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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIV6yhjhjH
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmbEDExbO0
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxt6tB9R0yk
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCpAnzl70e
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWnirHtfcm
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDUSa0ih2D
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboTY4szrVL
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vN8jfcdIq
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6XK77kRya
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LmS6X5IAw
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaOYcbVA6E
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJcZn0Jrrz
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58C7DUIppe
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEawO6Jn9rN
Shoot, was I saying something? 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkU1A7GOh5
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru8i0e9eVH
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9VbjeXS7u
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEGwsZ4gcn
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukwG1PWijM
"Nine." He licks his lips. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcvu7wZPWY
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9id9VJ6CQ
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTAyVj1GGg
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbi5hiYNOis
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtegr9mimBD
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRjdltrSJ9
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLwKKZneBS
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqLJ8OwdBL
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnCreld7v5
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8wgsLDzOh
I could get lost in his eyes.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPriuKuLQR
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmSsBlV1m6
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjCRwCQ6sZ
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuR05oxw40
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLXXq1i8B0
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24npDRlP5I
All too soon, he pulls back.692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5ZtuRMYPC
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CdT6P5fRM
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2EYE3wJDr
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKDB8FYNVd
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEENfHTw9Zq
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUYFup8ntc
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHqdFVg9on
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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