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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonvUqVQaHa
This is not me.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1R8pRrZZUJ
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I am not impulsive. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQ4cO2Ufzc
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I do not lose control.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydlCQ1hzrl
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I do not kiss random guys.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XjUCSSlmQ
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbufJz13gt
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfkkrCmFqX
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxWtJLeAaP
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With big bulging muscles. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojQ1RIYZ8u
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnHvcH5Egs
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And dimples... 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHQVzcU830
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrJ9pFWq4v
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvVP5uXaXL
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGoBqvqpsq
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlnk5vilVR
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNxU6KAPHQ
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8RNSLgKJn
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJ1dyZETrV
The flow... 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqd2kxDgwF
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWabWiZkUL
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74nCrlqfJP
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqBfTxSl9g
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnlnV2ay5m
I am not this girl. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYwiTpkKHq
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I am independent. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIFl6Ti6em
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I am intelligent. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGWufccrYw
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I do not crave any guy. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwZRf761LF
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I have my head on straight. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8G0N25xhBX
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYOLLscjhl
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulyRXsSZJf
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE0v4lev9O
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7uUkzd9ig
Hey, a girl can hope, right?749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOUQxT3ET7
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVjMLsT2NP
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwq6zrDhWp
Or am I just totally crazy?749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38IeeuA8Dw
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpwqHLKBnc
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmlVsdqcqh
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwsWWzr6qs
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYZvMlkAun
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5LZYDaqbq
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dkAD0A0pQ
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWVkTWiwNs
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmYMES5gAN
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLvHCvabAl
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnjQgBMZZu
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8Qi6sK1db
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyxAnjnlI0
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8x7frYcyE4
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChTtWSg0iZ
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso9SbQhAmc
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgh8AlBVLxM
I am so screwed. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicqerFe25S
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ur6bggSyZ
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEdya9wnmR
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59c7hyvjAU
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MNizibIqs
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebRaqM5bTn
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrElsUkGYF
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDXSONIHfe
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQezEcJmPO
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BU9DpZVex
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13PjGzv6JD
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2ZmdakTQk
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDupgulpBy1
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu7cZKzFrU
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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