Another Doxa in the Thought - 21/08/2024（“Kendrick Lamar - FEAR.”歌詞翻譯）

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Poverty's paradise

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I don't think I could find a way to make it on this earth

我不覺得我能在這世上出人頭地

(I've been hungry all my life)

（我一生飽受饑饉所苦）

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What's up, family?

家人們，近來可好？

Yeah, it's your cousin Carl, man, just givin' you a call, man

對呀，是你的表親卡爾，老兄，只是想打給你

I know you been havin' a lot on yo' mind lately

我知道你最近心裡很煩、亂糟糟

And I know you feel like, you know

我也知道你的感受，像是：

People ain't been prayin' for you

「沒有人為你祈禱」之類的

But you have to understand this, man, that we are a cursed people

但你必須了解到，兄弟，我們都是受詛咒的人們

Deuteronomy 28:28 says, "The Lord shall smite thee with madness And blindness, and astonishment of heart"

《申命記》第28章28節說到：「耶和華必用癲狂、眼瞎、心驚攻擊你。」

See, family, that's why you feel like you feel

是吧，兄弟，這就是為什麼你

Like you got a chip on your shoulder

感覺肩負千斤重擔、心事重重

Until you follow His commandments, you gonna feel that way

除非你遵守祂的誡命，否則你一直會有這種感覺

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Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?

神啊、神啊，為什麼我非得受苦不可？

Pain in my heart carry burdens full of struggle

苦痛存於我心，還得背負人世間的困頓

Why God, why God do I gotta bleed?

神啊、神啊，為什麼我非得流血不可？

Every stone thrown at you restin' at my feet

所有對祢丟的石頭，現在都砸在我腳上

Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?

神啊、神啊，為什麼我非得受難不可？

Earth is no more, won't you burn this muh’fucka?

地球已無藥可救，何不將操他媽的這一切置於火海？

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I don't think I could find a way to make it on this earth

我不覺得我能在這世上出人頭地

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?reffus attog I od doG yhw ,doG yhW

？可不苦受得非我麼什為，啊神、啊神

elggurts fo lluf snedrub yrrac traeh ym ni niaP

頓困的間世人負背得還，心我於存痛苦

?deelb attog I od doG yhw ,doG yhW

？可不血流得非我麼什為，啊神、啊神

teef ym ta 'nitser uoy ta nworht enots yrevE

上腳我在砸都在現，頭石的丟祢對有所

?reffus attog I od doG yhw ,doG yhW

？可不難受得非我麼什為，啊神、啊神

?akcuf’hum siht nrub uoy t'now ,erom on si htraE

？海火於置切一這的媽他操將不何，救可藥無已球地

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I beat yo' ass, keep talkin' back

你敢再回嘴就打死你*¹

I beat yo' ass, who bought you that?

誰買給你這個的？我打死你

You stole it, I beat yo' ass if you say that game is broken

你偷來的吧？如果你再說遊戲機壞了，我就打死你

I beat yo' ass if you jump on my couch

在沙發上跳來跳去，我就打死你

I beat yo' ass if you walk in this house

如果你敢在家裡，為了躲那兩個惡霸

With tears in your eyes, runnin' from Poo Poo and Prentice

而在那邊嘛嘛吼，我先打死你

Go back outside, I beat yo' ass, lil' nigga

給我滾出去啊，我打死你這小王八蛋

That homework better be finished, I beat yo' ass

你作業最好給我寫完，不然我打死你

Your teachers better not be bitchin' 'bout you in class

最好別讓我知道老師說你在上課時又在那邊嘰嘰歪歪

That pizza better not be wasted, you eat it all

那披薩不准剩，你給我全吃光

That TV better not be loud if you got it on

你看電視最好別給我太大聲

Them Jordans better not get dirty when I just bought 'em

我買給你的新球鞋最好別弄髒

Better not hear 'bout you humpin' on Keisha's daughter

最好別讓我聽到你去把別人家的女兒

Better not hear you got caught up

最好別讓我知道你做壞事被抓包

I beat yo' ass, you better not run to your father

最好別跑去找你爸哭訴，不然我打死你

I beat yo' ass, you know my patience runnin' thin

我打死你，你知道我沒什麼耐心

I got buku payments to make

我有一堆帳單要繳

County building's on my ass, tryna take my food stamps away

國家建設緊緊盯著我，想從我這收回食物劵

I beat yo' ass if you tell them social workers he live here

要是你跟社工講你爸住在這，我就打死你*²

I beat yo' ass if I beat yo' ass twice and you still here

如果你挨揍一次還待在原地發呆我就再打你一次

Seven years old, think you run this house by yourself?

你才七歲，就覺得自己是一家之主？

Nigga, you gon' fear me if you don't fear no one else

小王八蛋，你天不怕地不怕也該怕我

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If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll that motherfucker up

如果能讓恐懼煙消雲散，我就把這些狗屎爛蛋捲起來

And then I'd take two puffs

然後輕輕抽個兩口

I'm high now (Huh), I'm high now (Huh)

我嗑嗨囉（哈）、我嗑嗨哩（哈）

I'm high now (Huh), I'm high now (Huh)

嗨嗨人生（哈）、人生嗨嗨（哈）

Life's a bitch, pull them panties to the side now

(Pull them panties to the side now)

生活是個婊子，現在就快把她內褲脫了吧（快把她內褲脫了吧）*³

I don't think I could find a way to make it on this earth

我不覺得我能在這世上出人頭地

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I'll prolly die anonymous, I'll prolly die with promises

我可能默默無名死去、我可能帶著尚未兌現的承諾而死去

I'll prolly die walkin' back home from the candy house

我可能會死在從販毒處回家的路上*⁴

I'll prolly die because these colors are standin' out

我可能會死於身上衣服顏色太鮮豔*⁵

I'll prolly die because I ain't know Demarcus was snitchin'

我可能因為德馬庫斯的告密而死

I'll prolly die at these house parties, fuckin' with bitches

我可能因為在家狂歡縱慾過度而死

I'll prolly die from witnesses leavin' me false-accused

我可能死於目擊者對我所做出的偽證

I'll prolly die from thinkin' that me and your hood was cool

我可能死於我對街頭幫派的崇敬

Or maybe die from pressin' the line, actin' too extra

或者可能死在言行越線、作風極端

Or maybe die because these smokers are more than desperate

或者可能死在癮君子的毒手之下

I'll prolly die from one of these bats and blue badges

我可能死在警棍與警徽之下

Body-slammed on black and white paint, my bones snappin'

條子把我壓在馬路線上，用力到我骨頭都要碎

Or maybe die from panic or die from bein' too lax

或者可能死於憂患、死於安樂

Or die from waitin' on it, die 'cause I'm movin' too fast

或動作慢了一步就死、動作快了一點也死

I'll prolly die tryna buy weed at the apartments

我可能因嘗試在公寓販售大麻而死

I'll prolly die tryna diffuse two homies arguin'

我可能因協調兩位弟兄的爭執而死

I'll prolly die 'cause that's what you do when you're 17

我可能因為做出和你一樣在十七歲時做的事而死

All worries in a hurry, I wish I controlled things

所有煩心之事將至，我希望我能掌握人生

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If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll that motherfucker up

如果能讓恐懼煙消雲散，我就把這些狗屎爛蛋捲起來

And then I'd take two puffs

然後輕輕抽個兩口

I'm high now (Huh), I'm high now (Huh)

我嗑嗨囉（哈）、我嗑嗨哩（哈）

I'm high now (Huh), I'm high now (Huh)

嗨嗨人生（哈）、人生嗨嗨（哈）

Life's a bitch, pull them panties to the side now

(Pull them panties to the side now)

生活是個婊子，現在就快把她內褲脫了吧（快把她內褲脫了吧）

Now

現在

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When I was 27, I grew accustomed to more fear

到了27歲，我逐漸習慣承受更多恐懼

Accumulated 10 times over throughout the years

在這些年來，恐懼又增長了十倍之多

My newfound life made all of me magnified

我全新的人生讓一切皆被世人放大檢視

How many accolades do I need to block denial?

到底要獲得多少榮譽才能讓酸民閉嘴？

The shock value of my success put bolts in me

事業成功帶來的震撼如雷竄身卻又稍縱即逝

All this money, is God playin' a joke on me?

那麼多錢，是不是上帝在跟我開玩笑？

Is it for the moment, and will he see me as Job?

就是為了某個時刻，祂會把我當成約伯對待？*⁶

Take it from me and leave me worse than I was before?

將一切給奪走，而獨留我活在比過去更慘的困境？

At 27, my biggest fear was losin' it all

27歲，我最大的恐懼就是失去一切

Scared to spend money, had me sleepin' from hall to hall

我害怕花錢，揮霍會讓我居無定所

Scared to go back to Section 8 with my mama stressin'

害怕回到貧戶身份，與老媽壓力山大

30 shows a month and I still won't buy me no Lexus

一個月每天都有演唱會，但我依然不敢買車

What is an advisor? Somebody that's holdin' my checks

什麼理財顧問？我只看到有人在掌握我的支票

Just to fuck me over and put my finances in debt?

會不會把我誆到破產，留我負債累累？

I read a case about Rihanna's accountant and wondered

我讀過蕾哈娜會計的案子，就不禁好奇

How did the Bad Girl feel when she looked at them numbers?

那壞女孩看到那些數字是什麼感受？*⁷

The type of shit'll make me flip out and just kill somethin'

就是這些狗屁倒灶的想法讓我抓狂想殺人、

Drill somethin', get ill and fill ratchets with a lil' somethin'

變得固執、變得病態、想找女人發洩

I practiced runnin' from fear, guess I had some good luck

我練習過如何逃離恐懼，我猜我還算幸運

At 27 years old, my biggest fear was bein' judged

27歲，我最大的恐懼就是被評判

How they look at me reflect on myself, my family, my city

世人對我的審視會反映到我自己、我的家庭與我的城市

What they say 'bout me reveal if my reputation would miss me

世人對我的評判影響到我的聲譽是否會就此消失

What they see from me would trickle down generations in time

世人從我身上看到的，也將會在後世流傳下去

What they hear from me would make 'em highlight my simplest lines

世人在我歌中聽到的，也將會強調我最簡潔有力的詞上*⁸

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I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' creativity

我在說恐懼，害怕失去我的創造力

I'm talkin' fear, fear of missin' out on you and me

我在說恐懼，害怕遺漏你我之間的感情

I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' LOYALTY from PRIDE

我在說恐懼，害怕因自己的［傲慢］而失去他人的［忠誠］

'Cause my DNA won't let me involve in the light of GOD

因為我的［基因］不讓我沐浴在［上帝］的光輝之中

I'm talkin' fear, fear that my HUMBLEness is gone

我在說恐懼，害怕我［謙虛］不再

I'm talkin' fear, fear that LOVE ain't livin' here no more

我在說恐懼，害怕［愛］不復存在

I'm talkin' fear, fear that it's WICKEDNESS OR WEAKNESS

我在說恐懼，害怕［這會是邪惡抑或是懦弱］

Fear, whatever it is, both is distinctive

恐懼啊，無論是哪一種，兩者都是獨特的

Fear, WHAT HAPPENS ON EARTH STAYS ON EARTH

恐懼，［塵世所發生之事就讓它只能留存於塵世］

And I can't take these feelings with me, so hopefully, they disperse

我不能帶這些感受離世，希望它們能就此消逝

Within fourteen tracks, carried out over wax

拿出黑膠唱片，聽完這十四首歌

Searchin' for resolutions until somebody get back

不斷尋找解決之道，直到祂再次來到

Fear, what happens on Earth stays on Earth

恐懼，塵世所發生之事就讓它只能留存於塵世

And I can't take these feelings with me, so hopefully they disperse

我不能帶這些感受離世，希望它們能就此消逝

Within fourteen tracks, carried out over wax

拿出黑膠唱片，聽完這十四首歌

Wonderin' if I'm livin' through fear or livin' through rap

想著我會活在恐懼之中或是活在饒舌之中

Damn

該死。

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God damn you, God damn me

神咒詛你、神咒詛我

God damn us, God damn we

神咒詛你我、神咒詛我們

God damn us all

神咒詛世人

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Verse 2 says, "You only have I known of all the families of the Earth, therefore I will punish you for all your iniquities"

阿摩司書第3章第2節道：「在地上萬族中我只認識你們，因此，我必追討你們的一切罪孽。」

So until we come back to these commandments

所以，直到我們重新遵從這些誡命、

Until you come back to these commandments

直到你重拾這些誡命之前

We're gonna feel this way, we're gonna be under this curse

我們將會一直感受如此、將會一直感受到這份詛咒

Because He said He's gonna punish us

因為祂說祂會懲罰我們——

The so-called blacks, Hispanics, and Native American Indians

這些所謂的黑人、拉丁裔、與美洲原住民——

Are the true children of Israel

因為我們都是真正的以色列後裔

We are the Israelites, according to the Bible

我們是上帝的子民，據聖經說

The children of Israel

身為以色列後裔的我們

He's gonna punish us for our iniquities, for our disobedience

會因為我們的罪孽與不服從，而遭到祂的懲罰

Because we chose to follow other gods

因為在過去我們選擇追隨其他神

That man chastens his son, so the Lord, thy God, chasten thee

上帝磨練祂的兒子，所以神也會磨練我們

So, just like you chasten your own son, He's gonna chasten you

就像你身為父親會懲治自己的兒子一樣，祂也將懲治你

Because He loves you, so that's why we get chastised

因為祂愛你，所以這就是為什麼我們受到磨難

That's why we're in the position that we're in

這就是為什麼我們位於現在的處境

Until we come back to these laws, statutes, and commandments

直到我們回歸至這些律法、規章及誡命

And do what the Lord says, these curses are gonna be upon us

與遵從上帝的指示之前，否則這些詛咒會一直在我們身上

We're gonna be at a lower state in this life that we live

我們一生將會活在比現在更糟糕的處境

Here, in today, in the United States of America

就在此時、此地——就在美利堅合眾國

I love you, family, and I pray for you

我愛你，家人，我會為你祈禱

God bless you

上帝保佑你

Shalom

願一切安好

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*¹：有個小雙關，talking back除了“回嘴”，也有“倒著說話”的意思，也就是上面那些倒放的句子（同時也暗示這張專輯最重要的“動作”：倒放）除了用Kendrick的母親——也就是Paula的語氣警告小Kendrick別回嘴、也是調侃前面那些對神的抱怨。

*²：指Kendrick家為了達到政府補助的標準，營造出“單親媽媽獨力撫養小孩”的樣子給社工審核（爸爸只能偷偷回家）。

*³：Life's a bitch意指生活過得很苦但還是要過，乾脆“Fuck it”管他的，人都生下來了、褲子都脫下來了，照樣繼續下去。這裡也出自Nas的同名歌曲。

*⁴：candy house是指社區內販毒的地方。

*⁵：指美國加州兩大暴力幫派：瘸幫與血幫，該地幫派的服飾有dress code，前者是藍色、後者是紅色，如果衣服顏色不對、被誤認是敵對勢力，就有可能會被殺害。

*⁶：出自聖經，約伯受到試煉，子女、財富與健康被剝奪。但他一直保持對上帝的虔誠與敬畏（Fear）。

*⁷：Bad Girl是蕾哈娜的綽號，而該歌詞是指2015年，蕾哈娜曾經對她的會計師提告的案子，由於會計師的失誤而使她在一年內失去九百萬美元（約台幣2.7億）。

*⁸：也可以指自己寫的歌詞被人們斷章取義，比如BLOOD.中所演示，福斯新聞台曲解Kendrick歌詞的評論。

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　　這首歌解開上面11首所有的伏筆與問題，資訊量相當龐大，大家可能需要消化一下。這首歌可以分成Kendrick人生的三個時期。80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDo4Nu7JH0f

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　　7歲：害怕媽媽（實際上是貧困的生活）。以Kendrick的母親（Paula女士）的視角說話，動輒被媽媽打罵的童年生活。這裡並不是要批判體罰，歌詞也有提到母親為家庭拮据的經濟狀況的掙扎與苦難。那是處在那種環境、那種時代下實在不得不如此教育孩子的無奈。80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Inq5J1DyW

　　17歲：害怕被殺。Kendrick的年少時期也是家鄉康普頓幫派暴力最為猖獗的時期，非裔青少年的死亡率相當高，這裡也暗示他年少輕狂時做過很多遊走在法律邊緣的事，歌詞也列舉17種可能在17歲死去的方式。80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWOiEl32e8

　　27歲：害怕失去一切。雖然音樂事業讓他功成名就，卻也受到世人放大審視、也害怕身為藝術家的自己會失去創意，顧慮變得太多，心理健康也出現問題。80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY9O1IYXlH

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　　人生一系列的苦難與恐懼，使他心生不滿，所以表親Carl Duckworth登場，為他指示一條靈性上的道路。這裡就要講到Hebrew Israelites，這是由非裔、拉丁裔與美國原住民等有色人種組成的新宗教運動，他們認為自身所屬的族群是以色列十二支派中失蹤的支派之一，用以解釋為什麼少數族裔在歷史上受到許多不公待遇、以及要擁抱這些自己身為真正上帝子民的身份，才能減輕受到的懲罰。80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyQhOK2jKM

　　聽起來可能很牽強？我認為那僅僅是靈性上的比喻，並不代表真正如此。凡是人類的制度、科學之中，無法救濟到人類的苦難（例如人生於世難以避免的痛苦與死亡），那人心就永遠有一個位置是給予宗教的。80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyDWFQIsca

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　　所以才叫“FEAR.”，時時刻刻提醒Kendrick要敬畏神，要好好認清自己，所以下一首他就實實在在地皈依心中的神（GOD.）。80Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdI2UoKNy1

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21/08/2024（“Kendrick Lamar - FEAR.”歌詞翻譯）

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