他的故事發生在常州市，一個中國最出名的旅遊城市，但是我們的故事也曾發生在一個相同的地方那就是哈爾濱。
His story happened in Changzhou, one of China's most famous tourist cities, but our story happened in the same place that was Harbin.
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他是我一直以來的密友，就像我先前說過的那樣他是唯一一個被允許深度瞭解我的人，也是我最信得過的“親信”
He is my close friend all the time. As I said before, he is the only one who is allowed to know me in depth, and the most trusted "family"
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如今我最終旅居在了美國，他去了他的法國尋找到了他的自由，總之我們到最後都離開了那個最希望逃離的環境，我們對那裏其實愛恨交集。
Now that I have finally lived in the United States, he went to his France to find his freedom. In short, we all left the environment where we most wanted to escape. We actually love and hate there.
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當我們在南京和常州彼此會面的時候，我們晚上可以出去吃頓宵夜或者喝些酒談談彼此的故事，一些時候我們會去高端的商場一些時候我們就待在舊區的某個地方。
When we meet each other in Nanjing and Changzhou, we can go out for a midnight snack or drink some wine to talk about each other's stories. Sometimes we will go to high-end shopping malls and sometimes we will stay somewhere in the old district.
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只是如今無論是在南京還是常州，很多的舊區要麽拆遷了要麽很難找到了。
However, no matter whether it is in Nanjing or Changzhou, many old areas are either demolished or difficult to find.
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對於我們來說舊區是一片我們彼此都非常熟悉的地方，一片我們共同的心靈寄託。
For us, the old district is a place where we are very familiar with each other, a piece of our common soul sustenance.
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一些時候我們在那些小商店內買些熟悉的零食，或者在那些舊區的攤位前買些街頭小吃，又或者是去巷弄中的餐館吃上一頓實惠的飯菜。
Sometimes we buy some familiar snacks in those small shops, or buy some street snacks in front of the stalls in the old district, or go to the restaurants in the alleys to eat an affordable meal.
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在餐館我們會談論很多深奧的話題，彼此交流著彼此總結出來的那些感想和心得，畢竟我們同樣都是很早就開始思考和領悟的人。
In the restaurant, we will talk about a lot of esoteric topics, and exchange the feelings and experiences summed up by each other. After all, we are also people who have begun to think and understand very early.
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他是一個身材看上去有些瘦小的人，個子不高，性格比較孤僻，但是非常有毅力，也非常真誠。
He is a thin-looking person, not tall, and has a lonely personality, but he is very persistent and sincere.
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他非常知道如何為自己做出最正確的抉擇，他從未想過結婚也從未想過做那些常人做的事情，他希望成為一個最高尚的人。
He knows how to make the right choice for himself. He has never thought about getting married or doing what ordinary people do. He wants to be a noble person.
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他從不計較別人對他的稱呼，他一心一意就只想著做自己想做的事情，實現他自己原本的價值
He never cares about what other people call him, and he only wants to do what he wants. Love to realize his original value
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我在去往美國之後和他的關係便開始急劇升溫，最終他就成為了我最信得過的“親信”，我也因此從他那裏瞭解了很多東西。
After I went to the United States, my relationship with him began to heat up sharply. Eventually, he became the most trusted "family", and I learned a lot from him.
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而他提及的很多東西當我聽到之後就迅速回想起了此前一直壓抑著的很多感想。
When I heard many of the things he mentioned, I quickly recalled the many feelings I had suppressed.
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他說過他在上小學的時候就因為沒有南方省份的身份而遭遇地域歧視，他經常遭到無理由的體罰和不公正的對待。
He said that when he was in elementary school, he suffered geographical discrimination because he did not have the identity of a southern province. He was often subjected to unjustified corporal punishment and unfair treatment.
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這些不禁也令我回想起曾經那些相似的經歷，我同樣遭受著非常侮辱人格的歧視，卻因為家庭內部的戰爭而無處可以依靠，就只能靠自己想方設法的去思索。
These can't help but remind me of those similar experiences. I also suffered from discrimination that was very insulting to my personality. But because there was nowhere to rely on because of the war in the family, I had to think about it by myself.
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其中給我印象最為深刻的就是他談到他對於儒教的看法，這著實引起了我的好奇而當我後續知道了那些隱藏的故事後，這些著實改寫了我的思考方向。
What impressed me the most is that he talked about his views on Confucianism, which really aroused my curiosity and when I later learned about the hidden stories, these really changed my thinking direction.
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他告訴我，在他小學的時候他就被那愚昧的家人送進了非法的偽國學班，在那裏他想方設法的希望走出去，他每天都生活在恐懼和暴力的陰影下。
He told me that when he was in elementary school, he was sent to the illegal pseudo-Sinology class by his ignorant family, where he tried every way to go out, and he lived in the shadow of fear and violence every day.
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“這些讓我蒙受羞辱，我時刻都想著早點離開那，那愚昧的家人讓我恨之入骨，我希望能夠徹底離開這個陰暗的地方!”-劉振漢
"These made me humiliated. I always wanted to leave there early. The ignorant family made me hate it. I hope to be able to leave this dark place completely!"-Liu Zhenhan
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幸運的是如今他早已留學法國，不過每當他回想起那段舊夢的時候他都感到膽戰心驚。
Fortunately, he has already studied in France now, but whenever he thinks back to that old dream, he feels terrified.
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“我一些時候做夢依舊會夢見這樣的場景，生活在那種恐怖陰鬱的環境當中，遠離大千世界被控制被封閉，不能有自己的思想就像一個奴隸一樣生活著”-劉振漢
"Sometimes when I dream, I still dream of such a scene, living in that horrible and gloomy environment, far away from the world, being controlled and closed, I can't have my own mind and live like a slave"-Liu Zhenhan
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這樣類似的的回憶也同樣存在於我的腦海當中，我很早就看到過電視廣告宣傳那些的資訊，我很早就有過對那些事物的恐懼我害怕家人將自己送往那些地方，所以很多事情很多需求我都想辦法去壓制。
Such similar memories also exist in my mind. I have seen TV commercials promoting the information for a long time. I have had a fear of those things for a long time. I am afraid that my family will send myself to those places, so I have tried to suppress many things and needs.
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不過幸運的是我沒有被送往這些地方，我依舊是獨立解放的個人，唯獨在奶奶控制下的那段故事讓我至今都會覺得膽戰心驚。
Fortunately, I was not sent to these places. I am still an independent and liberated individual. The story under the control of my grandmother makes me feel terrified.
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這些就和我在上一個篇章中說過的那樣，和我的這位密友經歷過的事情很像除了方式不同，但是都是控制和打壓獨立解放思想。
These are the same as what I said in the last chapter, and what my close friend has experienced is very similar except that the way is different, but they all control and suppress independent emancipating the mind.
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這些事情讓他變得非常激進，他從此就不斷的瞭解和搜尋這類訊息，他無時無刻都無法忘記那些仇恨。
These things made him very radical, he has been constantly learning and searching for such information, and he can't forget those hatreds all the time.
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而對我來說，仇恨早已經沒有任何價值可言，它的短期正面效應已經過去。
For me, hatred has no value at all, and its short-term positive effects have passed.
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