEOqNcOan
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我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1uMXgNAbK
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZfBPnt1R4
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswe0BZLfJS
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英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzieD4DmLvM
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「妹。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hUBYcwCM2
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「嗯？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgk7VfM7EfH
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡle25EFFbxP
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjrsQtwfbM
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「回去再看。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbJIVlw48o
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「好。」我收起信。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfsjPdjSBr
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「妳回去吧。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufGy7TJQ0d
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「什麼？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAg89musaP
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXryiFUntyv
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「為什麼？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxvPrnf1ob
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhUi3KZA3i
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「……」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZPQjjSGLn
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「回去吧。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fa1LhCfBH
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0aCnaEaxE
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjK5D5JC0QF
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我又抱了抱他才離開。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PtAqpVUAf
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOzzhh5tOO
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「英傑已經走了。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5dLe7fg31
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTu62TqHzK
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWWeyIVIbN
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「Dear 妹：」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRIUSPqlom
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「妳永遠是我的天使，450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPrr0O3K6p
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請不要忘記我。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPw06UtkxyH
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「哥 英傑」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrtIc6U8sZ
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSu1AaZXcpi
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtsOBxhX4d
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqNaP8Ufh1
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKbGeYscnw
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUNSsbRP0j
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZ32B6nn4E
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvYjV1DapT
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwrgQnELsu
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但我什麼也沒做。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8C9rwVgUXK
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpBLIGw69i
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKl4PRTZMr1
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhweGdb5xG0
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWKiRjj1eX
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡke4obcJI55
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去年，我沒有寫信。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrZEZsUdaV
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnS2CRpBlU
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmDKx7ryqp
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7s2W50nBoC
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這是，我哥哥的故事。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqbfOhJ6mD
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