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January 1, 2005
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Same day
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"That's... not... I wasn't..." I try to explain, but now that the lust haze is gone, I am unable to rationalize my actions. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOjr5xl9PI
Was that what I was doing? I wanted to stop thinking about everything and I figured with what I heard about Ben, he wouldn't complain. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbko9mnw3BW
"Ugh... I'm such an idiot." I cover my face with my hands. I just want to get out of here. Laying next to him in my underwear after being rejected is so embarrassing. I need to leave.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMrGRcjDrB
He pulls my hands away from my face. His eyes meeting mine. "No, you aren't. You are just hurting."625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PmD46RxUl
Is that it?625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpo6iCFUxQe
When I caught him with that whore, I was almost relieved. Maybe I'm just not processing my emotions properly... 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRB7ZUDHA8
I should be devastated. I mean, I am really upset, but I feel more like I'm mourning the life I lost, not the person. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqI9gmWJNF9
I think he wanted to get caught. He probably hoped I would join in or something.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4eA7bpxYz
What a creep. How could I give so much to him? I cannot let myself get wrapped up in another man like that again. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwv190nPbw
I need to be strong. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rnfGo1d45
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I need to be independent. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDwFnjHr03
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I need to make better choices. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNUISOE9Uv
I need to... not be here. Crap.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZapZJ35Xa
Ben makes me feel weak and vulnerable.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8hWKrrPOp
But also powerful and wanted. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgaSQUYOZI
Ugh... I am so confused. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAGRvUCFOZ
I do know that hopping from one guy literally onto another is not a good choice.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYvcxXRcj3
I also know that nothing casual can happen with my best friend's boyfriend's best friend. That would be all kinds of complicated. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9b7Z84C7Q
Hopefully I haven't made things too awkward. Oh god, what if they get married? I will have to see him all the time. I will be reminded of this night forever.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69qwEquayt
He smirks, tucking my hair behind my ear. "There she is, the wheels are turning again." 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0fHYzhO25
I can't help the laugh that bubbles up. I probably sound insane, but this night is all sorts of messed up. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbZJBH0Yl0
His face lights up and his dimples emerge. Crap. His smile turns my insides to jelly.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHkmSCeTwH
"Come on, Katarina, give the poor little hamster a break. Tell me your thoughts." He gives me a reassuring smile. I'm not sure I like him using my full name, it makes my heart flutter.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCLgl0A22U
"I think..." I need a light topic. I just want to ignore my problems. "I think this has been the weirdest night."625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEobYsjgM8
He nods in agreement. "Weird good or weird bad?"625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2N2HAkfW8i
"Hah... Both?" I wince, knowing he's going to prod for more and I don't want to go any deeper.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSpWHlnZst
"I am going to have to agree with you." I was not expecting him to agree. "Although, I think yours had a bit more bad than mine." His hand caresses my cheek and I can't help but lean into his touch. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWZNlshTAo
I am so weak. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiCABUxpaf
"Hmm..." His touch is relaxing and I feel the day catching up with me. The emotions and tears taking their toll on my body. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHD3Pl7Yhh
"You falling asleep on me, Kitty Kat?" I can hear the smile in his voice, but I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbo737U0iT
"I am not a cat." I say, as sternly as I can muster, but it comes out weak. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzTyjbSKDz
"Meow." He chuckles at his own joke.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzcXtcPJqX
"You are so not funny." I mumble.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLO7fgfRJk
"Oh come on. You're no fun." He tries to tease me, but he doesn't realize just how accurate he is. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbPaLVE8bJ
Maybe if I were more fun, things would be different. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlPoIvCCXd
"If only you knew..." I snuggle into his hard chest, hoping he won't ask anymore questions. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIx4Deypd8
I know I should leave, but I just can't bring myself to part with him. I'm sure he's filling some void and I'm being pathetic, but he hasn't thrown me out yet.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9zZvU5Tvd
In fact, he pulls me tighter. Resting his face in my hair. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivR3h7enpp
"Don't worry, I will protect you." He whispers and as I drift off into oblivion, I actually believe him. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEbHLWazNv
I awake to the sounds of muffled shouting. There is a heated argument somewhere nearby. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2t6JTubcD
When I try to move, I bump something hard with my elbow and freeze. I hear a groan and feel the bed move slightly. I am not alone.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcX2P1aofXY
Oh no. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBU76l2oE6
What did I do? 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcR71PLd77x
Scanning the room, I realize I have no idea where I am or who could be behind me.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcvlGuw8UO
Unless Vanessa is having a really rough morning, that was definitely too deep to be her voice.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyNUT4uX3K
Crap. I am too afraid to look, who could it be? Bits and pieces from the night come to me, but not enough to piece together anything solid.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt337RkZ2b
I remember crying at some point.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKYN2ZFXHk
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I remember drinking more than I should have.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1a4jjZEsp
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I remember Vanessa being her usual self. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmbcD3HnFx
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I remember her new boy toy stuck to her side. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLDXu1nWBE
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And I remember... Uh oh. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0fvFTcnQ4
It couldn't be... I wouldn't... Would I?625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpx9V1vwrZ
Am I really asking myself this after waking up next to some random guy? Well, maybe not so random...625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBbp9t76X3
Oh god, this is all sorts of complicated. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28t1uHNLvL
Okay, I just have to know... I try to roll over gently, without disturbing him. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkLJNv8lr0
I find a pair of amused green eyes staring back at me. A gorgeous grin with dimples on his stupid perfect face. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bdTHvUJ19
Crap. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZY6xmt3aS
I know I'm blushing hard, I can literally feel my face burning. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfNHxv8jH4
How did this happen?625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiOJgVCgot
"You done freaking out yet?" He asks with a chuckle. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlM565ngkS
Is he... laughing at me? 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRe4YqRrBB1
"Uh..." And just like that, he has short circuited the connection between my brain and mouth. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRqb34lukS
"Don't panic." He talks softly, like I am some wild animal that might bite him.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MueUrSagH
I am totally panicking. I just can't decide if I want to run out of the room or stay and figure out what exactly happened. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4x6f0MdBMm
My curiosity wins, just barely. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMFDEVbI1a
"Nothing happened." I must look really confused, because he feels the need to explain further. "We didn't have sex."625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQNYiIheZG
"Oh..." I'm not sure if I should be relieved or hurt that he was naked laying next to me.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxdpiLrhB6
Nope. Not letting my mind go there.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VyPQy3JLn
I choose to feel relief. I wouldn't have remembered it anyway. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfeXgNt1oQ
"Not for lack of you trying, of course." He flashes a cocky smirk at me. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1VqmR5JrY
I feel a frown tugging at the corners of my mouth, despite my attempt to keep my face neutral. No, I didn't throw myself at him, did I? 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms4prU7zjN
I vaguely remember waking up and thinking I heard my name through the wall and then... 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8R97IqsIb1
"No way... I... Oh god!" My eyes pop open so wide, they begin to hurt.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUCPiipm1K
Crap. Did I really climb on top of him? Yep, I was totally grinding on him.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZUaCWTkAp
I gasp, my gaze running down his body before I can stop myself. I take in his muscles, but his bottom half is covered in a sheet. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Un7GcUkg
His eyes meet mine. "Reminiscing?" 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOr5jOC6F8j
"What! No!" My voice is too high and rushed to be convincing. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUHSDPEe4l
I remember licking his defined chest.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo33kXMeQdw
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I remember... 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFa6O5VwIr
he was naked!625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDewLcp4ws
I inwardly groan. I totally touched him. I know how big he is and... 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvEezR7tYg
Oh god! I know how he tastes. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSjjZFuHFD
"Shit." I know it's inelegant, but I can't think of anything else to say.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7kZCqZ6xv
His mouth pops open as his face twists in shock. "Did you just... I can't believe you just said shit!" 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UH0i6FdTu
"What? Why not?" I sit up, feeling defensive. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCniDcWRmPx
Why is he so shocked? He barely knows me. Why does he assume this? Did I say something weird last night?625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlznoOBOVhE
"You seemed kinda offended when I cussed, so I guess I just assumed..." He looks shy, almost like he was caught doing something wrong.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGLKOWIztO
"Based on?" Sure, I don't make a habit of using curse words, but it's more an ingrained reflex than an actual choice. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1TOkH5wMy
He hesitates, like he's afraid to say and I begin to feel slightly nervous. Crap, what did I say?625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcyXFWSccP
"You... uh... kinda flinched." He blushes and looks around the room. Insecure Ben is totally adorable. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OdGRdCPc9
"Oh." I'm honestly not sure how to respond because I definitely can't tell him the truth. "Well, I wasn't offended."625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHMlCFmVbZ
"Okay." He blows out a breath, looking up at the ceiling. "If you say so." 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaVWpM2Qgo
He looks completely unconvinced but I can't give him more than that. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9b4D6J1zSY
"So." He clears his throat. "Not to be totally awkward here..." His gaze drops to the tent of his crotch before his eyes scan the floor. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarHXDfZjBu
"And not that I would mind laying in bed with you all day." He looks down my body and winks. "But, maybe we should get dressed?"625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbFPNZtEJh
I look down at myself, just now realizing I'm sitting here in lacy underwear. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpl8299YKHV
When I don't respond, Ben flashes his smile. "Or not, I mean you look great." 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKlRDipuvu
I am unable to hide the look of shock on my face before I snatch the sheet to cover myself. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNouN3ACE9K
Which is no longer covering "Little Ben", if you can even call it that.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin5OmNvtvg
Oops.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTBNJWF1HR
Of course that would happen to me! I take a moment to look at it in the daylight and wow, it's like a sculpture. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEbkKcHBOV
Unable to stop myself, I have apparently lost my filter completely around this man. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOaFBkuWMu
"Well hello, Big Ben." I try not to giggle like an immature school girl, but Ben's laugh makes me laugh harder. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZD9yRhbAf
"Big Ben, huh?" He grins, making my stomach flutter. He shakes his head, amused. "What am I going to do with you?"625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQJKqBI55M
My mouth goes dry as my mind conjures up all kinds of things he could do to me. It feels like all the air was sucked out of the room as I struggle to control my breathing. Is it hot in here, or is it just me?625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1qgf3XnKt
My gaze returns to "Big Ben", as it seems to grow, straining to reach me. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c0XdER436
Prying my eyes away, I meet his green gaze. He's no longer grinning or teasing, in fact, it looks like he's in pain. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4CB6Z7B1K
"So, you like what you see?" His eyes never leaving mine. I try to close my mouth and steady my breathing. I need to keep my composure, but my head nods without my approval. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNP7LXxUWB
I lick my lips, remembering last night. I can't get my mouth to form words.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfduBytABFn
"Because I wouldn't mind seeing a little more." He reaches forward, tugging down the sheet. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKVJHiMaTZ
He sucks in a breath. "Fuck, Kat."625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3LfbbxrVo
I close my eyes, my insides turning to liquid fire. I love his cussing, like he can't control himself. Maybe it's because of my background and it makes him seem like such a bad boy, but it turns me on, like crazy.625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZztaBaveIX
He caresses my breasts through the sheer fabric. "God damn, you are beautiful." 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNjSgmU26n
I absorb his words as another wave of lust hits me. I know this is a bad idea. I know we should not be doing this, but I'm not sure I could stop it, even if I wanted to. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGvk0iafjH
His hands move down my body as his mouth meets mine. His kiss is hungry and desperate and I can't get enough. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29IroSTk1k
His hand grazes me where I'm aching and I nearly explode. I need him. Now. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwjEyojKt6
"Do you have a condom?" He has to have one in here somewhere, right?625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRHo4Ss6qL
He blushes and looks slightly uncomfortable. "Actually..." We both freeze as the sound of yelling grows closer. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSaAXm2BH0
I pull the sheet up to cover myself just as the door bursts open. All I see Vanessa's fiery hair flying around as she takes the scene before her. "What the fucking fuck is fucking going on in here?" 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ220mMEqC2g
I know her well enough to know when she can't think, she drops f-bombs. Her gaze drops to Ben's crotch, before he grabs a corner of the sheet to cover himself. 625Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicPFCjqz48
I can't help the laughter that bursts out of me at the sight of her craziness. "Calm yourself, Vanessa."
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