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She doesn't believe me.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMQ2kGyfaE
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Of course she doesn't. Why would she? She sees me as a womanizing man-whore, which isn't completely untrue. But she doesn't know the truth.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZN6tgoLCDq
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No one does. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4z3jj0wiI
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I plan to keep it that way. It's not like the truth would make anything better. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcIrSxSZPR
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Well, not until now. Not until her.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oWtTxj9zW
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But this is a fake relationship, so there's no need to come clean.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrBD9HaHow
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She's not with me because she wants to be, she's with me because I'm an end to a means. Shit, that isn't right. I'm a means to an end. There we go.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiE20VPTsJ
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Thank god I didn't say that out loud. She would have had my balls for that slip up.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXJG5nYWGb
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I will have to make her see that I am not the guy she thinks I am. I can show her, just to prove a point, of course. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pJydGMWey
She obviously doesn't want to be with me for real. She's made it very clear that this is fake. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tx28PUhDU
"Okay, we got off track a bit. Let's see, one was me not dating. Two was us not liking each other. And three was what again?" We blew through the first two pretty easily, I'm fairly confident the last one won't be that hard either.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIFYicbPXq
"We have barely even looked at each other in the past month, so why would we suddenly start dating now?" Since I met her, I could barely stop myself from staring at her. Guess she wasn't looking at me, though. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1STrX4oqMN
"Okay, well... for starters, that's completely untrue." At least on my part. "Besides, plenty of people start dating while barely knowing each other." 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJDLaGOIMO
"What's untrue, exactly?" All of your little reasons.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡektPVMdCY0
"I definitely looked at you." Every second I was near you.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnsinIIWfq
"Okay, I didn't mean literally. I just mean, we haven't talked. We could barely stand to be in the same room together. So what changed?" She sounds annoyed. Shit. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQRLyaOIrG
"Well... You know... maybe the reason we couldn't stand to be in the same room together is because of our strong desire to be together, but we thought we couldn't be, so we avoided each other." Oh shoot. I didn't mean to be quite that honest.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JNfwwpXhU
"Okay, maybe for me, but no one is going to believe that for you." If only she knew...702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkvb2BDENX
"Sure they will. The guys teased me constantly for staring at you, so they will totally believe I was just pining after you." I immediately regret the words as soon as I say them. She's not going to believe me anyway and I sound like a total pussy.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgO7rBjJFi
I wait for her retort, but I hear nothing but a sharp intake of breath. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6k7OwWciG
I feel her nose brush against mine. She must have leaned forward accidentally... 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVJZpgqXgI
But then her lips meet mine. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92GlbABHUO
The kiss is soft and delicate, just like her. It's sweet and completely her. It causes something to stir within my chest. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hFtcLujVZ
It makes me want more. And not just sex. I want more of everything. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9KKMEw6Gc
Oh, so much more.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSVL628ky3
Too bad this isn't real. She doesn't really want to be with me.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgxxNvmWlR
Fuck, I can't want more. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGDy8xKybC
She breaks off the kiss. "Oh god, that was dumb. I'm so sorry."702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmD4tZ4KQYi
Why is she apologizing? 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKDVtDtUJL
"That was a good practice kiss." I try to reassure her, even though it's we killing me that this isn't real. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqny761ZqB
She releases a breath. She must be embarrassed. Shit, she's probably over thinking again. I need to stop her before she dumps my fake ass. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkAuAYzu7y
As much as I hate pretending, not being around her would be so much worse. This past month has been hell. I tried to keep up appearances, flirting around, but my heart wasn't in it. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJk1vqR45x
A part of me kinda hoped it would make her jealous. Yeah, like that would ever happen. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xjDpAIeYd
Just look at her. What does she have to be jealous of? She's fucking perfect.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqR8QH4tAso
Okay, time to distract her. "You know, we are going to have to be convincing, so we need to get used to doing coupley things."702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7LlcZDz0W
"True..." She doesn't sound very convinced.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIzeEXnQP8
"Okay, I think I know what will help." I try to sound less exhausted than I am. She needs reassurance more than I need sleep. "Let's play a game. We need to get to know each other."702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6mCi4ozh4
"It's easy, just tell me something about you and I will tell you something about me." I know it's lame, but I couldn't come up with anything better. My brain is turning to mush from the alcohol and lack of sleep. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsgQb8l6A4
"I think you misused the word 'game'." She giggles. Thank god, crisis averted.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMphR1t2VTY
"Maybe." I laugh with her. "Just tell me something about you."702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLkS881EXM
"No way, your game. You go first." She slaps my arm with the hand I'm not holding. I don't even know why I grabbed it in the first place, it just felt natural, and now I don't want to let go. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqQcV8ofvT
"Okay, give me a second to think." I hope something comes to me because my mind is completely blank.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tNVammesa
"While you think, can I have my hand back?" She tugs her hand, but mine doesn't budge. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkT9n1rqiek
"No way, this hand is mine now." I squeeze it tighter. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQhv4P8iQ2
"I am actually going to need it though." I bring our clutched hands to my face to place a kiss on hers.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7F9aoKQ0V
"Nope. It's mine. You can't have it." She pulls a little harder, but I'm much stronger than she is. She's not getting it back unless I let it go.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHF2cjkroX
"Ow. You're hurting me." I immediately release her hand, just before she begins to laugh.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJSnBLgsHh
"You little liar!" I hop up on my knees, to pin her down with one arm as my other hand tickles her side.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOSQWtXokj
She's squealing and begging me to stop. "Who knew you were so ticklish!" I move up to her armpit, continuing my assault.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHbE6TXSYf
"Stop! Stop! Okay, okay! Let's play your stupid game." Her breathing is heavy as she punches my chest with her little fists. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvz9FkDP9YI
"Okay, Beautiful. Let's play, but..." I grab her hand again, locking our fingers together. "...this is still mine. I let it go under false pretenses."702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIef41hAMl
She groans, but doesn't say anything. Oh right, I'm supposed to go first. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡet6n6oPmVo
Dammit. I really didn't think this through.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rbCuqMfxX
"Uhmm... I think we should change the game slightly. Ask me any question and I will answer honestly. Then you have to answer it too. We can take turns coming up with questions." Oh god, what a huge mistake. What if she asks something I can't answer.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2L68Czv8g9
Shit. Shit. Shit.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYKpACbGxZ
"Okay... Let's start out easy. Tell me about your parents." This could be very bad. Why didn't I think of this?702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS76GbeoRR
"They are pretty typical, you know, just parents." I didn't think she would start off here. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayDGsefCk3
"That's it? Seriously?" She sounds disappointed, but I can't get into the truth.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2XDBRLuvO
"There's really not much to say. My dad runs Alexander-Murphy Enterprises, so he works all the time. My mom is great, but she wants me to get married and it's all she talks about when I see her." There, maybe that will be enough to switch topics. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZncAQHFtcW
"No way! Your dad runs AME? So, you're what like, super rich?" I was used to people referring to it by its acronym, but I didn't expect Kat to be that familiar with the company.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuW1EAOi3x
"I guess. He owns it, well him and Uncle Declan." I've already said way too much, but for some reason I want to be honest with her.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKTvMlNdPT
"Wait... So is Joseph your brother? And Cole?" Shit. I was hoping she didn't know about my family.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcsxxE6Ofb
"No." I blow out a breath. I really didn't want to get into this tonight. "I am Joseph Alexander."702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMqDWH16Mv
"But you go by Ben?" I can't tell if she's more in shock or curious.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4i8bmGQ6p
"Nate and I both decided to use our middle names so we wouldn't be as recognizable." I've always hated my first name anyway. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMjq0N8l6O
"Wait... So... Nate is Declan Murphy Jr.?" Shit, Nate is going to kill me. "You two are New York's most eligible bachelor's? Well, according to People magazine anyway."702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSQIIoFm0k
"Yeah, but please don't say anything to anyone. The reporters will swarm this place if they find out." I can't believe I told her all this. This could really mess everything up. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmOWOtlqxw
"Ben, I would never. I just can't believe you're little Joey. Wow. You really grew up. You were just a little scrawny kid, what happened?" I feel a small victory since I worked so hard for this body, but the memory of the lying, backstabbing bitch is enough to put a pretty big damper on it.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSFnFjw1yZ
"Samantha." I mutter, half to myself. Shit. It slipped out before I could think. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMD4vX9tU5
"Who's Samantha?" She sounds so curious, but I definitely didn't want to get into this tonight.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU82sHN4DT
"No way. You've already asked your question. And you got a ton of information. It's my turn. Tell me about your parents." I just want to talk about something other than me.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzYcyGLoIi
"Well, they are pretty typical, you know, just parents." She throws my words back in my face.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHO36ISSjY4
"Ha ha ha." She's so fucking adorable.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxP7xuNFhy
"Okay, well my dad is a little different and my mom, well, she died last year. Brain tumor. My dad prayed and prayed, but it just wasn't enough." Woah. I can honestly say, I did not expect that. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAFMTJcQMW
"I'm so sorry, Kat. That has to be hard. As annoying as my mom can be, I can't imagine losing her." I hear her sniff and I know she is crying. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkvcF83yRN
"You know, this game kinda sucks." I try to lighten the mood.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNykqoJeRk
She let's out a little laugh. "Yeah, but it kinda worked. We know more about each other, right?" 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Q6VlXvCxQ
"Yeah, I guess. Let's get some sleep. I'm afraid to know what time it is."702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44OtXwU4Tp
"Okay, I'll go. Thanks for doing this." She pushes up off the bed. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnclePGEgl
"No, stay. Please." I hang onto her hand for dear life. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLaNoNj7zG
"I really shouldn't." She can't leave. I need her.702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLWJFR8noP
"You're upset and I would feel better if I could just hold you for a bit. Please." I don't want her to be alone right now and if I'm being honest, I don't want to be alone either. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2GEgKlLlM
"If you insist." I really do. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwe2TkHA3B3
She lays her head on my chest as I wrap her up in a hug. 702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzHfEMIJmL
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