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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx073tYik7V
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OxNqW3jyu
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDezGxvxRED
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYeLoIS81F
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfseMWWSI6m
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxYKjT1PEQ
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02Jr3posmt
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVxH2cB5sT
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcDhZ2M4Jh
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfOgQ0NCEW
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjyfQAkJVk
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQuQb2CxaM
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ731ciCVijt
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRo1Cyy5IF9
Shoot, was I saying something? 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgX57hJ9YIP
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHSqgCIb54
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWXKQD8QC2
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5Q3p6ADSW
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaKmV7xS47
"Nine." He licks his lips. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWcw4XIwg9
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJsqvnzX3z
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLjCpzIVQ1
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCA5DykRig
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxs8YPahWz
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9TAafhNzO
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOgoEGYNaZ
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDEKo8TAcN
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WkH04l0nD
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6WhZ79lQg
I could get lost in his eyes.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMl3EFUoUUZ
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQV2XJUDOM
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkmY4RJfJG
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32QjZWkh0F
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltXMqsqWJC
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53E76BYgar
All too soon, he pulls back.723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfhEE3TD4T
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFZ26NsM0K
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemmW7L5qwA
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCb4GGskHk9
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YV3bTFvRB
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpAoSpDWYp
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 723Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNJZyjRvUU
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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