如今我旅居美國已經有很長時間了，我很慶幸我能夠有機會旅居在美國從而獲得真正的自由，儘管在那時候對於離開那裏依舊有著糾結，但是我依舊選擇了離開。
Now that I have been living in the United States for a long time, I am fortunate that I have the opportunity to live in the United States and get real freedom. Although I was still entangled in leaving at that time, I still chose to leave.
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成功其實就是個漸行漸遠的過程，離原來的環境越來越遠，發覺更加廣闊的世界和更加多的機遇。
Success is actually a gradual process, getting farther and farther from the original environment, and discovering a wider world and more opportunities.
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那麽你可能就會問了，為什麼你的標題會有“解放”這個字眼，而解放這個字的意味又是什麼？
Then you may ask, why does your title have the word "liberation", and what does the word liberation mean?
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這裏就詳細談談我經歷中的那些事情給我的感想，就拿我印象最深的兩件事情來作為例子。
Here I will talk about the feelings of those things in my experience in detail, and take the two things that impress me the most as examples.
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這兩件事情都發生在我的幼年時光當中，一件我曾有提及，另一件我卻從未說過不過現在我就可以告訴大家。
Both of these things happened in my childhood. One thing I mentioned, the other one I never said, but now I can tell you.
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將時間倒回剛剛搬家前往南京的那一年，這是一段在我看來覺得很恥辱的往事，那時候我的生活可謂是非常混亂，我都不知道自己究竟該何去何從。
Rewinding the time back to the year I just moved to Nanjing, this was a shameful past in my opinion. At that time, my life was very chaotic. I did n’t know where I should go.
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那是一種被控制著的生活，沒有自己的思想沒有自己的主見，就像一件物品一樣，這便是我那時候曾經有過的生活。
It was a life under control. Without my own thoughts and my own ideas, it was like an object. This is the life I once had.
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我不被奶奶允許自己做很多事情，連上幼兒園都不被允許走著過去，也正是因為暫時不能夠得到獨立因此那時候我在幼兒園的人際關係很糟糕。
I was not allowed to do many things by my grandmother. Even when I was in kindergarten, I was not allowed to walk in the past. It was because I was temporarily unable to gain independence. At that time, my interpersonal relationship in kindergarten was very bad.
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因為人只有獨立了才能感受到真正的開心自在，才能夠感受到大千世界的美麗以及成就帶來的歡樂，感受到獨立思想帶來的欣喜，這些都不是控制下所能得到的。
Because people can feel real happiness and freedom only when they are independent, can they feel the beauty of the great world and the joy brought by their achievements, and the joy brought by independent thinking, which is not what they can get under control.
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也正是因為如此我的人生中就有一段時間缺失了很多東西，因此我被同伴孤立因此我被排擠被歧視，因為控制我曾什麼都不會也沒有過正常的童年生活。
It is because of this that I have missed a lot of things in my life for a period of time, so I was isolated by my peers so I was excluded and discriminated against because I controlled nothing I had and did not live a normal childhood life.
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這樣的生活是很可悲的，什麼也不懂什麼也不會，甚至連畫都沒怎麽畫過，也沒怎麽同朋友玩過，每天的生活就是圍繞著奶奶轉。
This kind of life is very sad. I do n’t know anything, I do n’t even know how to paint, and I have n’t even played with my friends. My daily life revolves around grandma.
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我的生活並不健康，那時的我就像一個巨嬰一樣永恆不變除非我脫離她的控制，那時候我的媽媽也沒少為了我的未來擔憂，因此我覺得我欠媽媽一聲抱歉。
My life was unhealthy. At that time, I was like a giant baby forever, unless I was out of her control. At that time, my mother did not worry about my future, so I felt that I owe my mother to apologize.
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奶奶的負面價值觀讓我變的不可理喻，變得任性變得性情很差，她心中其實並不真正的在乎我，她只在乎她自己的個人利益。
My grandmother ’s negative values made me unreasonable and became self-willed and bad-tempered. In fact, she did n’t really care about me in her heart, she only cared about her own personal interests.
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那些時候我並不明白我媽媽的用意，而當我明白這些是時候我便同奶奶反目成仇，直到我奪回那些遲到的東西時仇恨才瓦解。
At that time, I didn't understand my mother's intentions, and when I understood these times, I turned against my grandmother, and the hatred did not break until I recaptured those late arrivals.
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也正是因為這樣，如今我對於奶奶就有著很強的忌諱，雖然我們沒有任何仇恨沒有任何糾葛，但是這種忌諱卻是一生都會存在的。
Because of this, I now have a strong taboo against grandma. Although we do n’t have any hatred or entanglement, this taboo will exist for life.
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而當我剛剛得到獨立和解放的時候，我第一次見到了自由的世界最開始也有過一種不知所措的感覺，我需要重新適應世界上的很多東西。
When I first became independent and emancipated, I first saw the free world. I also felt overwhelmed at first. I needed to adapt to many things in the world.
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就例如世界上真正的規則，這些我之前從未瞭解的東西，我第一次被教導去思考問題去遵循這些規則。
For example, the real rules in the world, things that I have never understood before, I was taught for the first time to think about problems and follow these rules.
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這個過程會有些痛苦，不過若是不能夠遵循這些規則我就將會走上父親的老路，因為不瞭解世界的規則不能思考最終也辦不成一番大事。
This process will be a bit painful, but if I can't follow these rules, I will go on my father's way, because I can't think about the rules of the world without thinking about it, and it won't be a big deal.
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因為他早已經習慣了這種巨嬰一樣的思維模式，覺得世界都應該是圍繞著他來運行的，他做的一切都是完全正確的，就像武志紅先生撰寫的《巨嬰國》裏面說的那樣。
Because he has long been accustomed to this giant baby-like thinking model, and feels that the world should run around him, everything he does is completely correct, just like in the "Great Baby Kingdom" written by Mr. Wu Zhihong Said that.
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“大部分人的思想水平還停留在嬰兒時期，大部分人都還在找媽媽，而很少有人能夠實現真正的獨立解放”這就是那本書所描繪的現實。
"Most people's thinking level is still in infancy, most people are still looking for mothers, and few people can achieve true independent liberation." This is the reality depicted in that book.
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不過幸運的是，我並沒有受到這種塗毒很深因此還有機會解脫並洗滌剩餘的塗毒。
Fortunately, I did not suffer from this kind of poisoning so I had the opportunity to release and wash the remaining poison.
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所以當我獲得這樣的解放後我便開始積極尋找到一份屬於自己的價值，於是在9歲那年的夏天我來到了南京湯山附近的砲兵學院接受了軍事訓練。
So when I got this kind of liberation, I began to actively find my own value, so in the summer of 9 years old, I came to Nanjing Artillery Academy near Tangshan to receive military training.
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我在那訓練了七天，這些天我收穫了友誼也發覺了自己應有的價值，我感到很充實也找到了自己心目中的憧憬，那一次我真正發覺了我獲得了真正的獨立解放。
I have been training there for seven days. These days I have gained friendship and realized the value I deserve. I feel very fulfilled and found the vision in my mind. That time I really realized that I had achieved true independence and liberation.
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雖然很辛苦，但是卻從中發現了自己的優勢，也從中體會到了真正的快樂，那是我之前都前所未有的收穫。
Although it is very hard, but I have discovered my own advantages from it, and also realized the real happiness from it, which is what I have never experienced before.
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我第一次發覺了獨立的快樂，第一次發覺了自己真實需要的東西，從那天開始我的思考便得到了第一次巨大的改寫。
For the first time, I realized the joy of independence. For the first time, I realized what I really needed. Since that day, my thinking has been rewritten for the first time.
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直到現在這些對於我來說依舊是難以忘懷的事情，在那片曾經的工業都市中發生的一件事情，那時候短暫但是又額外光明的陽光照耀著我。
Until now, these things are still unforgettable for me. One thing happened in the former industrial city. At that time, the short but extra bright sunlight shone on me.
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雖然後來也面對過黑暗，不過也正是那一次發覺了自己的獨立解放，我才能夠有勇氣繼續面對著之後的黑暗，直到我找到那份永久的陽光。
Although I also faced darkness later, it was also that time when I realized my independence and liberation, I was able to have the courage to continue to face the darkness afterwards until I found the eternal sunshine.
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“當一些人幾十年後才開始思考的時候，一些人很早就已經有所思考和總結了”
"When some people began to think decades later, some people have already thought and summarized for a long time"
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就像我之前提及過的，我的父親正是因為被控制久了因此就喪失了思考的能力和體會獨立解放的時機。
As I mentioned before, my father lost his ability to think and experience the opportunity of independence and liberation because he was controlled for a long time.
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不能說他的能力不行，而是在多數問題上他做的事情其實不多，但是卻又是最喜歡指使他人做事的人。
It cannot be said that his ability is not good, but on most issues he does not actually do much, but he is the person who likes to instruct others to do things the most.
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一直以來很多關鍵的事情都是我媽媽在做，往往這個時候我父親都是最膽小最慌亂的那一個，因為他根本就沒有思想底蘊去面對這些事情。
My mom has been doing a lot of key things all the time. My father is often the most timid and panicky at this time, because he has no ideological background to face these things.
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他永遠都在尋找媽媽般的溫情，他從未想過去改寫自己的人生去換一個新的起點去思考，這也是為什麼父親的人生會這麽混亂，如果不是遇見我的媽媽那麽他就會是一個徹徹底底的失敗者!
He is always looking for mother-like warmth. He never thought of rewriting his life in the past to change a new starting point to think. This is why his father ’s life would be so chaotic. If it was not for meeting my mother, he would be a Outright loser!
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但是辯證的説，我的父親也算是一個可憐的人，如果他沒有和奶奶在一起那麽他將是另外一個不同的人，也許他就會辦成一番大事。
But dialectically, my father is also a poor person. If he is not with my grandmother then he will be a different person, maybe he will do a big deal.
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但是最終他還是落成了現在這番爛攤子，如果不是我媽媽的戰鬥和拼搏他也只能做一個窮人，因為他的思想依舊停留在很原始的水平。
But in the end, he still ended up in this mess. If it were n’t for my mother ’s fighting and fighting, he could only be a poor man, because his thoughts remained at a very primitive level.
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和我的奶奶一樣他最終喪失了繼續前進的本能，只能在原本的思想水平上一直停涕不前，而我的奶奶就是不進則退。
Like my grandmother, he eventually lost his instinct to move on, and he could only stop at the original level of thought, and my grandmother would just retreat if he didn't advance.
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但是不管他們怎麽樣，只要我得到了永久的陽光和獨立解放我就能夠通往成功，畢竟我抓住了這個大好的契機。
But no matter what they do, as long as I get permanent sunshine and independence, I will be able to lead to success. After all, I have seized this great opportunity.
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