Kai's pov
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We ran to the house and hid out there for a while. Until they found us, "murder is a capital offense" Blake said rubbing his eyes. I nod "Yes sir I know. I could claim self-defense though. You'd help me out of the right babe." he looks at me with serious eyes. "The best thing to do if you get caught would be plead guilty by temporary insanity and then accept a plea bargain. Then get out early for good behavior and hope like hell you don't get picked up again." He starts pacing the room. "I'm sorry" I whisper " SORRY DOESN'T CUT IT ANYMORE KAIYLER!" He yelled and I started to shake slightly "YOU COULD GET CAUGHT AND I CAN'T LOSE YOU GODDAMMIT I WON'T LOSE YOU." He stopped pacing and punched the door. I started crying and he grabbed my face. There was still rage in his eyes but his features softened. I was shaking and terrified. I started breathing heavily and hyperventilating. “Please… don’t… me…” I said between sobs. His face had a look of terror the same as mine. His lips quivered as he started talking. “I’m so sorry Love I didn’t mean to scare you it's just I love you so damn much and don’t want to lose you. I wouldn’t hurt you,” He caressed my face
“Please d-don’t touch me.” I stood up and grabbed my phone off his desk and my notebook and a bag that was in the corner
*flashback*
“You little slut do what your father told you too and get on your knees NOW” she yelled I was crying “Y-yes ma’am” I stuttered following her instructions. That's the first time anything had happened, She would beat me with a studded belt which would leave marks. I was homeschooled for the longest time. Until I got to be about 15 which was too old in my 'father's' eyes. They brought more little girls about 7 to 10 and I would try to help them out of the home but I didn't have any proof.
*end of flashback*
I went into a guest bedroom. “Dammit Blake.” I slammed my head on the desk that was in there. I set the notebook on the table and took out the pen that was in the binding of the book. I started to write a song like I always did to take it off my mind
Your warm fingers caressed my cheek
I thought you were mine
I gave you my body
What did I get in return?
You screaming at me
You punched the wall
I wanna take my meds
But I can’t seem to find them
Panic attack Pa-pa-panic attack
Dammit I thought you loved me
I thought you would treat me better
You left me crying shaking wondering
Wha-a-a-t would ever happen next
You were my life, my love, I told you-u-u
Everything
No one knows what I went through
I stood and wiped my eyes. I couldn’t finish it like all my other songs. I loved Blake. I poured my soul out to him. Well, I didn’t tell him everything. I took the pen to my arm and started to draw little doodles. I was cold either that or the shivering was my body's way of saying calm the fuck down or else your gonna start to have a panic attack. I walked to the bathroom with one of my shirts and a pair of leggings. I lit candles on the edge of the tub and filled the tub with bubbles. I lowered myself in the hot water. And turned on some of my favorite music. My breathing slowly returned to normal. There was a knock at the door, "Go away blake I don't want to talk to you" I hear a sigh on the other side of the door than in a voice that sounds like it's been crying speaks "Fine you don't have to just listen." "Go ahead," I said "As long as I'm alive, I'll protect you. Please... Just stay with me. I can't live without you. When I saw you I knew you were the one. I don't know why you do what you do to me. But you make my heartbeat and it didn't do that before. You can tell me that it's all my fault and tell me how wrong I am for doing what I did. You can beat me till I'm bloody. But don't leave me Please." I got out of the bath and wrapped a towel around my body and pressed my body to the door. "I'm never going to leave you blake. But you're going to have to gain my trust again. You got pissed off and punched a wall so you wouldn't hit me. What if that happens again and you actually hit me?" I asked "I won't I could never hurt you. I love you too much. Please come out dear I want to talk face to face." I opened the door and seen him standing by the door. He wrapped his arms around my body and embraced me "I'm never going to hurt you kaiyler. Never" I smiled breathing in the sweet scent he had, it had a slight iron smell to it. "Promise." he nods "Promise" I smiled and then spoke again "You have to promise me another thing. You won't hurt yourself anymore." "I promise love. I won't hurt myself at all anymore." I stood on my tiptoes "Blake I love you." I said as I kissed him "I love you too baby girl." He caressed my cheek as he picked me up. 297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtJJlpSIPY
