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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52n89Hxjm5
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Of course I see her.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DsCODjot9
I always see her.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQirJ8SkC7
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLNeVZAWal
Damn it.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRef15bZWiX
I need to stop looking at her. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJz3njqP7Mv
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmyAHFinaw
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqxc0YjGP1
Damn it.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87WWgocriB
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2hDBRnCJA
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7jNmFFGfj
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfuxUMO98w
But I fucked it up. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhplzIZmIHZ
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Of course I fucked it up.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsDN8QPAUC
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5myk5kOruG
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAIgmLooj9
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJvArZPSzR
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRwgg4sImP
Can lips be sexy?724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTm22rIECL
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LfwcNMDaZ
I need her. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbtBMhAFuM
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNVPnzSgPp
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoGtw75t0p
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjybjZeegm
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2511J8SZAg
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9gsPZQ0lb
Even her.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4H9ZpbpIe
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKAxbKblZQ
I feel something strange as I lay down...724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLK0uRn1ki
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZjWUk1GBZ
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm78ObYYSLx
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZbe7ZZtEf
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJPn3kuV7z
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfzuJk7poD
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkq11emrSg
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOTbDY4djf
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVH4pvu93Dy
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTbzOLwrQz
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuq3IjyPhK
It's not. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8teJUSqoP
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8DNl8Gfeu
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQHHnHSUxy
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMP3FeOhIJI
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUfgjI4lBl
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWOznutatK
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs24D1qwLUJ
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN6byjq32i
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnItaeDw9hv
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjgkj8KGEm
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZE0KoyuCOz
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbtP9THyiy
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0chOwFGL6
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcPu7mXVKR
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6FxJNDLOH
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dbUC6Bm4t
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMdqZVxZx5
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZb52nBo6EH
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrUczlqlLM
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHY3uBhOLF
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2GXt3tqvN
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbf7pUMN4h
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfR774B4MVA
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxKtZjau9t
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YhQj6ZnlL
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrEHAcYoL2
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSg5s43cBM
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclpmmrYMq1
I missed everything about her.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9IQb6SxGY
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPEcKPVChR
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAhHkkpEwW
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXFCVLN6xD
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZE0Lmyz9A
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NXqxodxAh
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gfT0tnzPs
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTUJjyhGHD
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4oqIz56iR
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35hotd7GTe
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU3r2BElzU
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSksp9zmIkf
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFg8UzrPxA
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNbufsXZA0
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DVDAxq2g8
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lKwf2JVUQ
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2igvD52dv
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5IOV4erjF
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcik9mKPuUD
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyeojJgUnf
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHsgOrrWLw
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBms21Xwa0
Shit. This is bad. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMVclQIQD0
Faking it is going to be so hard. 724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0h6Un6K7s
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiv9jfKLPeL
I am so fucked.
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