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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitkjHYNDKI
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCmG3m2rz6
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc6WdsM1eh
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYTzbxEmok
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwxbNOEl9j
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvPU7OJNIS
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRRlGEG817
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIogGx2eZg2
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuwJX7HhB6
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKWfblPZfs
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3q9efWCreP
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGeJcgKEbK
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1MD6wldal
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzycJBPuhm
Shoot, was I saying something? 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡto1ZQ3HOia
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSXfE1Fmhe
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcl7wfsogtM
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrcsWeyJGW
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxMCSow1mX
"Nine." He licks his lips. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwZ9OMKOp3
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7DOYZNPEG
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15t2C7vXlh
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWfRWeFrEP
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcT80mWVka
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOxRtem2qF
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Mcsdyy5b0
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIMqC9hjKO
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLppkGz4MqZ
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNT2AKCMGI
I could get lost in his eyes.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RzFUxzLhN
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVr8pfpoZ7
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Hg20m0kFU
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShw9yzCbu4
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHkzY9SZw2
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3j0c5iOhU
All too soon, he pulls back.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeXiDDsGRJ
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwp36MYaOlk
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCod6emowv
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5dJNPHufa
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEpkXiajqr
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTC51qlbHWJ
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKMlvlkTG2
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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