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（01）283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMfVM8YeUK
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一九九三年，他六歲。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nja7A4uK6
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夏夜有風。媽媽替他更換小背心當睡衣，撥扇哄他入睡。睡得香甜，不願醒來，懶理微微發癢的臉頰。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgg6GDZX2Xn
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夏日惡毒，毒不過他臉頰上的無名腫毒。媽媽焦急收拾銀包和證件，說要帶他到醫院。爸爸睄他一眼，認為他近日吃過量煎炸食物，長暗瘡，純粹熱氣，無需花錢求醫。媽媽沒好氣，匆匆拖著神智不清的他前往醫院。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyWVvWPIsY
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醫院離家不遠，不過二十分鐘腳程。相識的鄰里、熟悉的街景，既近且遠，扭曲模糊折疊……天旋地轉，手腳一軟，眼前一黑，倒下。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJT8a7FWCc
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看不見，聽得到。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Pa7jMA528
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尖叫，呼救。心跳，鼻息。人，車。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSH9SrzeIc
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電車。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrILsvP5vo
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叮叮——叮叮——283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsXp2rFdAX
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他曾取笑它慢吞吞。媽媽說電車再慢亦會比他快。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rLP6tCEBD
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媽媽喜歡電車那叮叮聲，平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDVAXDgt9c
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他仔細聽、認真聽。平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qzzGcbcD1
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刻骨銘心。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcUuGDgt1x
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叮叮——叮叮——283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVSfvwcld9
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（02）283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvoc6qC076
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看得見，聽不到。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dzfMF8ANG
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聽不到醫生說他內耳受感染，無法康復。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvW97xvaUM7
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聽不到爸爸怪責媽媽疏忽照顧他。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdnJO2Qoaz
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聽不到媽媽自責飲泣。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7h5hefVmj
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但他統統看見了——他看見聲音。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIm6bm7XnfD
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絕望聲音是揚沸的黑煙。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdh1wae3D7k
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憤怒聲音是燃燒的血紅。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZXfK51siC
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罪疚聲音是混濁的海藍。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xQEX7LkSB
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世界五顏六色，暴烈狂亂。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmROAfpacxw
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他受驚瑟縮在家，直至媽媽的顏色徹底消失。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjZt8jcB6f
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爸爸指向電車，比手畫腳，示意媽媽昨夜在電車自殺。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa2L5IHtMb
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叮叮——叮叮——283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6P99Bb1NB
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叮……283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbqTA1P3g0
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（03）283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AiLYx9HKH
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二零二三年，他三十六歲。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18whfOQtmf
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當年媽媽離世後，爸爸帶他遷離港島，遠離電車，遠離傷心地。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhZQZ6l5Jd
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時日漸過，傷痛漸退，他漸漸看不見聲音的顏色。他明白那是幻覺，是自身心理防禦機制產生出來的，用以舒緩情緒和壓力。聲音的顏色日益淺薄，如煙如霧，再也妨礙不了他的人生路。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5cPmcuofz
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他決定要勇敢，走出陰霾，好好過活，不然會像爸爸一樣帶著哀傷終其此生——爸爸去年自殺，同樣在電車上。明明爸爸比他更抗拒港島和電車，為何偏偏在電車自殺？因為媽媽？沒能知道，沒能問個清楚明白。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ335QvZb0cm
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二十七年來，他首次踏足港島。心情緊張，有如當年踏入新居。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpWf6Olrwp
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熟悉傢俬配上陌生單位，有形無神，是家不是家。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyxGyhJ4Cs
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常見事物配上獨特氛圍，舊瓶新酒，突兀不協調。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbo2XGOuZLY
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周遭顏色頓變濃稠，阻擋視線，如屏成障。看不見前路，聽不到指引，忽爾忘記將來。人總沒法拋棄過去吧。過去構成現在，現在組構將來。過去如何，將來也必如何……283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRfZj5FmAz
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一抹綠影突然冒出，撥開重重色彩，在他眼前掠過，緊隨而來是隱隱卻嘹亮的聲音。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWBfUVtwVH
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叮叮——叮叮——283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3fe9blIvK
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震驚。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzq24RWitx2
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怎麼可以聽到聲音？283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEzXQ4BBO9
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叮叮——叮叮——283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1BwRWCxYh
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一股莫名衝動驅使他拼命追趕電車。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4aF1kV9n1
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累。電車再慢亦會比他快。他再快亦追不到那些經已遠去的。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZttE0OeFP
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他開始不明白自己為何要追趕。他沒有追趕的原因。他再努力亦無法追回那些人事物。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZQozXrJLQ
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他不想再追。很累……283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA03QuJ9wl
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叮叮——叮叮——283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSngkc1vMm7
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乘客陸續發現行為怪異的他，將手提電話伸出窗外拍攝。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctKh1Xvv6t
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電車似是擁有生命，生出無數觸手，向他招迎。當中有兩隻全綠的右手沒有手提電話。揮動姿勢與其他手臂不同，是多麼的熱情親切，充滿期盼，彷彿在講：「來！快來！」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv70uSKHNDl
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他咬咬牙，跑得更快，想要看看綠手主人——會是他們嗎？283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFaARTGP6A
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他沒能看見綠手主人的臉，但他堅信那是父母的手！283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9Couu7Ts1
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這可能是他有生之年最後一次與父母團聚！283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGhcUwtPts
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父母都是自殺的，在他毫無心理準備之時離他而去。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07q77cSW2n
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他接受不了。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCacPA2oLk
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叮叮——叮叮——283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4gaFCmhA1
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電車準備靠站，他快要追到。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NhViu3YNo
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綠手開始氣化。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56GQr1Aip3
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再努力亦枉然？一切努力只顯得他是那麼無能無力。他唯一做到的僅是無奈接受……283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7cWmN1QPe
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綠手在他眼前消散無痕。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ke5A6zLZD
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他力竭倒地，哭得像個孩子。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHVuxr16Q6
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叮叮——叮叮——283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd40g8eDQgQ
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電車靠站，乘客分道揚鑣，世界運轉如儀，沒有因為他的怪異行徑而改變本身命運。正如他沒有因為努力而及時握著兩隻注定要消散的綠手。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyB6EWvDBm
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緣盡。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCkd9nSQQP
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無謂執著。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrhaYdcOjP
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忽爾澄明。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQz5yjY3gqe
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汗止，氣平，淚盡。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUX311XNAIK
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他重新站起來，拍拍褲管塵灰，抬頭挺胸走向電車站。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SmP02Xxnu
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排隊，付款，上車。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8xIPJsmo7
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如同其他乘客。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttd0bIQTK9
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如同其他同樣平凡而獨特的乘客。
