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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFskx2hHv29
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0JIJXQ9Q1
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ828hyMk9cU
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacDJb9h3lp
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvchk2KqJH
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0KPcuUFUs
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNbD8XBqsh
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHztgTvOBbj
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbraPNg5dFr
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UbrWWXgoR
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNVZrCSR8w
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oD0GPt8XW
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETX0GrhiLf
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17UOtXSZKW
Shoot, was I saying something? 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquHstSjfip
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaOmNCAKVR
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz72d7Qy57h
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuvhkqfp1a
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCST0mKmQC
"Nine." He licks his lips. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88IyBdqJPQ
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty5Ym5ZI6l
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIVWkFWNCz
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVSHOrTOjH
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LjwxY4hL2
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpF4O2R0AMS
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRxA8dbJsD
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvgLPuWpfv
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ipn5UIoGW
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleeA9DweNR
I could get lost in his eyes.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOidrEfluP
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUE81TRlpE
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOx7i3e5GJ
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPuovAcHvn
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzA5lS6iIX1
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdmQaDSSGJ
All too soon, he pulls back.693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXW2zZXv22B
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCP64FP3Xn0
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3i4VAIbT0
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqluy4W6KN
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZq4kmKvvF0
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcvkr0uFWz
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4u6FO6SHO5
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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