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May 21, 2005
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Fuck.
Kat doesn't want to be with me.
Not yet.
It's only three months, right? I can make it that long without her, can't I?
Fuck. When did I become so pussy whipped? Of course I can make it a couple measly months without her.
No big deal.
I will just stay away from sluts and she will wait for me.
Shit.
What if she doesn't wait for me? That would fucking suck. I couldn't handle her being with someone else.
Dammit. I would make him disappear, without even thinking twice.
"Uh... Ben? Where are we going?" Oh god, I've just been pulling Kat towards the door without saying anything.
Okay... a plan. Shit, I could really use one of those.
I continue leading her out the front door, hoping the air will clear the lust. I drag her to my Bentley, opening the passenger door for her. I kiss her hand before helping her get in.
Guess my plan was to take her home?
Fuck.
That's such a shitty plan. I'm losing her for three months, I am not taking her home right now.
I need a better plan.
"Ben?" She's looking at me with curiosity. I guess I'm not usually the one stuck in my thoughts.
"Yes, beautiful?" I can't help but notice my craving for her is amplified in this tight space. I start the car, keeping my eyes on her the whole time. My body turns towards her on instinct.
Shit. I still have no clue where to go.
She leans closer, her breath pressing softly against my cheek. "Are we going somewhere in particular?"
"Oh, I could think of a few places I wouldn't mind going." Of course, you won't find any of those places on a map, but I can definitely see them from here.
My eyes drift down her body, taking in the curves I already know so well. I like it a lot more when it isn't covered up.
Judging by the look on her face, she caught me checking her out.
Oh fuck it. Maybe she will spank me for misbehaving. I have to hold in my chuckle at the image of innocent little Kat trying to punish me.
She could do whatever the fuck she wanted to me and I would probably enjoy it.
Shit, my minds stuck in the gutter.
Switching my attention to driving to an unknown destination, I pull out of the parking space. Maybe the open road will clear my head.
As my eyes watch the road, my thoughts drift to her.
We could make out on the hood of my car if I can find a secluded area. But where?
Shit. I'm back in the gutter again.
"A few places?" She really is a curious Kat. And even more innocent than I thought, since she didn't pick up on my super subtle flirting.
Maybe it's me. Kat fucks up my head. I'm a complete idiot around her. Maybe I need to step up my game.
I mean, she didn't even think I liked her.
How could she not know? She's all I fucking think about. She's driving me insane. I need her.
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I need to kiss the shit out of her.
I need to breathe the same air as her to live.
How the hell am I going to survive this summer?
I pull over on the side of the road, since I'm not even sure where I was going anyway.
Once I'm stopped, I look over to find Kat staring at me, her eyes are huge and her mouth is hanging open.
"Uh... Ben? What are we doing here?" She looks like a wild animal trapped in a cage.
"Relax, I'm not going to murder you." I chuckle, but she doesn't look any calmer.
"You think that would make me feel better, but it really doesn't." She doesn't really think I would do anything to her, does she?
"Okay, fine. I promise I won't murder you. Better?" I give her my most innocent smile. Hopefully I don't look like a serial killer.
"Not really." Well, shit.
"Kat, I would never do anything to hurt you. You know that right?" Maybe she's afraid of me.
"Yeah, I do." Thank fuck.
"Okay, good." I let out the breathe I held while waiting for her answer. "I only stopped because I couldn't think of where to go."
"I thought you said you had a few ideas." Her statement comes out more as a question.
I laugh so hard I can't even respond.
"You weren't talking about real places, were you?" I try to get a handle on my laughing, but she's still eyeing me suspiciously.
I clear my throat and shake my head. "Uh... No. Not really." Another giggle escapes without my permission.
She shakes her head, laughing at me. "Oh Ben, what am I going to do with you and your dirty mind?"
"Well, I could think of a few things for that too." I poke her nose.
She pretends to glare at me, even though her lips are fighting a smile. "You are impossible."
"Impossible to ignore..." I give her my best smirk. "...my hot body!"
She rolls her eyes. I love making her do that. "You're ridiculous."
"I'm ridiculously crazy..." I pause for dramatic effect. "...about you!"
It doesn't get the reaction I expected. Her body tenses as her eyes dart out her side window.
"Kat?" Fuck. What did I do?
She ignores be, continuing to pretend there's something outside that she can't peel her eyes away from.
"Katarina..." shit what rhymes with her name? "Argentina?"
She continues ignoring me. "Katarina Neutrogena!"
Still nothing. "Katarina... Josephina." That one sucked.
What else rhymes? Oh, I got it! "Katarina ballerina!"
Well, that got her attention. "Do. Not. Call. Me. That." She looks like she might go full hurricane.
"Okay, sorry." I hold up my hands in surrender. "I didn't realize it meant something to you."
"Whatever." She crosses her arms over her chest. Not that I'm looking. Nope, definitely looking into her eyes.
"Seriously, Kat. I'm really sorry." I really want to know why she reacted that way.
She sighs, relaxing a little bit. "Just don't do it again."
"Okay. I won't." I know better, but my curiosity is running wild. "Is that what your old boyfriend called you?"
Maybe I shouldn't have used the word old. I know he was older, but I didn't mean it that way.
"Eww. Gross." She scrunches up her face. "My dad calls me that."
"Oh..." Thank god I'm not reminding her of her douche-bag ex-boyfriend. Although, I don't think reminding her of her father is much better.
"Yeah." She doesn't give me any more details, so I don't press any further.
"So, where do you want to go?" I turn back to the wheel, ready to drive.
"I think I just want to go home." Shit. I've ruined our last time together before the break.
"Okay." I can't hide the disappointment in my voice. I was really hoping to have a little more time together.
We ride in silence the whole way home. My brain racing through all the possibilities and worst case scenarios.
By the time I park in front of her dorm, I have a plan.
She turns to me while gripping the door handle. "Listen, if you don't want to wait, I totally understand. No hard feelings at all."
"I don't think you understand. When I asked you to be my girlfriend, I meant it. You aren't just another girl. You're the one, and only one, I want to be with." I lean closer to her. "So you better fucking believe I'm going to wait until you are ready to be with me."
I can tell by her face that I shocked her. Good. She needs to remember this all summer.
"I'm not telling you to wait for me, but I really hope you do, because I want to be with you more than anything else in the world." I hold her face with my hands. "Please wait for me."
She nods slightly, her voice coming out as barely a whisper. "I will."
I crash my lips against hers, I give her the best kiss I am capable of. I break away, hoping I left a lasting impression to keep her mine.
Her face is unreadable for once. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. Without saying a word, she turns to open the door and leaves me behind.
I lean forward, just before she shuts the door. "Bye, darlin'."
She nods, looking utterly confused and gorgeous. She shuts the door gently and slowly walks into her building.
I wait until she's safely inside before pulling out to head home. She thinks she's gotten rid of me for a few months, but she has another thing coming.
I won't let her forget about me.
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