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可惜，現實中，他卻是情怯的。愛，不一定使人勇敢。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxCYrPZdgk
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終於星期一，朝光放學，馬上來到社工室。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHUTe7qPbA
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「Hello，靚女姐姐。」他將書包拋到沙發上。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP0dqUwBuK
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「今日搞咩，咁口甜？」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMhvLLbbsg
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「冇呀，咁你係吖嘛。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEMVdPR6uh
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「神神化化。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgk4Ug65WzS
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「係呢，上個星期嗰個男人，就係你老公？」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKW11TxUfn
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「係呀。」那不然？757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSTbc6kPtA
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「咁呢，佢係個點嘅人嚟？」他想了解多一些，沒有為什麼。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1DMGbypkS
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「嗯——」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ170pvElb4z
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思思停下手上的工作，思考「程日朗」是一個怎樣的人。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTAH3l8aeZ
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勇敢？大方？有義氣？驕傲？聰明？757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV44GuJ7tes
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細心？温柔？體貼？757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHM96M6Q4R
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不、不。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt452MEr406
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不。他是，他是。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6OUMlzc2f
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可是，這些形容詞仿佛已經變成了一種遠古的印象，或者成為了一些顯而易見的公論，譬如，說起牛頓會想起蘋果，說起魯迅會想起人血饅頭，說起黃子華會想起棟篤笑——但大體呢？又似乎說不出什麼來，正如世上大部分人都不清楚三大定律的細則為何，一樣。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEzN1TFITB
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思思「記得」阿朗是怎樣的人。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oFA4cC49E
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但這是一種記憶，好像，又變得很模糊。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdar1PBm3S
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慢慢，另一個面向的印象開始浮現——他會因為小事而嘮嘈她幾句，他有時會反對她的意見，他偶然忘記二人的紀念日，他會敷衍地回覆在說閒話的她。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUnpOg7DFs
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這是他，真實又乾脆的他。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qxwyyWY9v
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他還是他，只是多增少減，變成了一個她更了解的他——757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrw5ufYC5T
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「喂呀，你諗咁耐㗎？」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsfi6nX2HH
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變成了一個，她比以往感到陌生的他……更加熟悉，也可以解讀為：更加疏離。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8lluMVP8p
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「我老公好好，嗯，好好啊。不過，我會話以前好啲，可能係我變咗啫。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3BGIAq5z2
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「咩意思？」朝光期望她會肯定。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqmAWKtJS2
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「咁一齊得耐，就緊係同啱啱一齊嗰牌係唔同啲㗎啦。唔識點同你解釋……你當係我貪心囉，又鍾意宜家呢種安穩，但同時，又鍾意後生嗰時嘅大家咁。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOBpkjRM1C
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「咁係咪啫係，冇咁鍾意？」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPeNiDsx4n
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思思也不知道。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy91FKBYsHu
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不經細思、真要說的話，她會答：「係。」因為她不會再因為他而心跳加速，不會再突然覺得他很好看，不會再想和他說很多無聊的瑣碎，她寧願自己一個沿着海濱靜靜的走。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaIxLIQG2d
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她有時覺得很煩，不願意再理會身邊的一切，可是，她不理解自己這種心理——因為，現在一點都不煩惱——已成家、各得其宜、孩子乖巧、工作穩定。她慰藉過丈夫從前的壓力和異心，安撫過女兒的任性和頑皮，迎戰過奶奶的挑剔和責備，抵禦過別個女人的挑釁和攻佔……757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWI9Thp0Gy
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但她似乎，沒法守護自己的心。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UItSjd7oa
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很煩很煩很煩。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSmdviRDF8
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她知道，有些事情是不對的，可是，它還是出現了，並且不走；像流浪狗把尿撒在街燈的柱上，尿就一直流、流、流，從在柱上清晰可見的水潤，到已與石地顏色所差無幾，再流至街燈照不到的黑暗；但一經過，還是會嗅到一股尿臊味。看不到是看不到，不顯眼是不顯眼，但說到底還是成為了她心頭上小小的疤，她覺得她是那暗巷。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubC4t0ma4U
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「鍾意。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3itXrquDD
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她沒有確切的答案，但她總不能對一個青年學生透露心聲。何況，喜不喜歡的定義，是什麼？熱戀男女的喜歡，和已婚男女的喜歡，完全是兩個次元的物種。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61nyQk6vqJ
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是她忽然想要回到熱戀的最初，想回味那份青澀的悸動。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvjnyQpq8d
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「啫係冇以前咁鍾意啦。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiU3OAheBaV
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朝光看得出，她最近越來越不在狀態，雖然她還是專心聆聽、回應，但是，想事情的時間比以往久，答話時的用語又總是不夠貼近問題。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlAFqufXnz
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幸福的婚姻會使人如此頹靡嗎？757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2nmPOjHv0
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他又有些隱隱的失落——點解，唔可以話俾我聽，同我分享呢？我應該同你算唔錯熟㗎……因為，你覺得我仲係小朋友？而你已經係大人？如此鬰悶。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zRdNJWmHB
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「唔係呀。點會？」她在心頭慌了一下，迅速答。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghtIq8yJVp
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「做咩咁驚呀？平時問你嘢，你都冇答得咁快㗎喎。其實冇以前咁鍾意，都好正常啫……有咩問題先？」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzqgyRtnUy
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「咁我自己嘅事，當然答得快啦。」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHJhGdhe3o
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其實朝光說得有道理，激情褪色，感覺上差了一點，是很正常的事。可是，又似乎非常愧於啟齒，阿朗聽到的話，一定會不開心的；或者，如果阿朗如此和思思說，她難免也會非常落寞。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DtIxTK1a2
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這應該，應該是一個有共識的美麗秘密；但此刻，沒有共識，只是她的一個小小煩憂。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMX2czxARY
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「係咩，唔信。」朝光肯定地質疑。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9Ht5yX2BT
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「唔信就算囉。」她晃了晃頭，不打算繼續話題，轉身看電腦。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJkRuFIYJZ
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她隱約知道問題所在，他們，再不是當日那個他們。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs62mbAO19J
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