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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeUGyfv8Ud
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Of course I see her.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUoyB4t6VM
I always see her.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6RR5eRue5
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ifDLIumFV
Damn it.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmDw7beKzZ
I need to stop looking at her. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9D7Wa25uM
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgsxQ2tEIu
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOgz32sQhx
Damn it.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIZvDA6yjy
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthm62ammVo
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC03gf9M7VQ
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ512Pr0rFgR
But I fucked it up. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMX3nSUurEt
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Of course I fucked it up.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVQfpZDq60
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuVgv7zjM8
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbWyy89NG7
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCQlcEKqQQ
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GVIfZ26lC
Can lips be sexy?736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDL1ueexeN6
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9Yp1aNics
I need her. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJh8J5Huot
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HrgQ03Usv
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFCrUA5J4N
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36BEWZDuuh
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB45FgF25MX
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnYAQ1tTFV
Even her.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwi3DaB9UDc
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Jga06XiSD
I feel something strange as I lay down...736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZRHMwz540
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5bFCSryQW
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMizrd2KHcq
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxTTc5UgCJ
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AW5XpyQ8k
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9YZNtePfA
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzDc01rtD9
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfy2nybOcf
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GlhRBKvil
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ351hiGzaPE
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq0hVA92gU
It's not. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFX84lgBuL
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLIt1GWViE
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlUSsR7C7G
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWQxhjYMa1
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe42lCiKGjv
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyAbXqJe1D
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlSiV6FEuq
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHXoeU7uxc
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVIjpiJdyR
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQqkm6nvnW
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaD8qTI0lX
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFwVYHHD4Y
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAmH0zk9jW
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnz3fYANFeU
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOPLZYNgMn
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROxqLoGm2E
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOyZgV5J33
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJS7j8rHQA
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BmvjwmzyW
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSw4lKeQPR
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0nWBHOhN8
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35igp5VyyX
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbubumwDXU
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZnrZXMXmA
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcfqZ1vSgf
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9i17lZS8bf
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOiaBA9sXR
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx59pNGJ7wU
I missed everything about her.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNq5fPmMzEg
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfZcTYCyVN
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzXqyqOmyk
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ767iR05AUK
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4E7X5juqY
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvyuKwwfKU
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSQe1PjXbi
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycj19LOiLk
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hF5NZs9V2
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPG5rURCx6z
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zZXJNeHZJ
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lJ4jev9k8
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlkomKQLlA
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGWslqhlPe
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyIItYzmKw
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3cPOIKLfM
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzF4vuEjxO
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjNfanUq7P
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnIzgeTSXP
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh81hW2w0mo
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKg0lI0MtO
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKen82snLw
Shit. This is bad. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX0u9ErgQA
Faking it is going to be so hard. 736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgR65l1l46w
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0c2lFtiEA
I am so fucked.
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