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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1Mdudvb3c
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Of course I see her.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20F423C7RC
I always see her.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUV69mzhUQ
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiTZBA5L7A
Damn it.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNeJvMhLmU
I need to stop looking at her. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYr4PE6XPW
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXZcz8ugnz
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1FfZimTMb
Damn it.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygGnx2JJkp
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCzsntTsp4
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0pMk0RhBO
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGjW9UACop
But I fucked it up. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQHqApigvh
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Of course I fucked it up.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgFFeQlzaf
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkkIjbpVkM
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2GYnVd6fL
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfVkZjm8Ik
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHwOwCOZEh
Can lips be sexy?776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18fZoxhYAy
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRS8at8bf9Z
I need her. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGpiZgCrw0
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuR86kMBLfB
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JlKxhNRIv
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj99myiFGBH
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSgcj8tI4o
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIr7b4NToI
Even her.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YeQ9XFeJy
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TGmioWai7
I feel something strange as I lay down...776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnPqplyGI0
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKSOYHwPrr
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnpv1f6Ql6
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Pc9XQLXPX
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZUbJHn2uy
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOqqwu0oFh
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt4G5Odv4j
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGDxESnOkQ
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QpJPQVpO6
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7X2Njodc8
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0nPiEnLbp
It's not. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4Ld6KY7wY
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqE4lg3dLe
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZm5Qef73zb
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3rvON84ef
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe01o5l6Jpl
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjFDk6fYbe
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXSqsb1Amm
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhmb8YoL1G
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWAHsDNwN5
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4TKOsZil6
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5j6i658Zko
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4o0ytXBvQ
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsZIs6jda2
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYln5mxizh
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhdmaG7l9g
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IWESrxHzC
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GjasOdlG5
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DdgMOr2Lb
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIs1J9QIWDD
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBQBP6LHbG
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxOhhzLYaL
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznE3mzKWpd
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkAQhIkMpR
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTvV7SXyjO
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCVqCnq9GI
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5u7sQQCyB
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiUQ1tJ7Vz
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ywfe4q8Uw
I missed everything about her.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVf6MaeD2w
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK63RH0H3P
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UKMEY6Pxe
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAi6iqp287
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpSzvFVRVR
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjPreLtF1w
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6YzuEtQei
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW4Utmwsgl
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0rZFoYyAv
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUf6I8Yvwgo
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkZPfuEdA6
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIg8IQ1bbtR
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUVXg76FgY
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs63k9PD1XA
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXVUzCbYPb
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9vyweV5zv
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjdXTWXgrZ
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIHpM4HvgO
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn1QUCQtAm
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqrSwXIv4N
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1282UtcSA
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldo1fteqRs
Shit. This is bad. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3b0jPJcer
Faking it is going to be so hard. 776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWpKrqX5GG
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."776Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zsk1HRGy2
I am so fucked.
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