世嬅在貴和宮一跪,便跪了十多天。109Please respect copyright.PENANAWtySI6jr3y
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九個多月的身子,也不知她是怎麼做到的,竟然每天都實實在在地跪滿一個時辰,沒有給貴和宮落下甚麼話柄。109Please respect copyright.PENANAkYa7wQVNah
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剛玉對此很是不滿,好幾次想要拉著世嬅去找蓉妃,讓她到聖駕前陳情,哪有叫太子妃每日罰跪的,若是把皇孫跪出個好歹來,就算是程貴妃亦沒有那麼容易把事情擺平。109Please respect copyright.PENANAABXorWlxdy
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但每一次皆被世嬅制止了。沒讓她到隆亨宮,或是在聖上面前多說甚麼。109Please respect copyright.PENANAQP0AfWvZi1
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世嬅是有意的,或者該說,她尚在猶豫。109Please respect copyright.PENANAzMsO2HcBmY
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無論被父親勸說了多少遍,自己又在心裡頭立下幾多次誓願,世嬅仍是沒有辦法把姨母完全視為仇敵。109Please respect copyright.PENANAb9c7hDyuo1
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姨母確是有私心的,想讓祈原正位東宮,也利用了她,把其嫁入東宮當細作。109Please respect copyright.PENANAszceV7XtjJ
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但是,單靠這些就能把姨母視作十惡不赦的人嗎?109Please respect copyright.PENANAagoKUPsfoC
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在和父親那次深談之後,世嬅又反思了許多東西。事情走到今天這個境地,聖上縱有諸多考量,不管他說甚麼國家大義,亦無法否定一件事:他犧牲了敏兒。109Please respect copyright.PENANAi13sAmh28Z
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而姨母,難道就不能心疼她的女兒?不能覺得忿忿不平,想要遷怒東宮嗎?109Please respect copyright.PENANAd2D9IvG8tM
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這一切皆是人之常情,只不過因為她們所站的立場不同,才產生了這許許多多的矛盾。109Please respect copyright.PENANAl9t8xHNvKv
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每每想到這點,世嬅就沒法把姨母視作仇敵。109Please respect copyright.PENANAfrw7seEKZb
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程貴妃娘娘是跟她說過很多狠話,甚至還曾經給她熬過湯藥,差點兒就把皇孫給扼殺了。但事實就是,孩子還好好的揣在世嬅腹中,差不多就要足月了。109Please respect copyright.PENANAGm7DlD2dmH
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再退一萬步來說,姨母真要狠心謀奪東宮之位,那麼在靜德娘娘薨逝以後,太子尚未成人而驃騎大將軍遠在邊疆之時,難道她就真的沒有下手的機會嗎?109Please respect copyright.PENANAFhl878JREr
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怎麼就讓承一長大成人,成了能跟她分庭抗禮的太子殿下了呢?109Please respect copyright.PENANA0lQ2AbCHU6
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當中,難道就沒有她的手下留情和不忍嗎?109Please respect copyright.PENANANYMOUsdQFi
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每當世嬅下定決心要起而與姨母對抗之時,在心底深處,總會有一把聲音提醒著她這些。109Please respect copyright.PENANA8DK5bpjKFb
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如果姨母確是個壞人,那事情還好辦許多⋯⋯世嬅只要全心全意的恨她,放膽去幹就好。109Please respect copyright.PENANAhQk1xNHr6b
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然而,善惡黑白並不永遠那麼分明。109Please respect copyright.PENANA5XQ1ruveYS
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每當世嬅考慮著自己若遭遇不測,該要把孩子托付給誰的時候,總會想起她的母親。109Please respect copyright.PENANAWkY6XSGqxo
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母親當年是懷著怎樣的心情,把她托付給姨母的呢?除了因為姨母聖眷正隆外,會不會也因為她知道自己的長姊是個可堪托付的人?109Please respect copyright.PENANAOfbrOtcFlt
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姨母絕不是個聖人,從來沒有做到把太子甚或是世嬅視如己出,但她也沒有表面看來那般不仁。109Please respect copyright.PENANA2RTyEaBR3l
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她的強勢是必須的,要在後宮中生存下來,把一兒兩女養育成人,從來就不是件易事。109Please respect copyright.PENANAKpfCrFePIb
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說句大不敬的話,靜德娘娘就沒有做到這點。109Please respect copyright.PENANAvmQjSll83Q
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如果換作世嬅是她母親,大概也願意把孩子交托到程貴妃娘娘的手裡。109Please respect copyright.PENANA7A7Y9MiEva
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但即便強勢如此,姨母還是沒有辦法保住自己女兒的幸福。109Please respect copyright.PENANAuSVWiPSmSy
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其實認真細想起來,那時姨母大病初癒,負氣說聖上不惜犧牲敏兒來攻打大宛,所有苦心經營的一切,最終只會便宜了太子和皇孫,這些話並沒有說錯。109Please respect copyright.PENANAWuHhw3wGV9
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聖上可以隨便把寵愛有加的敏兒當作犧牲品,但敏兒卻是姨母的心頭肉啊,如果有人要用她女兒的終身去換甚麼勞什子國家大義,世嬅也不可能那麼輕易的擺擺手就讓事情過去了。109Please respect copyright.PENANA2spAECzcXr
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而就算是到了現在,東宮和貴和宮暗地裡鬥成了水火不容的形勢,姨母也不過是讓她到寢宮中罰跪,雖說是苦,卻不是要人命的。109Please respect copyright.PENANAImZErEtZkL
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人心,是很複雜矛盾且搖擺不定的。109Please respect copyright.PENANAu0rdaWTLE5
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或者在姨母心中也有著許多掙扎吧?恨太子,也恨她這個姨甥女的不聽話和背叛,卻又沒法真的狠下心來把他們的孩子殺掉。109Please respect copyright.PENANADognSqc2mA
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那又是怎樣的一番滋味?109Please respect copyright.PENANAEZd4ykW0J8
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以聖上消息靈通的程度,世嬅絕不相信,他會對姨母的處罰一無所知。109Please respect copyright.PENANAuv0WwZuvOD
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他默不作聲,不是因為不在意皇孫,而是因為他很清楚姨母是個怎樣的人。109Please respect copyright.PENANAK8Ah2A1lTo
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更何況,護著世嬅讓其長大的人,確是姨母啊。或者正因此,才讓世嬅心裡存著愧疚,沒有多說甚麼,只每天乖乖到貴和宮去,讓跪就跪,要罰便罰。
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如果這樣能讓姨母消氣的話,或者她的孩子就能平安一些;而順天朝亦能免去一場大風雨。109Please respect copyright.PENANA9lGRMrkN6N
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這天是八月十四,中秋佳節的前夕。人月兩團圓的日子,卻不知她的良人,如今身在何處。109Please respect copyright.PENANAz77xlxt0Gv
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世嬅跟剛玉前往榮昌宮上香後,便一同到了貴和宮。109Please respect copyright.PENANAlqOw4VM6mv
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上至各宮娘娘,下至低階宮娥,人人早已換上秋裝。時近中秋,宮娥更是統一的披上了如落葉般澄黃的宮裝,滿宮秋色,煞是好看。109Please respect copyright.PENANAxa307Lrijh
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待於正殿行了禮,世嬅便直接往後頭走去,準備到姨母的寢宮罰跪去。
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卻沒想到,竟在途中遇上了五公主凌欣弦。
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說起來,世嬅已有很久沒見到欣兒了。
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自敏兒出事之後,姨母就把欣兒牢牢守著,上次宮裡傳出了姨母色衰愛馳的傳言,欣兒發了好大一頓脾氣,姨母便不再讓她隨意踏出秀緻宮。甚至連眾人到貴和宮請安時,也不見她的蹤影。
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世嬅沒料到,今日竟會遇見她,「五公主好。」率先開口打招呼。
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欣弦的腳步一頓,竟也屈膝為禮:「見過皇嫂。」又站在原地等著世嬅走近。109Please respect copyright.PENANAiCJ6exnjKB
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世嬅不無意外的眨了眨眼,自嫁入東宮以來,欣弦就沒有給過她好臉色,更別說是像今天這樣規規矩矩的行禮了。109Please respect copyright.PENANAAoypjnLwCP
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她來到欣弦身前停下,「有好一陣子沒見到五公主了,殿下別來無恙嗎?」109Please respect copyright.PENANAHjyaagIypz
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「欣兒一切安好,皇嫂呢?」說的話大方得體。109Please respect copyright.PENANAFwD1MzD2P8
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「好,都很好。」世嬅微笑著答了,然後兩人便沉默不語的瞅著對方。109Please respect copyright.PENANAnc8irn14BF
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好半晌後,見欣弦還是沒有打算說話,世嬅只得揚起嘴角道:「公主安好就好,我還得趕去給娘娘請安呢。」說著便邁步,繞過欣弦繼續往前走。
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直到兩人錯身而過之時,欣弦才突然出手,一把抓住世嬅的手肘。
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采露驚呼了聲,就怕欣弦是要出手傷人,忙伸手去攔:「五公主殿下⋯⋯」109Please respect copyright.PENANAP12Cr8UTbT
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欣弦不耐煩地瞪了采露一眼。這一眼,倒是有點像她平常的樣子,「妳們不用像是防賊似的,難道本公主還會傷害太子妃嗎?」
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不知怎的,聽她這樣說話,世嬅的心反而定了下來,平靜地垂下頭來,看向自己被抓住的手肘。
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她認識的欣弦,就該是這個樣子的。109Please respect copyright.PENANAoNHHvISBWe
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「公主別惱,是她們大驚小怪了。」世嬅安撫的道,又追問:「公主可是有話要跟我說?」
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不知怎的,欣弦氣一窒,才剛撐起的氣勢立刻洩了下去,「我、我才沒有話要跟妳說⋯⋯」
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世嬅輕挑柳眉,揚起嘴角。
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「啊?我倒是想起來了有些話想跟五公主談談。不知公主能不能陪我一同走去娘娘的寢宮呢?」
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欣弦不無訝異的瞅了世嬅一眼,卻也不再猶豫,微仰著下巴,不失驕傲的道:「好吧,那本公主就陪妳走一趟吧。」說完隨即轉回過身來,挽著世嬅向前走,又粗聲喝住東宮的人:「妳們貼這麼緊幹甚麼?還怕我把妳們家主子給偷了嗎?」
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世嬅聞言輕笑,空出來的那隻手悄悄從後揮了揮,讓東宮的人後退兩步。
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她們倆也有許久沒這樣挽著手走路了。
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上一次又是甚麼時候呢?是聖上賜婚之前嗎?
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世嬅其實也沒甚麼事情得跟欣弦說,就只是靜靜走著,等待這個小表妹準備好。109Please respect copyright.PENANAViWcXVtYMG
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過不了多久,欣弦終於掙扎著開了口:「妳知道,母妃想把我盡快嫁進張家嗎?」
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世嬅眼望前方,搖搖頭,只問:「是定好日子了嗎?」109Please respect copyright.PENANARRsQHmgfKK
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作者有話說:
或者每個故事都有其立意。除了想寫一本讀者會願意一再重讀的小說外,小的在構想這個故事時,心中想著的就是以下這兩點:
「然而,善惡黑白並不永遠那麼分明。」
「人心,是很複雜矛盾且搖擺不定的。」
終於透過世嬅的內心獨白和思考寫了出來。人的立場,可以決定很多事情;而善惡黑白分明的故事也太不夠意思了。我想寫的,就是這樣的一個故事吧?希望能夠好好呈現出來。109Please respect copyright.PENANA4xFCj7g8J4
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又,如果說故事人物亦有屬於自己的MBTI,世嬅的應該會是INFJ?同理心之強,也不是人人能做到的。109Please respect copyright.PENANApfe2xRbubw
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